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Hello my dear friends! I have rejoined the land of the living once

again. I thought I was ready to come back before, when I popped in

a few times, but things still weren't quite settled down. They're

still not where I want them to be, but hey, we can't have it all,

now, can we?

First things first, an update on Keeley. We went for her second

appt. with her pdoc, and while she didn't realize it, because it's

second nature to her, she showed him the side of herself that we see

every day. He promptly upped her dosage of Abilify to 10mg, and wrote a referral

for her to start therapy " as soon as possible " .

Finally, I feel like it's not all in MY imagination, and it's NOT

just teenage hormones. The higher dosage has finally stopped the

mental illness symptoms (rages, depressive symptoms, etc.), but we

are definitely going to have to do a LOT of work in therapy for

other things to change! But thank goodness, we are halfway there

now, and I'm starting to see light and hope at the end of that

tunnel!

About 3 weeks or so, not sure of the exact timing, I hit a MAJOR

depression. You see those ads for Zoloft, where they describe

depression? I could have been that ad!! I was crying all the time,

not eating, just dragging myself around, and snapping at everyone.

I couldn't stand myself, and derived no pleasure out of

anything...even this past Saturday (a week ago), I went to &

Noble, my all-time favorite, could spend a week there, store, and 10

feet in the door and I was ready to leave because I had no desire to

explore the shelves, dive into the books, be " in my element " .

I was just getting ready to move up my appt. with MY pdoc when the

depression lifted completely, and I'm my normal self again. I've

been doing cranio-sacral therapy along with the ortho-bionomy I do

for pain relief, and I think that helped get my bio-energy levels

flowing right again.

I've also been listening to a lot of meditation CD's, Halpern in

particular. He has a sleep CD out that is just fantastic. It has subliminal

messages on it about sleep, and relaxation, and to be totally honest, I've yet

to be awake to hear the end of the CD!

I feel fantastic and energized in the morning, instead of lethargic and sore,

like usual. My energy level pretty much stays consistent throughout the day,

even if I'm in pain, or have to take meds.

However, even my pain levels have been a lot lower since I have been doing

ortho-bionomy treatments every 2 weeks. My practitioner is a prince!

I'm also realizing that as my girls get older (they are almost 15

and 12 1/2), and are doing more things independent of me, and my

husband is on afternoons, that my life has been wrapped up in them

for so long, I don't have one of my own. I think that got me down

too.

When my younger daughter Meghan starts high school, which is

in 2 years, I am going to go back to college. There are 2 OSU

branches within a half hour of me....but I'm undecided right now

what I want to do! You all know me as well as anyone else....any

suggestions?

Well, that is my update. I hope everyone is doing well, and that

your pain levels are lower with this milder weather. I probably

still won't be able to spend as much time here as I would like, but

now that things are finally starting to go a little bit smoother, I

hope to be able to spend more here than I have recently. I've

missed you all so much!!

Lots of love and hugs,

Jen