Aberduffy Day

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Apparently yahoo didn't print it-

was an answer to ? on jung-l, referring to Jung's exper wh he had his heart

attack in the 60's. See MDR.

In a message dated 8/20/04 5:48:47 AM Pacific Daylight Time,

jung-l writes:

was wondering what your impression of this was or, if it is not

getting too personal, did you have any kind of similar experience ? I

am asking this only because i sensed from your post that you have a

fearless relation towards death. I apologize if this question went

over the limit.

Well, I never thought I wld be asked such a quest but since you have, I might

as well tell u that on Oct 9, 1949, I almost died fr a severe hemorrhage

during a miscarriage. Liver size clots, agonizing pain as all the ligaments to

the

uterus were being strained. A spec nurse came in the room, she was emaciated,

huge eyes, n I thought she was death coming for me. I turned my face to the

wall n knew that I must turn n greet her, terrif as I was. So I did n she gave

me a beautiful smile. Then up to op room, lost so much blood I lost almost all

bloodpressure. I found myself in outer space, looking back at the earth ab

the size of a dime. Found myself in a black as black cloud n a voice called out:

" Can u love ENOUGH??? I felt that the entire world depended on my answer and

I shouted Y-E-S! Y-E-S! The cloud dissolved n I saw the stars.

The next thing, I heard myself crying " Am I BAAAACK? " n the anesthesiologist

said I was. They had pulled that big light down to 6 " above me n hotwater

bottles all around to keep me warm. Wh I was touched it felt as if I were cov w/

two feet of dry leaves. I opened my eyes n saw that my husb n mother were

sitting close. Old Dr. Sullivan, who had been roused to save my life, then

ordered

hot sweet tea wh I drank in as life.Still do.

I finally went back to room n the 'death nurse' spent the entire night

pushing air bubbles up the transfusion tube. Her love was enormous. The extraord

thing was that I felt so STRONG that I cld lift the entire city of Paris!:] but

I

was so weak I cld not move any part of my body but my fingertips. I remember

thinking I shld never forget that our strength is not physical! N I felt as if

life, like a photo negative, was reversed - all the things I thought

important, were not, n that I was to discov wh really mattered.

Three days later, they told me that my dear nurse had died!

It took me over a year n a half to regain strength - already had 2 wee ones,

b 1947, 48 to care for. Lost handsful of hair.Prolapsed womb etc. Finally in

'52, Beth was born n gynocol told me that in such a case hormones might put

things back in order. They did.

About 10 yrs ago, I read that Emerson also went into outer space n looked

back at small earth during a near death exper. So wh I read that Jung sev yrs

later had the same exper I was greatly comforted. Prob other peop have as well.

Wh man went to the moon n we saw all those pics of stars etc. it all looked

familiar!

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Wh I was 8, I spent a summer month w/my Grandma King in a rented house in

Dublin, NH. I tried plowing w/a pencil attached by string to a kitten! Kit ran

under house n almost strangled. Rescued. Scolded that the kit cld have died! No

idea ab death but nxt day came across dead caterpillar. Buried it. Spent 3

nights terrified ab death. Then next morning reasoned that if ALL creatures die,

it must be natural, if natural must be OK.

So went into frnt study n sat n made a deal w/God! If I served him as best as

I cld, wld he give me a happy death?

Now comes the synchronicity! About 12 yrs ago, W n I, were invit to visit my

cousin n wife in Dublin NH. They had rented a house n gave dir.....it

was the same house!!! So I was able to go into that same room n remind the

'powers that be' of the deal! [Tentatively, to be sure........not cert at all if

I have done enough at my end.]

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I will tell u ab Aberduffy Day [viz. BEEJUM BOOK] - 25 yrs ago I loved a

dear, dear frnd, 10 yrs older, n I dreamt we were saying goodbye thru a

chainlink

fence, fingers touching. I was in tears knowing I wld nev see him again. [i

haven't.] " Don't cry, " he said. We will meet ag on Aberduffy Day. "

Well, I was convinced that a festival A.D. must exist! So researched

thoroughly, no luck. Know a few Gaelic roots n fig out Aber=river; duffy comes

fr

dubh=black. Black river=Styx, i.e. death!! So, celebrating Aberduffy Day sounds

a

lot nicer than dying. Hope u agree.

In The Beejum Book, Mr. Rathbone celebrates his. He was real n lived in the

same hotel in Rome that we did. He ws Basil R's uncle. Very old but treated me,

a 6/7 yr-old like an equal. I adored him.

Anyway, this is why I am cheerful ab my own demise. I am CERTAIN that it's

easier than being born, n that my first reaction will be 'oh, how could I have

forgotten!':] Like stage fright, wh u step on the stage a bubble of

strength n instructions is released. I know, kind of, that I have done this

before. As Jung said in the BBC interview, 'I'm not going anywhere, part of me

has always been there.' [unus mundus].

God bless him!

phew!

love

ao

ps Don't mind the idea of being a flake a bit!

Ou sont les neiges d'antan? - Francois Villon

[Where are the snows of long ago?]

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