workout update

[Guest guest]

I did 4 minutes of Ab work and 15 of Basic Bootcamp. I am winded, wobbly, and parts of me are protesting my ill-use of them. In other words,...it was a perfect workout. I wasn't able to work out yesterday and the day before that...(translated: didn't want to...so didn't) so I was dreading todays workout...but it was all okay after I admitted to myself that those shoulder circles really do hurt, but let's do it anyway.

In my own personal life. I'm having trouble keeping to my "bedtime" and then end up sleeping late and that, of course, causes the next night to be even worst. Some people have said that they envy me not having to go to work....and so can go to bed when I feel like it. It's harder to be disciplined when there isn't a structure on the day. It's easy to stop doing the things that keep you feeling good. Like going to bed at a regular time and taking meds at regular times. I hate that I'm not as disciplined as I'd like to be. (I'm half German--so the need for control/discipline is there) -- I sometimes feel at war with myself for the most basic of things. Today was better. I agreed to myself to go back to the lesser list (I had put too much on it) and found myself more willing to do what I need to do to each day. That probably makes no sense. I find that if I expect "superwoman", I tend to spend the day on the sofa just avoiding the fact that I'm not getting that "superlist" done. So I have to accept moderation -- which is sensible but means I have to put my superwoman cape back into the closet -- yet, I'd rather get a moderate list done than no list at all....and we're not talking about impossibilities - just things like exercise, clean the house, work on my writing.

Okay, no more moaning about that I'm not as capable of flapping (flying) as I once once -- there are nice things to look at here on the ground, just where I'm at.

Charlotte