i need him to show me he cares

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Oh yes back in the ex boyfriend drama again.

I seem to love this one !

Can seem to let go of it .

Doing better than ever before though, not falling apart on a regular

basis or beating myself up .

Just noticing that I still believe I need him to love me.

and thats painful especially when he's avoiding me .

I need shalimar to show me he cares

IIT.

CAN i ABSOLUTELY KNOW IT'S TRUE ?

no i was very happy when he was off island for 2 months before

getting on with my life . Alot of the time he ignores me and isn't

very polite and i'm still here, living breathing sitting on my bed.

and no i can't know i'd be happier if he showed me he cared I'd still

be feeling bored and empty I've been there before in other

relationships. and I can't know it would be best for my path and i

wouldn't give up this oportunity if it meant i would wake up and love

what is more.

HDIRWIBTT.

I feel desperate, I'm looking for his approval, I do things to try

and illicit a reaction from him, I avoid him so that he notices I'm

not around, I'm manipulating, I sit around upstairs too long, I

linger before i go to bed in case he feels like connecting with me.

I'm angry and pissed of at him when i think he doesn't care.

I feel hurt and let down. I avoid looking into his eyes in case he

see's how i'm feeling.

I feel pissed off and angry when he's distant with me. I think he's

disguisting .

I treat him as though he is all powerful and some amazing being, I

laugh at his stupid jokes that aren't really that funny. I find

myself hanging out even when i'm tired or bored.

I stay when he's around because I'm trying to soak up any little

morsel or affection even though I'm not that entertained by him.

I'm acting like a little puppy dog waiting for her master to feed her.

I neglect myself, I don't feel up for doing my errands around town .

I don't organise my trip to L.A

I don't notice other men that seem to like me.

I don't go out with my friends because i feel depressed.

I think I first had this thought about my dad because he used to

always be out with his friends and didn't really show me or my

brother that he cared. he seemed so angry alot of the time .

I believe that holding onto this belief will make him show me that he

cares and it hasn't worked yet.

if i get him to show me he cares then that means i'm lovable that i'm

ok

the worst thing that could happen if i didn't believe this thought is

that i wouldn't care about him ( hmm interesting ) and that wouuld

mean I'm a shallow bitch. and now that he's not giving me what i want

i don't care .

WWIBWTT.I NEED SHALI TO SHOW ME HE CARES?

Free, peaceful, in my own business, loving my life, spending time

with people who do want to be around me. not feeling frustrated by

other women calling him, seeing how i'm being spared ..

living in the unknown, excited, playful, hangin out with him when i

feel to and leaving when i don't.

not kissing arse. speaking my truth, disagreeing when he says stupid

things.

noticing that he doesn't really do it for me anyway and sometimes i

don't like him.

Sitting on my bed , noticing my breathing, keys tapping on the

keyboard, making a cup of tea. making food for myself.

loving myself, feeling fuull up without him.

i would say hi and goodbye when i felt to.

I would treat him like and equal.

I would look and see if I actually liked this guy.

I would treat him as a friend. I would understand he's scared of

getting involved with me.

I would be direct and honest with him. I wouldn't hide my feelings .

I would let my love be my business, I wouldn't be waiting for him to

return my feelings and I would feel happy that I love him and that he

doesn't even need to love me in return.

I would be free, payful and spacious.

I would be geniuinley happy to see him and not waiting to see if he

returns my smile .

I would see that I don't need anything from him.

I would be love itself.

i would have more respect for myself, more compassion, i would enjoy

my own company more, i would be there for me, loving and holding

myself and showing myself i care.

T.A

1, I don't need him to show me he cares

truer.

my life is fine, i'm just tapping away at my keyboard.

it must be better for my path because i'm learning to look after

myself

I get more time with people who do want to hang out with me and who

love my company.

T.A

I need me to show him I care

yes thats for me to live if i think it's so important to do

It has nothing to do with him who i show i care for and what do his

beliefs about me have to do with me anyway. So I could just hear that

he doesn't want to be with me and accept it . I'm not being very

caring of what he wants . trying to force myself into his life and

get him to show me attention . so my caring might be to leave him

alone to process what happened between us.

T.A

I need me to show me I care

yes by not looking for his attention or caring becase it's painful

and I feel out of my integrity.

by possibly looking into moving out the house especially if it's

painful for him to be around me

and by bringing myself back to my own business and not being over

there in his because then i'm not home

by giving me all the things i wanted from him.

What does his caring look like for me if i had it.

Being pampered, Talking to me softly and telling myself how beautiful

I am.

Being tender with myself even when i'm in a story

being supportive even when i'm vulnerable

holding me close and whispering sweet nothings in my ear.

wanting to be seen with me and being affectionate to me.

taking me out to dinner

All things i can do for myself =)

any feedback or other turnarounds, comments warmly welcomed

xxpipxxx