I'm here again!

[Guest guest]

Hello all my beautiful friends,I have missed you so, and welcome to

all new members! I know, I know, it's been hit or miss since I have

been here, but I have been working hard on getting to the place I

want to be, and the road has been full of potholes and speedbumps!

As you can probably tell from my opening paragraph, even with the

challenges, things ARE getting better. The deep depression that had

me in its grips is gone, and Keeley and I are working hard towards

getting her mood disorder under control. At her last appt., we all

decided that Abilify wasn't the right medication, so now we are

trying Risperdal.

I am not so discouraged anymore, because I have faith now that we WILL find the

right medication, the right therapist, and things will be alright. We broke

through some big barriers this past week, and are trying to learn how to

compromise, even if one, or both of us, doesn't really want to budge. We are

also going to use the same letter writing technique that I used on my hubby so

long ago. We can't argue or let tempers rise in writing!

As for my newfound peace and happiness, I have been doing twice

monthly work with ortho-bionomy and craniosacral therapy. The ortho-

bionomy helps me keep my pain under control, and the craniosacral

helps keep my body's bio-rhythms running smoothly, thus creating a

happier, more harmonious, and less painful me. It's not perfect

though, so I can do " emergency " appts. in between if need be.

So how has this benefitted my life? I've been able to drop back

from 20mg of Oxycontin to 10mg. Remember not too long ago when I

was considering adding MORE pain medication?? I don't have muscle

spasms as much, and my doc took me off of relaxants anyway, wanting

me to give a really low dose of Valium a try. He said that he

thought that the relaxants were deconditioning my muscles, creating

more pain in my joints and stuff, and I think he was right. So now

I take 2mg of Valium, which is also used as an anti-spasmodic, when

I need to, and it really helps, without the goofy feeling that Soma

gave me.

I'm also a lot more active now. I gained 15 pounds when my psych

put me on Seroquel for sleep, and not only have I lost that, but

also 10 additional pounds.

And speaking of sleep, for those of you who have hideous insomnia like me,

consider purchasing " Sleep Soundly " by Halpern. It's a subliminal

message CD. It plays his normal beautiful meditative music, while beneath that,

there are messages about getting a restful night's sleep.

The cover tells you all of the messages contained in the CD. You all know how

bad my insomnia can be, and I've yet to hear the end of it! Now, all I take at

night is .5mg of Klonopin to keep my body from twitching and jerking, and that's

IT! I was taking 1mg, plus other stuff.

At my Fibro support group, we are getting ready to start a 7 week

session of Wellness Classes in October, that are 2 hours long each.

A woman in the next town over from us and her sister teach them, and

the one woman went into remission from her Fibro after following

this program. It's worth a shot, and the only cost is $5 for

materials.

Well all, I have to run for now, just wanted to let you know how I'm

doing. Hopefully my life will slow down again once school starts

back up....if it starts back up on time that is! All of the

teachers in the county are threatening to strike, and school is

supposed to start in 2 weeks. We don't even know right now if our

kids will be able to even GO to school right yet!

The teachers are right to strike though. In our county, they are so grossly

underpaid, compared to like counties, and with the national

average. I can't say that I blame them....they haven't had a raise

in years...well, except the " administrative " staff.

I promise I will try to visit more, because I miss everyone soooo much. But I

feel I had to back away for a while, and get things straight, to become a

stronger person.

Much love and soft hugs,

Jen