Pretty slow message board these past few days.

[Guest guest]

We have squeaky-voice Millie today, so my nerves are about shot.

I slept til noon just trying to catch up from all of the 5:00 a.m

starts all week.

Family members really don't it! My brother-in-law was going to take

Millie tonight so I said I would go to out faculty Christmas party.

I heard nothing from him all day and just now, four hours before my

party, learn he is not coming. They just assume I have no life, or

marriage, and that I love being next door with Millie all of the time.

Today Millie wanted to go with me to get the party trays for the

party. I said I was just going to Publix, and she wanted to go.

When we were leaving the grocery store she was rather put out that I

didn't tell her we were just going to the grocery store. It was a

pain in the butt to take her in the first place, and then she is

upset that the grocery store is the only place we went. I know this

is minor, but I do try to sometimes have a normal life.

My husband is going to sit with her tonight, a first!

I try to keep them separated as much as possible, and so it should be

interesting to see how they get on this evening.

They started her on vicoden for her pain, and it is too early to tell

what that will do to her personality.

I guess what I am feeling today is that I just don't know how to get

any time for myself because we live next door. If i am not at her

house and she wants to find me, she comes over to my house. I don't

feel like I can take a nap, or get a shower while I am at my own

house.

We have to take a gift to this party and I have no idea if anyone

will like what I chose. The pressure is just too great. Once

eveyone opens their gift in the exchange, then you can trade anybody

else for their gift. I haven't done one of these before, so who

knows if a lighted stained-glass snowman will be a covetted gift.

I'd be better off not going, but my friends are picking me up, to

make sure that i do go. I can tell it is tiime for a xanax.

I looked up Blue Christmas services in my area and the closest one is

an hour and a half away. I just don't have any holiday spirit. i am

sure it is partly because I have no festive energy.

The post the other day about the washer full of " it " , certainly put

that day in perspective for me. i know I have so much less to

complain about than you guys at more advanced levels, but weary

doesn't even cover it today. If I ever tried to hoist my fanny up to

go in the washer, I am sure the agitator would stab me squarely on my

butt and leave a nasty bruise. That would be far worse than someone

leaving the toilet seat up in the middle of the night. I am thinking

someone dumped the contents of the commode bucket, rather than

actually using the washer for no good. A mystery that will never be

solved, I am sure.

when one member said she takes her husband back the night before she

goes back to work because the LO was always a problem when she tried

to get ready for work, i knew that feeling for sure.

I find it so much easier when Millie doesn't get up when I leave her

breakfast at 5:30. but then i don't know exactly when she gets her

meds.

I think my pity party is just about over, and I need to wrap the

stained-glass snowman from Cracker Barrel. I will report on the gift

choice tomorrow, when all this worry will seem very trivial.

I would drink myself silly tonight, but I am smart enough to know

that paybacks will be awful.

Til tomorrow!

Carol

[Guest guest]

Carol,

Hoping you have a great time at the company x-mas party. I would definitely

love the stained glass snowman as I love all things Christmas and never feel

that my house is decorated enough until it looks like Christmas threw up in

here.

Shame on your BIL for leaving you in the lurch. I'm sure you husband will

figure out a way to be with his mother and if he doesn't he'll really come to

appreciate all that you do for her and him!

Courage