Re: [christian-depression] extremely hurt!!

[Guest guest]

Dear list, Meenie I hope you don't mind inheriting the list. Looks

like I won't be around anymore!

> I am in so much mental pain. This morning the social worker came to

> talk to us about the adoption we've been doing things for since May. I

> think he's so cruel. He said that he knows we would be good parents.

> (All 3 of our sons in school serving the Lord. One had a big write up

> in paper on Thursday, the other will receive 2nd highest in state award

> at Farm Show on Tuesday for 4H). But the 5 people we asked to send in

> letters sent in letters that said I was too depressed to raise a child

> and that we forced them into filling out the forms, they didn't want

> to! Why didn't they tell us these things? Why didn't he tell us this

> sooner? These are all folks from our church, whose kids I have in

> Sunday School, whose kids are in my 4H club. I am well enough to do all

> those things. Why then couldn't I raise a child??

> I am in so much pain. I just buried my cousin unexpectedly on

> Tuesday. I spent time with my dad, which I have been crying about that

> experience--how mean he was to me since I got home yesterday. Now this.

> All I can think to do is commit suicide. My husband is no help. I

> called my counselor and he was no help either. In fact, he could have

> helped the issue, but he never sent in a letter saying I was doing

> better which he promised he'd do. I just feel like everybody has knifed

> me in the back and there is NOTHING to look forward to. I can't believe

> have bad things are. I have NO birth family since the way my dad acted,

> NO friends, NO one at church who is truthful (pastor was one who wrote

> letter). All I want to do is kill myself. I can't see anything.

> PLEASE HELP

> in Pa.

[Guest guest]

Dear list, Meenie I hope you don't mind inheriting the list. Looks

like I won't be around anymore!

> I am in so much mental pain. This morning the social worker came to

> talk to us about the adoption we've been doing things for since May. I

> think he's so cruel. He said that he knows we would be good parents.

> (All 3 of our sons in school serving the Lord. One had a big write up

> in paper on Thursday, the other will receive 2nd highest in state award

> at Farm Show on Tuesday for 4H). But the 5 people we asked to send in

> letters sent in letters that said I was too depressed to raise a child

> and that we forced them into filling out the forms, they didn't want

> to! Why didn't they tell us these things? Why didn't he tell us this

> sooner? These are all folks from our church, whose kids I have in

> Sunday School, whose kids are in my 4H club. I am well enough to do all

> those things. Why then couldn't I raise a child??

> I am in so much pain. I just buried my cousin unexpectedly on

> Tuesday. I spent time with my dad, which I have been crying about that

> experience--how mean he was to me since I got home yesterday. Now this.

> All I can think to do is commit suicide. My husband is no help. I

> called my counselor and he was no help either. In fact, he could have

> helped the issue, but he never sent in a letter saying I was doing

> better which he promised he'd do. I just feel like everybody has knifed

> me in the back and there is NOTHING to look forward to. I can't believe

> have bad things are. I have NO birth family since the way my dad acted,

> NO friends, NO one at church who is truthful (pastor was one who wrote

> letter). All I want to do is kill myself. I can't see anything.

> PLEASE HELP

> in Pa.