what to do with thoughts

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i usually meditate every day, and often it is very uncomfortable. at least these

days. i get a lot of thoughts, and some of them claim to be true, they say: " you

will have to look into this and fix this " . i am not sure how to defuse from

these. they say " this noticing of thoughts does not have an effect, and you're

doing it wrong, you might as well quit " . my mind takes a specific situation,

like i wsant to visit a friend of mine, who lives in another city, and he says

" you can't do it, cause you will feel like a failure, you have to find out who

you are first, you have to figure it out " , and then it throws on more stuff,

just to complicate matters. it says " you are no one, you are just a chameleon

with no inner life, no power, no confidence, you are a ridiculous, little piece

of shit " . hehe...my mind is quite a character.

the thoughts that are most likely to hook me, are the ones that say " this is

true, it is serious, and it debilitates you " . this is for example " you have no

personality " and " if you don't understand why you can't be close to another

human being, your life will be shit " .

today i imagined a big pot of thought stew cooking, and i was tossing my

thoughts into it. but i am afraid of throwing away some of them. they seem like

a matter of life and death. i should just throw them in the pot, right? i'm not

always sure what to do with them. how much respect should they get?

haakon