update

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Hi Dottie, Larry and Gail,

Yes, I have truly had it. I even had a mini-breakdown yesterday and my

wonderful husband helped me realize how mad I was at some of my past doctors

for only looking at half the problem (the rheumy side) and not the

(endocrine side). I found myself for the first time ever in over 8 years

getting mad at God. Which really upset me based on my faith. I am over that

now. I hope I don't do that again. I also had to forgive the past doctors

and look forward to today and the new doctors and hope and pray they can

figure out the other half of the picture. Now that I have a nodule that has

grown on my Thyriod just this summer and has started out really small and I

can feel that it has gotten bigger in two month, I hope they can figure it

out.

I am still having low grade temps and my energy level stinks, but tomorrow I

have to find energy from somewhere to go to the ortho sports doc for my foot

(get cast off and find out next step -- another cast? injection? etc?) and

also go to my Rheumy's office to pick up med rx's (pain meds) and have an

ultrasound of my Thryriod. We are, at this point still planning on going on

the trip, which we would leave for on Sat and have two days of 5-6 hrs of

driving (which I would sleep most of the time). Monday we would start a

cruise for 5 days (we found a really, really cheap cruise). then after that

we would stay at a hotel that we have free nights at for about 4 or 5

nights. We are still hoping and praying it won't fall apart!.

I am really beginning to hate my body sometimes. I don't want to cancel, I

really want to do this for my husband.

We'll see how it goes...

hope you all are ok.

Alli