After Christmas blues...

[Guest guest]

Is anyone else having those or is it just me? All of my planning and good (what

I thought

were good) ideas just didn't work out for me yesterday and I'm finding it hard

to keep my

eyes dry and my chin from wobbling today. Grandma and I did nothing but fight

yesterday

morning as I tried for the 8th day in a row to get her to brush her teeth to no

avail, my breaks

started making a horrid scraping sound on my way to my parents house, what I

thought was

a thoughtful gift to my step-dad of a letter campaign to raise funds to donate

to a research

organization for the cancer he has made him cry instead of making him happy,

after planning

the big family christmas gathering around grandma she insisted on leaving 10

minutes after

we got there so I didn't get to visit with anyone (it was too far away to go

back after taking

her home), when I got home my puppy had pooped all over the floor from the

stress of being

left alone so much for long periods over the last few days, and then she growled

at me when

I tried to pick her up to take her to bed. I had such big expectations and now

I feel so let

down! I keep going back and forth between feeling like I should just lower my

standards to

keep from getting let down and thinking that isn't fair and I shouldn't have to

do it. And the

phrase " Shit happens " keeps popping up in my head and making me angry. It seems

to

happen to me in a very literal way far too often for my liking.

Maybe I just needed to whine a little...thanks for listening (or reading as the

case may be!).

Emma

[Guest guest]

Thanks guys, I'm feeling a little better today, at least about this stuff

anyway. I took the

gift certificate my brother got me and went and had a little shopping therapy

yesterday.

Made me feel good since I've been working hard the last year to get in shape

(I've lost 63

lbs) and almost everything I tried on was a size small. A year ago I was

pushing it with

size XL. I bought a cute new coat since my old one is the size of a circus

tent.

I'm still stressing a little but its about different stuff now and thats in

another post.

Thanks for listening to me vent. It does help.

Emma

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> Hi Emma, i used to feel like this at christmas and as Sandie says it seemed to

last over a

few days then i'd feel fine again. New year would hit and at the bells i would

be in floods

of tears...i hated this time of year, still do hate new year! But all that

changed two years

ago as i was rushing around last minute as usual and my youngest son had

been

unwell for a few days. He was only twelve, we awoke in the early hours of

christmas eve to

the sound of him vomiting, when i got to him he was in a terrible mess and had

blood over

him. He'd been vomiting up blood with such force that it was in the bath tub

too. We spent

the entire day in hospital with him while he was put on a drip and given lots of

medication

to try and help him, he looked so ill. I still had present to buy and wrap and

we were

eventually allowed to take him home late at night providing we dialled 999 if he

vomited

again. The upshot was that we spent christmas day lounging about in our jim jams

looking

after and do you know i finally realised that this time of year was about

everything

else but the things we rush about doing all of December. I had the best

christmas ever just

sitting at home with my family.......I decided that i would always try to enjoy

it no matter

what because come January the bills will fall through the door, we'll have less

money, it'll

snow and there's always some sort of crap waiting for you then!! You'll look

back at the

end of next year at this christmas and just laugh at the calamity that was this

christmas!!

> .xx

> After Christmas blues...

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> Is anyone else having those or is it just me? All of my planning and good

(what I

thought

> were good) ideas just didn't work out for me yesterday and I'm finding it

hard to keep

my

> eyes dry and my chin from wobbling today. Grandma and I did nothing but

fight

yesterday

> morning as I tried for the 8th day in a row to get her to brush her teeth to

no avail, my

breaks

> started making a horrid scraping sound on my way to my parents house, what I

thought was

> a thoughtful gift to my step-dad of a letter campaign to raise funds to

donate to a

research

> organization for the cancer he has made him cry instead of making him happy,

after

planning

> the big family christmas gathering around grandma she insisted on leaving 10

minutes

after

> we got there so I didn't get to visit with anyone (it was too far away to go

back after

taking

> her home), when I got home my puppy had pooped all over the floor from the

stress of

being

> left alone so much for long periods over the last few days, and then she

growled at me

when

> I tried to pick her up to take her to bed. I had such big expectations and

now I feel so

let

> down! I keep going back and forth between feeling like I should just lower

my

standards to

> keep from getting let down and thinking that isn't fair and I shouldn't have

to do it.

And the

> phrase " Shit happens " keeps popping up in my head and making me angry. It

seems to

> happen to me in a very literal way far too often for my liking.

> Maybe I just needed to whine a little...thanks for listening (or reading as

the case may

be!).

> Emma

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