Struggling, struggling, and more strugling.

[Guest guest]

Iv'e just ahad one of my ah! ah! moments. I was thinking through what wrote in

my last post about happiness and acceptance, and I could see the enormous amount

of struggling I'm doing even right now. Struggling to play the keyboards,

struggling at the guitar, struggling to tidy up, to go out, to get things done,

etc, etc, etc, and everything else.

And at work there's even more relentless struggle as I need to get to grips with

new technical developments and new software. Plus, I regret not going for

promation for a supervisor's job, but I know I am too ill for it right now, so I

practice it instead by helping out in the office organising things for the

supervisor. So, tons and tons more effort although I really just want to curl up

and sleep and rest. I ache for this.

Hey! but why don't I switch off the struggle switch and work towards things at

my own relaxed pace. But how does this work with commitment? a part of ACT I

find really diffiicult, i.e, I would like to go out but I am too tird. But I

always say I'd better make the effort even though I feel almost dead - this is

my interpretation of commitment - just don't give in, ever. Strugle, struggle,

and loads more struggle, but crikey, this is making me so ill and also very

dissapointed in myself as I fail miserably all the time. But now I think have

finally got it, acceptance is always first and commitment way way behind at

second place. So Kv, just go real easy at things.

Crumbs, I really like this, I feel the pressure driting away already. I'm going

to give this a whirl and report back later, but I reckon this will work. Perhaps

we are all quite different and need to use ACT in our unique different ways.

Wow! a big burden has already gone from my shoulders.

Kv