Re: -feeling sorry for self

[Guest guest]

Hi Carol...

I am so sorry you are having such a hard day and I hope you get better

quickly. You'll be in my prayers!

Hugs-

Sheli

[Guest guest]

thank you sheli a whole bunch! It was one heck of a day at work

today. The worst yet. Some people understand how bad I hurt and

others just look at you like your a lepard. Asking me, " whats wrong

with you? " I explain about me and FMS and they say nothing. They

give you " that stare " . *smiling* But...I MADE IT! ALIVE AND

KICKING. Im going to take a nap though.

Carol

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> I am so sorry you are having such a hard day and I hope you get

better

> quickly. You'll be in my prayers!

>

> Hugs-

> Sheli

[Guest guest]

> boo, hoo- carol

Oh Carol...If you only knew how much respect I have for you!! Being

a mother and working thru all the fms symptoms...!!!Maybe if my back

hadn't disabled me before the fibro set in I'd be in the same shoes

as you. Just thinking about getting up and having to go somewhere in

the mornings gives me chills..... All of my appt.'s are afternoon. I

never leave the house in the morning unless someone else is

driving...wouldn't trust myself behind the wheel. Mentally or

physicaly !! When I first had to go on disability for my

back ...back in 1977 I thought I'd go crazy...My first born Ty..was

more than I could handle [born 1977] but he was hyperactive..to the

max..Never lost so much weight so fast as I did the first couple

months after he was born...dropped over 40 pounds in two

months....and was so happy to get my back surgery over and back to

work again. Then when my back totaly gave up on me in 1981 and a

2nd. surgery only made things worse....I was home with two children

and a lifting restriction of 5 pounds......No hobbies...and tho I

love my children I was never meant to be a stay at home wife....But

I suevived as did my children...barely... lol..I chased alot of

cures for almost 6 years before finaly accepting my disability and

finding my place in the world and home place....and thought I was

thru the worst...until this fibro monster took hold of me....and

destroyed all the self image I had built for myself in a matter of

months..having other physical problems occur at the same time didn't

help..the CVA's and weight gain from the neurotin...The fatigue

factor....What can you say...??? I don't think even my work ethics I

grew up with would have stood me thru that. I'd worked since I was

15 years old...which was good because when I filed for disability I

had enuf work units to quailfy for SSI's full benifits....So hats

off to you girl!!!!!! Your a better person than me..I'd have

folded...no doubts in my mind..In fact that is what I'm seeing my

daughter do right now..23...in a full blown fibro flare and bed

ridden...nothing to draw on..due to her stint with juvinile

rheumatoid arthritis from 8 months to 14 yrs...no work ethics or

past to look back on....It's scarey and I don't know how to help

her. So hold your head high and know that this person has nothing

but total repsect for you. !!

Just me... K

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[Guest guest]

Carol,

You deserve a nap...after working all day. Sorry it was such a bad day.

People can be cruel. If the ones who doubt us or don't believe us at

all...had to walk in our shoes for one day...they would understand what we go

through.

I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.

Hugs,

Kay