giving up

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Hi all,

I just feel like giving up. I am usually a pretty up and optimistic person,

except since moving, it seems like it's taken forever to get doctors to

understand me. I am thankful for the GP that I have and the new Rheumy, but

every time I turn around I feel like I am surround by another idiot doctor

that doesn't know a thing about what he should be doing and because of a

horrible orthopedic doctor that wouldn't take my foot problem seriously last

year (Oh, it's just another stress fracture and didn't care that it was

swollen all winter, I have now had two straight summers in casts and boots,

and now face bone death in that bone because of improper care - I'm sorry

but what an idiot. I looked it up and it's called AVN ha - the same thing

Gail is facing. But I've had it. I've had nothing but medical issues my

whole life, from my tonsils out 3 times when I was a kid, to bone spurs

removed when I was 9, to over 25+ surgiers for multiple things, some stills

related, mostly endometriosis related.

I have no energy, don't want to do anything because my foot hurts and the

boot doesn't help and my poor husband is always wanting me to do something.

At night, on the days that we do things, my bones just hurt, so much that

I'll just cry myself to sleep. I am so tired of this, I just don't care

about anything anymore. I can't say this to anyone else because If I tell

my husband, he'll be upset. If I tell my parents, they will freak out. So

I'm telling you guys.

Anyway, I am making mysefl get up and go out this morning against my better

judgement, knowing that my foot will be swollen and throbbing in an hour our

so, but if I don't do this, mentally I will want to strangle the quack that

calls himself an orthopedic doctor.

How I have managed to go from such a great team of doctors to this is beyond

me. I knew I wanted to be with my family, I knew it would take a bit of

time to rebuild a good team, I just didn't think that I'd have one quack

after another. Especially considering my specialist are in Nashville. But

it goes to show that not all doctors are good and you have to fire them if

they are suspicious in any way. I was so use to great doctors - it took a

while to learn that lesson.

Oh well - onward...

Alli