Re: Are your pants on fire? (to Roslyn)

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dear mary

> sorry to hear your being lied about..

If either of us don't like that I was lied about, then we're not

loving what is, we're arguing with reality.

>

> In the Vanity Fair article Holmes said it was NOT ok for

> the press to write lies about her and her family..

> so i wrote a letter to vanity fair asking they do an article on

byron and that holmes should look into the work.. is it

true tabloids should not lie.. its there way of living.

(Byron) wouldn't see a problem with it.

>

> But I do think that it would be difficult to deal with even with

the

> work..

No, if I do the work, the difficulty will cease. It really is just

my story that only true things should be printed about me, maybe the

truest thing is that it doesn't matter? Buddha taught all suffering

arises from desire and aversion. If I let go of my desires and

aversions, I let go of the suffering.

> If you move away , you wont have to be around those people.

Yes, frequently I find I can't wait to get away from 'here'

with 'here' being all this 'stuff'. I was meditating on it this

morning, and saw the conflict between the calendar I have written on

of how my life should be, and how it is and where I'm at. They are

so different. But then this thought came, the thought of how

attractive it would be to go to a retreat center and get help facing

my fears/attachments. Well, if I allow myself to sink into what is, I

sense the attachments will fall away.

Actually maybe my problem is that I AM 'moving away' from the

problem. hahahahaha ..and it will cease being a problem when I start

choosing to move towards it.

> People should think highly of you.. is it true. ?

No. But when I think highly of others regardless of what they think

of me, I am happy

> What doesnt kill you makes you stonger.

I think I'm starting to tire of trying to be stronger.

BESt wishes love, roslyn

I DO love you