Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 Vicky, I'm not at that point ... yet. Right now, I'm trying to get some things done I CAN do and, am trying not to get too wound up, which is really hard for me as THIS is the way I am normally ... thanks to ADHD, Depression and Anxiety, Tinnitus, Spinal Degeneration and now THIS. Hang in there. Phred ---- Original Message ---- From: Ladyvic1@... To: Breathe-Support Subject: RE: Vent Date: Wed, 31 May 2006 03:27:49 -0000 > ><html><body> > > >I hate this monster, I hate this disease, I hate that I will & nbsp; >never <BR> >seen my daughters babies, I HATE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What did I do to ><BR> >deserve this? What did my family do? My heart hurts, it breaks when I ><BR> >see & nbsp; my family cry. I sat at a bar b que yesterday thinking, >next year <BR> >I may not be here. It's not FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have cried >so <BR> >much, I dont wanna cry anymore, I dont wanna see drs anymore, I dont ><BR> >want anymore surgery. & nbsp; Please sweet Jesus, take this thing from >me. <BR> >Thanks for letting me vent ya'll, I know you can relate.....<BR> ><BR> >Vicky IPF 4/06<BR> ><BR> ><BR> ><BR> > > > ><!-- |**|begin egp html banner|**| --> > > <br><br> > <div style= " width:500px; text-align:right; margin-bottom:1px; >color:#909090; " > > <tt> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 Vicky, I could have written this. I expect others also could have written this. I kept my head in the sand all the while I was stable and pretended this was never going to come. Since things have gotten serious, I have so many days when the sadness just takes over. I really long for Heaven. I am extremely tired of the state of this world. But, I cannot come to terms with the separation. Just like you, I long to see my grandbabies grow and grow old with my husband. I cried when I read this. I also thanked God for you because you shared your heart with us. It makes me know that I am not alone in this overwhelming despair. You all help me by being real. You help me when you can pick yourself up and have joy another day. You help me when I know that I am not the only weak one. I can't be strong all the time. This is a hard fight. Thanks Vicky, for fighting beside me. Let us pray for one another and for God's peace. The sun is shining. I have this day. Love and prayers to you, Joyce PF 1997 >> I hate this monster, I hate this disease, I hate that I will never > seen my daughters babies, I HATE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What did I do to > deserve this? What did my family do? My heart hurts, it breaks when I > see my family cry. I sat at a bar b que yesterday thinking, next year > I may not be here. It's not FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have cried so > much, I dont wanna cry anymore, I dont wanna see drs anymore, I dont > want anymore surgery. Please sweet Jesus, take this thing from me. > Thanks for letting me vent ya'll, I know you can relate.....> > Vicky IPF 4/06> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 Good God Blessed, God Sanctioned Day just for you Vicky. I just talked to my daughter -in law and she told me a 39 year old friend died of a blood clot. We or the Dr's do not know our time. You have a lot of living and loving to do . Don't you give up on you. Shoot I'm getting up there and know this monster is trying to take me but NOT without a fight.. Major fight.. I'm going to talk to " MY FATHER " on your behalf. He will comfort you, give you peace and joy.. I know this for a fact. Talk to him Vicky he is there at the sound of his name. When I get down. I go to prayer and I never fail to feel better. God Bless you with the knowledge that you are not alone and that we are all right here with you, hurting, scared, angry, mourning, and REALLY TICKED..and we love you. you are part of this family. While your praying, pray for me I'm having a biopsy on my thyroid today. I think. I'll know when I get there. God Bless... Peggy 9/04 ipf vicky81856Peggy 09/04 ipf I hate this monster, I hate this disease, I hate that I will never seen my daughters babies, I HATE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What did I do to deserve this? What did my family do? My heart hurts, it breaks when I see my family cry. I sat at a bar b que yesterday thinking, next year I may not be here. It's not FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have cried so much, I dont wanna cry anymore, I dont wanna see drs anymore, I dont want anymore surgery. Please sweet Jesus, take this thing from me. Thanks for letting me vent ya'll, I know you can relate..... Vicky IPF 4/06 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 Good Mornin Fred. WOW I wonder if any of us have only 1 ONE health problem?? I'm sorry you have so many things going on. But I can tell you are going to do fine.. You have that spunk in you. We're all hanging together. Gotta go Dr appt in a bit.. Take care of you and know we all care...God Bless... Peggy 9/04 ipf phredta11bl@... 09/04 ipf Vicky, I'm not at that point ... yet. Right now, I'm trying to get some things done I CAN do and, am trying not to get too wound up, which is really hard for me as THIS is the way I am normally ... thanks to ADHD, Depression and Anxiety, Tinnitus, Spinal Degeneration and now THIS. Hang in there. Phred ---- Original Message ---- From: Ladyvic1@... To: Breathe-Support Subject: RE: Vent Date: Wed, 31 May 2006 03:27:49 -0000 > ><html><body> > > >I hate this monster, I hate this disease, I hate that I will & nbsp; >never <BR> >seen my daughters babies, I HATE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What did I do to ><BR> >deserve this? What did my family do? My heart hurts, it breaks when I ><BR> >see & nbsp; my family cry. I sat at a bar b que yesterday thinking, >next year <BR> >I may not be here. It's not FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have cried >so <BR> >much, I dont wanna cry anymore, I dont wanna see drs anymore, I dont ><BR> >want anymore surgery. & nbsp; Please sweet Jesus, take this thing from >me. <BR> >Thanks for letting me vent ya'll, I know you can relate.....<BR> ><BR> >Vicky IPF 4/06<BR> ><BR> ><BR> ><BR> > > > ><!-- |**|begin egp html banner|**| --> > > <br><br> > <div style= " width:500px; text-align:right; margin-bottom:1px; >color:#909090; " > > <tt> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 I think we all get like this sometimes....you just want to SCREAM....I try to be positive on this list because I don't want to bring anyone else down.....so please don't think you are alone....it's important to pick yourself up after feeling this way....and get on with life. Whatever is going to happen to us is going to happen....chances are, you are not going to die tomorrow....maybe not next week....maybe not next year.....so do what you can....it may not be the same thing you did years ago....but there are somethings you can do. Love to you all! --Diane Quinlan dianequinlan@... scoliosis/PF/2004 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 Just emember we all have to VENT. We must do this for our own mental health. If we keep everthing bottled up inside we become sicker. So whether it be online, to our partners,spouces, or a best friend we Must get it all out. Then we can pick ourselves up brush ourselves off and start all over again. ipf 7/05dianequinlan@... wrote: I think we all get like this sometimes....you just want to SCREAM....I try to be positive on this list because I don't want to bring anyone else down.....so please don't think you are alone....it's important to pick yourself up after feeling this way....and get on with life. Whatever is going to happen to us is going to happen....chances are, you are not going to die tomorrow....maybe not next week....maybe not next year.....so do what you can....it may not be the same thing you did years ago....but there are somethings you can do. Love to you all! --Diane Quinlan dianequinlan@... scoliosis/PF/2004 __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 Vicky, I can't say one word any better then what has already been said. I pray for us today and especially you right now. A big hug. Sher ipf 5-06 Vent I hate this monster, I hate this disease, I hate that I will never seen my daughters babies, I HATE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What did I do to deserve this? What did my family do? My heart hurts, it breaks when I see my family cry. I sat at a bar b que yesterday thinking, next year I may not be here. It's not FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have cried so much, I dont wanna cry anymore, I dont wanna see drs anymore, I dont want anymore surgery. Please sweet Jesus, take this thing from me. Thanks for letting me vent ya'll, I know you can relate.....Vicky IPF 4/06 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 To everyone, Thank you so much for your words of encouragement and prayers. I know God is with me, thru all things, and he has me in the palm of His hand. I thank God for you people, you are such a blessing to me, I'm doing better today, prayer does work. Went to my arthritis dr for the first time, and I go to University of MI next Tues. So again, thank you all, I love you...... Vicky IPF 4/06 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 .... and, an asbestos lawyer is looking at my case, if i can prove THAT, we can get a settlement of x-bux. Won't help me but, there'll be NO bills and, no mortgage and $ for college. Phred ---- Original Message ---- From: pac1773@... To: Breathe-Support Subject: Re: Vent Date: Wed, 31 May 2006 10:16:48 -0400 >Good Mornin Fred. WOW I wonder if any of us have only 1 ONE health >problem?? >I'm sorry you have so many things going on. But I can tell you are >going to >do fine.. You have that spunk in you. >We're all hanging together. >Gotta go Dr appt in a bit.. Take care of you and know we all >care...God >Bless... Peggy 9/04 ipf > > >phredta11bl@... 09/04 ipf > >Vicky, I'm not at that point ... yet. Right now, I'm trying to get >some things done I CAN do and, am trying not to get too wound up, >which is really hard for me as THIS is the way I am normally ... >thanks to ADHD, Depression and Anxiety, Tinnitus, Spinal Degeneration >and now THIS. Hang in there. > >Phred > > >---- Original Message ---- >From: Ladyvic1@... >To: Breathe-Support >Subject: RE: Vent >Date: Wed, 31 May 2006 03:27:49 -0000 > >> >><html><body> >> >> >>I hate this monster, I hate this disease, I hate that I will & nbsp; >>never <BR> >>seen my daughters babies, I HATE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What did I do >to >><BR> >>deserve this? What did my family do? My heart hurts, it breaks when >I >><BR> >>see & nbsp; my family cry. I sat at a bar b que yesterday thinking, >>next year <BR> >>I may not be here. It's not FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have cried >>so <BR> >>much, I dont wanna cry anymore, I dont wanna see drs anymore, I dont >><BR> >>want anymore surgery. & nbsp; Please sweet Jesus, take this thing from >>me. <BR> >>Thanks for letting me vent ya'll, I know you can relate.....<BR> >><BR> >>Vicky IPF 4/06<BR> >><BR> >><BR> >><BR> >> >> >> >><!-- |**|begin egp html banner|**| --> >> >> <br><br> >> <div style= " width:500px; text-align:right; margin-bottom:1px; >>color:#909090; " > >> <tt> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 FRED YOU ARE NOT Going to leave any time soon.. Muster up. Show your wife and daughter how to fight the GOOD FIGHT. My heavens you are so young.. FIGHT.. You can still accomplish all that need to be done. Boy am I ever gonna do some extra prayin for You ! Peggy 9/04 ipf phredta11bl@... 09/04 ipf .... and, an asbestos lawyer is looking at my case, if i can prove THAT, we can get a settlement of x-bux. Won't help me but, there'll be NO bills and, no mortgage and $ for college. Phred ---- Original Message ---- From: pac1773@... To: Breathe-Support Subject: Re: Vent Date: Wed, 31 May 2006 10:16:48 -0400 >Good Mornin Fred. WOW I wonder if any of us have only 1 ONE health >problem?? >I'm sorry you have so many things going on. But I can tell you are >going to >do fine.. You have that spunk in you. >We're all hanging together. >Gotta go Dr appt in a bit.. Take care of you and know we all >care...God >Bless... Peggy 9/04 ipf > > >phredta11bl@... 09/04 ipf > >Vicky, I'm not at that point ... yet. Right now, I'm trying to get >some things done I CAN do and, am trying not to get too wound up, >which is really hard for me as THIS is the way I am normally ... >thanks to ADHD, Depression and Anxiety, Tinnitus, Spinal Degeneration >and now THIS. Hang in there. > >Phred > > >---- Original Message ---- >From: Ladyvic1@... >To: Breathe-Support >Subject: RE: Vent >Date: Wed, 31 May 2006 03:27:49 -0000 > >> >><html><body> >> >> >>I hate this monster, I hate this disease, I hate that I will & nbsp; >>never <BR> >>seen my daughters babies, I HATE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What did I do >to >><BR> >>deserve this? What did my family do? My heart hurts, it breaks when >I >><BR> >>see & nbsp; my family cry. I sat at a bar b que yesterday thinking, >>next year <BR> >>I may not be here. It's not FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have cried >>so <BR> >>much, I dont wanna cry anymore, I dont wanna see drs anymore, I dont >><BR> >>want anymore surgery. & nbsp; Please sweet Jesus, take this thing from >>me. <BR> >>Thanks for letting me vent ya'll, I know you can relate.....<BR> >><BR> >>Vicky IPF 4/06<BR> >><BR> >><BR> >><BR> >> >> >> >><!-- |**|begin egp html banner|**| --> >> >> <br><br> >> <div style= " width:500px; text-align:right; margin-bottom:1px; >>color:#909090; " > >> <tt> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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