Re: Ron - you all pick me up

[Guest guest]

Good night Ron. Sweet (smelling) dreams. So very happy you are in a better

place now.

Keep the belly full, the pants empty and the waste baskets out of sight!

Big hugs to ya!

Sandie

Des Moines, IA

dad, Merle, passed away from LBD 9-20-02, age 65

mum, Jo, (MIL) passed away from LBD 4-29-07, age 78

-- you all pick me up

Hi everyone, My day started with so many feelings of pressure and being

trapped and just pain ole stress along with that constant depression that we

all feel and battle here.I kinda let it all get the best of me today.I

almost burnt some bridges that would have been irreplaceable.That seems to

be what I do best.Instead I started writing to all of you and asking for

something, (anything) in response.I read every single response (offline and

on).I read them over and over.Im not done fighting.My sister came and

offered to spend the night.I went to leave only to find that my wonderful

peice of POOP car wouldnt start.I went with my nephew, (her son).We road

around and talked about what a great man my dad was, relationships, and my

situation, Ive been there for him many of time and tonight made up for every

one of those times.Hes a great kid.Then a dear friend had reached out to me

earlier and I called this person back.The talk we had was so amazing and eye

opening.I decided at

that point the first thing I need to do is fix what I started to break in

my own life.Moms life never feels the effect of my troubles.But I have to

say, I can be pretty hard on my own life sometimes.I go out of my way to

shelter mom from everything exept lbd, and if I could do that I would.

So anyway I made another call and was able to fix a very very important

part of my life that I had almost broken today.I then decided to come back

home and just let my sister go home for the night.I once again read through

every single email.I cried, I cried some more and I laughed until I almost

POOPED at Carols writing.And Im not talking about a litlle bit of crap.I

almost pooped a whole plethera of poop.Im just writing to say that Im okay

You guys are the best and you mean the world to me.I am going to bed now and

the last thing I think about before I sleep is how through lbd as cruel and

crappy as it is, Ive found the greatest friends a person could ever have

Thank you for being here today.You all mean the world to me .And Im still

here and not going anywhere.

PS.Im gonna brush my teeth before I go to bed, I will probably dream about

elephant poop and great friends.I just hope the elephant doesnt try to poop

on my friends, cuz that would be a nightmare, maybe a dillusion or

hallucination, whatever the case I will have no other choice but to stuff

the elephant in the waste basket. You guys are the greatest.Please know

that Im okay, and I hope you all are too. Ron

RON

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