Re: Last thoughts before surgery...

[Guest guest]

a Hon you are right on target I was very calm about surgery until I was

about where you are and one day it started by looking at my beautiful

grandchildren and I thought they are so sweet I am going to have surgery and

become a much better grandmother and then this thought hit the back of my mind

out of no where But what if you die and never see their beautiful faces again .

Girl I cried for two days and then I said Satan get away from me God id in

control and I began to pray as I did all during my long wait and God had given

me so much peace . I am so thankful I turned it all back to God cause I felt

much better but I do have to be honest and say on the morning of surgery I was

antsy but I went in had surgery and woke up and look d around and realized I was

awake in recovery and it was like Thank you God . I hope I have helped in some

small way ?OH yea the first four weeks are when you will miss your friend food

so bad after that it gets easier . I now find I do protein twice a day and I eat

food once a day not because I am starved but because I need to eat something !

Do you have an angel sweetie ?

Last thoughts before surgery...

Dear Virtual Journal,

Surgery is on Tuesday. I've had an upset stomach for about 2 weeks

now. My nerves are jumbled and I'm not sure what to think. I'm

trying to think positive, but I keep thinking... what if I'm the

statistic that dies on the operating table! I know that sounds

horrible, but that is truly going through my mind. I have a little

girl whom I love to pieces and I want to be a mommy for a very, very

long time.

Great, now I'm crying. I feel like I'm saying goodbye to a loved

one that I'm never going to see again and a part of me doesn't want

Tuesday to come (March 5th) and the other side of me dreams about

wearing shorts and tank tops in the summer time.

I just know that I'm going to be crying on the opertating table

before they put me to sleep... saying goodbye to the old me that

I've lived with for so many years and hoping to embrace the new me

that will " wake up " after 2-3 hours of surgery.

I've started a support group that will begin March 31st. Why? I'm

doing this for me (I'm sure others will need it too), but I know

that I will REALLY need others as it will probably take me awhile to

mourn the loss of comfort foods for all occasions.

I'm scared. I'm really scared. Sometimes I wonder how I'm keeping

so calm with only 3 days seperating me from my new life. But no one

knows what's really going on inside me. It's a battle each night

before I go to bed to not break down crying, I'm trying to be strong

and think positive. Everything is going to be o.k. Oh, if I could

only know that for a FACT.

Well, I'm headed to bed. I am going to try to think positive. I'll

try to go to bed knowing that this will be the last Friday night

that I will struggle to breathe at night on my back, walk up the

stairs and still be able to talk when I reach the top and lastly,

say goodbye to the chains of food that are strapped so tightly

around my ankles.

I'm going to be free.

Kristiina

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[Guest guest]

a Lynn is exactly right .All things improve . There are so many changes

that will surprise you and you will be so glad you did this in two or three

months . The first month you may experience depression and mourning for food but

in time it will be like I need to eat something ! If you need to talk I will

send you my phone number or you send me your and I will call you !

Re: Last thoughts before surgery...

Dear a,

When I made my decision to have weight loss surgery last July, I knew there

would be no looking back. I went to the seminar....I went to the

consultation...My doctor flat out asked me why I wanted this surgery? I

looked him in the eye...told him of my family history of obesity, diabetes,

heart disease and high blood pressure. I told him " 90% of why I am going to

make this change is because of health reasons.....the other 10% is because I

want to be a " Babe " again. I proceeded, he scheduled pre op tests and a

surgery date for 11/26/01. My son was totally against it...he thought I

would die on the tabe and he's 22 years old. My daughter was jealous of the

fact I was going to be thinner than her. My beloved husband stood by my

side all the way.

The day of surgery I had no doubts to my decision, I had nothing to lose but

all these pounds I was carrying on my body. I did not fear death ...as I had

made a will out a few days before surgery. Besides I could die driving down

the road and getting into an accident. I truly believe when your soul wants

to go home, it will happen , no matter where you are and what you're doing.

When I was wheeled in the operating room, I had no regrets to my

decision.....I knew in my heart there was a pot of gold at the end of the

rainbow. I was totally doing this for me. No tears...just a joyful and

peaceful feeling inside. Everything on the surgery end went well.....my

husband was up for 36 hours straight taking care of me and I finally told him

to go home and get some much needed rest. When he returned to the hospital

later in the day, I told him I was being discharged in the late afternoon. I

closed the door to the " old me " when I went into the operating room and

opened the door to the " new me " the person I had lost years ago that was

hiding inside an obese body.

To date, it's been 3 months since surgery, I've lost 73 lbs to date and have

68 more to go until I reach my goal of 139 lbs. I've gone down 5 pant sizes.

I exercise regularly on my Gazelle Glider. No more sore joints, incontinence,

choking on food, no more inhaler use for asthma, no snoring. I have bounds of

energy....I sleep better than ever, and I feel like I'm about 18 years

old....even though I'm 43. Our sexual life has improved greatly....and the

list goes on and on.

I tell you this is by my experience........think positive thoughts, embrace

each moment with love and not fear. Envision yourself what you will look

like thin and healthy. Once you go through those operating room

doors....never look back.

God Bless You,

Love and Light,

Lynne s

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then the same information I gave a is for you too sweetie

Re: Last thoughts before surgery...

What a wonderderful essay a...you put the feelings inside of me into

words perfectly. My surgery is the 6th trust me..I have the exact same stuff

going on inside of me! ((((((HUGS)))))

In a message dated 3/2/02 2:59:41 AM Eastern Standard Time,

support@... writes:

> Dear Virtual Journal,

>

> Surgery is on Tuesday. I've had an upset stomach for about 2 weeks

> now. My nerves are jumbled and I'm not sure what to think. I'm

> trying to think positive, but I keep thinking... what if I'm the

> statistic that dies on the operating table! I know that sounds

> horrible, but that is truly going through my mind. I have a little

> girl whom I love to pieces and I want to be a mommy for a very, very

> long time.

>

>

[Guest guest]

a,

I don't think all your concerns, thoughts, and fears are any different than the

majority of us will feel, or have felt, at this stage in the game. I am

pre-surgery, and truth be told, I could have written your letter nearly word for

word. It is normal. And you are so wise to understand it is not just the

fear of the surgery, it is the fear of moving out of our comfort zone. After

surgery, your comfort zone is blown away, everyday, every thing will be a new

experience from a different perspective. That alone is terrifying. But it

is also exciting.

Since I have been on these groups I am on for WLS, one thing has stuck in my

mind. These are the bravest people I have ever met. There is nothing

scarier than moving out of our comfort zone. During an average day our comfort

zone may get nudged, or intruded upon slightly, but that is everyone. But the

truly brave ones here actually have stepped out of their comfort zone, and can

not go back to it, ever. They are foraging ahead on uncharted waters,

searching to reach a new comfort zone to live the rest of their lives. Truly

amazes me. True explorers.

Hugs, Romero

Dear Virtual Journal,

Surgery is on Tuesday. I've had an upset stomach for about 2 weeks

now. My nerves are jumbled and I'm not sure what to think. I'm

trying to think positive, but I keep thinking... what if I'm the

statistic that dies on the operating table! I know that sounds

horrible, but that is truly going through my mind. I have a little

girl whom I love to pieces and I want to be a mommy for a very, very

long time.

Great, now I'm crying. I feel like I'm saying goodbye to a loved

one that I'm never going to see again and a part of me doesn't want

Tuesday to come (March 5th) and the other side of me dreams about

wearing shorts and tank tops in the summer time.

I just know that I'm going to be crying on the opertating table

before they put me to sleep... saying goodbye to the old me that

I've lived with for so many years and hoping to embrace the new me

that will " wake up " after 2-3 hours of surgery.

I've started a support group that will begin March 31st. Why? I'm

doing this for me (I'm sure others will need it too), but I know

that I will REALLY need others as it will probably take me awhile to

mourn the loss of comfort foods for all occasions.

I'm scared. I'm really scared. Sometimes I wonder how I'm keeping

so calm with only 3 days seperating me from my new life. But no one

knows what's really going on inside me. It's a battle each night

before I go to bed to not break down crying, I'm trying to be strong

and think positive. Everything is going to be o.k. Oh, if I could

only know that for a FACT.

Well, I'm headed to bed. I am going to try to think positive. I'll

try to go to bed knowing that this will be the last Friday night

that I will struggle to breathe at night on my back, walk up the

stairs and still be able to talk when I reach the top and lastly,

say goodbye to the chains of food that are strapped so tightly

around my ankles.

I'm going to be free.

Kristiina

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