Guest guest Posted December 3, 2010 Report Share Posted December 3, 2010 I have been having a hard time with guilt lately. I know I feel it to the extreme, I'm normally able to accept the feelings and move on because I know they are not even warranted feelings of guilt just depression trying to get the best of me. One of my values is to be a patient, loving, attentive parent. That has always been a core value of mine. I practice a philosophy called Attachment Parenting and one of the main beliefs is to NOT spank. I've been having a lot of marital problems and yesterday we had a huge fight. My very spirited little girl was being very rambunctious and jumping around the baby while I was nursing him. Landing on his head once. I could feel my pressure rising. I asked her numerous times to go back to bed. I raised my voice, she knew I couldn't get up because the baby was falling asleep so she just kept going and going and then I did it. I hit her. My God, I feel like the most horrible person in the world. I feel like I'm an abuser, that I should be punished. I'm having a hard time defusing from these thoughts because I really feel what I did was very wrong, although logically I know I'm not an abuser or need to be punished. Can you defuse from thoughts that you feel are true but are of no use to you? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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