's court session (loooong story)

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I should have loved what was in court. Is that true? Well, I didn't

love it all, so that's what was supposed to happen.

I went there with much peace, it was before a different judge this

time, as the previous one was on vacation (hopefully being careful if

he was on a camping trip and had a campfire!). She seemed nice, her

name is . I waited over two hours for my case to be called.

I went and stood before judge with my attorney, , standing to my

right. had said some things that gave me the impression the judge

might well be sentencing me that day, so I had my bags packed and

someone was going to put them into storage for me. But what was

scheduled was a motion hearing as I had wanted to withdraw my guilty

plea back when I came across the park service report stating fire was

in a different place. But when I met with for my initial

interview, I glanced through the file, saw a photograph of the fire

area soon after it started (probably doctored!?!? - conspiracy???) and

I know this place well, having camped there several times. It looked

very clear to me it was where I had burned the LWI worksheets.

As soon as I saw that, I told I wanted to plead guilty. I had

only requested an attorney as I was told I needed to to be able to see

the evidence.

So we go to court, and was, I think, just expecting to hear

about and rule on my motion to withdraw guilty plea. had said in

our meeting he wouldn't be surprised if she'd already read every word

in the case file. Well, I got impression she didn't know really much

at all, though she did mention what newspapers had said. (I'm

laughing at thought of case being decided on what papers printed as

parts of what they wrote were fictional).

said I wanted to plead alfred plea, which is something about I

don't want to plead guilty, but I figure there's enough evidence to

convict me. I'm flabbergasted, stunned. Where'd that come from? I was

there to plead guilty and take my licks. The judge looked at me and

asked if that's what I wanted to plead. I just stood there a moment,

unsure what to do. That wasn't what I'd planned. I said something

like, your honor, I burned some papers, I do believe I started the

forest fire, I wish to plead guilty to that. 's standing beside me

whispering 'No! No!'

I think could tell I was confused. She explained the alfred

plea, asked if that's what I wanted. 's next to me whispering

'Yes!' I felt like a deer caught in the headlights, not knowing which

way to go. (dear readers, a reminder, I am just running my story here)

, sighed. Then prosecutor says what they're prosecuting me for.

camped where i shouldn't have been, illegal fire, millions in damage,

fire fighters lives endangered. Prosecution or persecution? Oh, and

she asks persecutor if fire is out, he said he didn't think so. I've

heard it was. But then again the news ain't always recorded right.

asks for file, she didn't have anything to look at on the case.

She's handed a four page file that I've seen that tells hardly

anything. There's a thick file on the case. She scans over the four

pages, then says something like, well, it looks like you had a fire,

threw some dirt on it, and started a forest fire that's cost over 4

million dollars. And she just looks at me.

I'm thinking, what about how I waited for the papers to burn, broke it

down with stick, put water on it, put dirt on it covering everything,

waited 15 minutes in which time there was no smoke, put more dirt on

it. A part of me just wanted to say 'yeah.', I did, now sentence me. I

told her I'd done a lot more than just throw some dirt on it. I told

her the steps I took.

never spoke up about how I'd come forward, totally cooperated

with law enforcement, etc, etc. Never mentioned all the volunteer work

I'd done, gulf coast, etc, etc. (Should he have? No. How do I know

that? Cuz he didn't.)

I'm standing there, thinking, no no this is all wrong. She doesn't

understand. asks me if I want to postpone the sentencing to

discuss it more with my attorney. I say no, I'm ready to be sentenced.

She glances again thru the four pages, gets quiet a moment, than says

she really needs more time. Oh, and she wanted the persecutor to get

the latest monetary figures on what fire has cost.

So it's been postponed til next Tuesday. Today in mail I got letter

saying next Tuesday would be a jury selection conference at 1:30pm,

which is when my sentencing was supposed to be! I'm confused about

that. Today I could have had three weeks jail time served if I hadn't

come across incorrect news release saying fire started somewhere else.

hahahahahahaha- I might have gotten released today hahahahahahaha

Quite the story velcro'd, huh.

I left court room upset, got home and cried, cried cuz no one

understood, no one there knew me, knew anything about anything.

Tossed and turned most of that night.

Next day went to library, came upon great book about Jesus, which

helped calm my mind. Did a worksheet on 'They should have gotten it

right.' That's when I investigated the existence of 'right' and

'wrong' and now not sure they even exist. Wow, what might a life be

like that has no right/wrong in it? Could it be a life where the apple

from tree of good/evil was never eaten?

Later that day I went home, read some from Jesus book, meditated, and

found myself lovingly washing 's feet. So tenderly, warm water,

thick warm towels to dry. Then I was washing persecutor's feet, I'm

under the table washing them, while he's working at his table

preparing his case against me. I am laughing and smiling as I type

that. Silly boy.

I think I'm getting to that point where I lay down my life, and pick

up the cross. The cross is letting people do 'negative' things to me,

and I'm just in a surrender position, loving them. Let em hurl rocks,

pound nails, thrust spears, in my mind I'll be washing their feet.

Nothing, nobody can take that away.

If I don't get sentenced next Tuesday, I'm just gonna camp outside the

jail, they can arrest me for vagrancy, and I'll get in jail. I'll show

them! Or who knows. I sure don't.

Hi, have a seat. Take a load off. Let me take off your shoes and

socks, and just relax your feet in this warm, warm water as I wash

your feet.

Sweet Feet

[Guest guest]

>

> I glanced through the file, saw a photograph of the fire

> area soon after it started (probably doctored!?!? - conspiracy???)

> and I know this place well, having camped there several times. It

> looked very clear to me it was where I had burned the LWI

> worksheets.

>

> As soon as I saw that, I told I wanted to plead guilty.

Hi ,

They have a picture of the camping site where you burned the

worksheets, and that means that your worksheets started the fire? I

don't think so. Maybe the fire was really caused by a lightning

strike, or another bush walker passing through the area. I find those

explanations a lot more plausible given that you extinguished your

fire with water and even covered the ashes with dirt.

It would seem reasonable to plead guilty to camping without a permit,

but hardly appropriate to plead guilty to a million dollar fire which

in all probability you did not cause!

The legal case is your attorneys business and if he wants you to plead

innocent, then plead innocent. Your ONLY business is to question your

stressful thinking, which it appears you are not doing because you did

not question all of the thoughts which arose after you saw the photo

of the fire.

This whole nightmare started because you did not question your story

about causing the fire in the first place. Now it's getting

progressively worse, because you are still not questioning your

thoughts/stories. Loving what is, does not mean that you become a door

mat for everyone to walk over while you wash their feet. Love moves.

It represents the highest truth possible in the moment. Is pleading

guilty to something you did not do an expression of love or an

expression of confusion?

" Once you've noticed the very simple secret of questioning your

thoughts, you'll find that either you're happily moving along in your

life, feeling love, and doing what you want to do and what seems

loving, or, if you hit a bump, you're inquiring into the thoughts that

separate you from reality and from the experience of love. And the

four questions and turn-around return you to happily moving along. "

Byron

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rose agrees with mr. xy's posting. lr

>

>

> >

> > I glanced through the file, saw a photograph of the fire

> > area soon after it started (probably doctored!?!? - conspiracy???)

> > and I know this place well, having camped there several times. It

> > looked very clear to me it was where I had burned the LWI

> > worksheets.

> >

> > As soon as I saw that, I told I wanted to plead guilty.

>

>

> Hi ,

>

> They have a picture of the camping site where you burned the

> worksheets, and that means that your worksheets started the fire? I

> don't think so. Maybe the fire was really caused by a lightning

> strike, or another bush walker passing through the area. I find those

> explanations a lot more plausible given that you extinguished your

> fire with water and even covered the ashes with dirt.

> It would seem reasonable to plead guilty to camping without a permit,

> but hardly appropriate to plead guilty to a million dollar fire which

> in all probability you did not cause!

> The legal case is your attorneys business and if he wants you to plead

> innocent, then plead innocent. Your ONLY business is to question your

> stressful thinking, which it appears you are not doing because you did

> not question all of the thoughts which arose after you saw the photo

> of the fire.

> This whole nightmare started because you did not question your story

> about causing the fire in the first place. Now it's getting

> progressively worse, because you are still not questioning your

> thoughts/stories. Loving what is, does not mean that you become a door

> mat for everyone to walk over while you wash their feet. Love moves.

> It represents the highest truth possible in the moment. Is pleading

> guilty to something you did not do an expression of love or an

> expression of confusion?

>

>

> " Once you've noticed the very simple secret of questioning your

> thoughts, you'll find that either you're happily moving along in your

> life, feeling love, and doing what you want to do and what seems

> loving, or, if you hit a bump, you're inquiring into the thoughts that

> separate you from reality and from the experience of love. And the

> four questions and turn-around return you to happily moving along. "

> Byron

>

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Dear ,

I just wanted to toss in my 2 cents worth here. I completely agree

with LovetheworkofBK. He has (as usual) expressed my thoughts here

for me.

Once you get it straight whose business is whose, I think all will

work out just fine. The legal case is your lawyer's business and

your thinking is your business.

By the way, I could use one of those foot baths!

Best Regards, Steve D.

-- In Loving-what-is , " lovetheworkofbk "

wrote:

>

>

> >

> > I glanced through the file, saw a photograph of the fire

> > area soon after it started (probably doctored!?!? - conspiracy???)

> > and I know this place well, having camped there several times. It

> > looked very clear to me it was where I had burned the LWI

> > worksheets.

> >

> > As soon as I saw that, I told I wanted to plead guilty.

>

>

> Hi ,

>

> They have a picture of the camping site where you burned the

> worksheets, and that means that your worksheets started the fire? I

> don't think so. Maybe the fire was really caused by a lightning

> strike, or another bush walker passing through the area. I find

those

> explanations a lot more plausible given that you extinguished your

> fire with water and even covered the ashes with dirt.

> It would seem reasonable to plead guilty to camping without a

permit,

> but hardly appropriate to plead guilty to a million dollar fire

which

> in all probability you did not cause!

> The legal case is your attorneys business and if he wants you to

plead

> innocent, then plead innocent. Your ONLY business is to question

your

> stressful thinking, which it appears you are not doing because you

did

> not question all of the thoughts which arose after you saw the

photo

> of the fire.

> This whole nightmare started because you did not question your

story

> about causing the fire in the first place. Now it's getting

> progressively worse, because you are still not questioning your

> thoughts/stories. Loving what is, does not mean that you become a

door

> mat for everyone to walk over while you wash their feet. Love

moves.

> It represents the highest truth possible in the moment. Is pleading

> guilty to something you did not do an expression of love or an

> expression of confusion?

>

>

> " Once you've noticed the very simple secret of questioning your

> thoughts, you'll find that either you're happily moving along in

your

> life, feeling love, and doing what you want to do and what seems

> loving, or, if you hit a bump, you're inquiring into the thoughts

that

> separate you from reality and from the experience of love. And the

> four questions and turn-around return you to happily moving along. "

> Byron

>

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> >

> > I glanced through the file, saw a photograph of the fire

> > area soon after it started (probably doctored!?!? -

conspiracy???)

> > and I know this place well, having camped there several times. It

> > looked very clear to me it was where I had burned the LWI

> > worksheets.

> >

> > As soon as I saw that, I told I wanted to plead guilty.

>

>

> Hi ,

>

> They have a picture of the camping site where you burned the

> worksheets, and that means that your worksheets started the fire?

I

> don't think so. Maybe the fire was really caused by a lightning

> strike, or another bush walker passing through the area. I find

those

> explanations a lot more plausible given that you extinguished your

> fire with water and even covered the ashes with dirt.

***AND, you cannot really know. It seems that it would be good for

to go inside, consider her actions, and follow her own

integrity in this case. Can she know absolutely that her fire

started this whole thing? No. She can, however, act within her own

itegrity and see where it takes her, answering from her heart.

> It would seem reasonable to plead guilty to camping without a

permit,

> but hardly appropriate to plead guilty to a million dollar fire

which

> in all probability you did not cause!

> The legal case is your attorneys business and if he wants you to

plead

> innocent, then plead innocent.

***Yes, 's attorney is the expert here in matter of the law, and

not of her heart. And no matter what any expert tells me, if I go

inside and have a clear answer that contradicts what the whole world

tells me to do, then to do it is to follow my own heart and my own

integrity. And that can never take me anywhere that I am not

supposed to be. ANd if I was unclear, or confused, I would take my

attorney's advice. Follow the simple instructions here sounds like

good advice to me. Do you trust your attorney ?

Your ONLY business is to question your

> stressful thinking, which it appears you are not doing because you

did

> not question all of the thoughts which arose after you saw the

photo

> of the fire.

> This whole nightmare started because you did not question your

story

> about causing the fire in the first place.

***This may already have been answered long ago..and , was a

compete fire ban in effect at that time? If so, were you aware of

that fact? THis is not a nightmare, unless you have a story that it

is. What ever is happening, get clear on what you know you did and

didn't do, state that part clearly, make the amends that are

available to you and wait for the rest to unfold...questioning your

stressful thoughts about how things unfold gives you clarity and the

possibility of see that all this is for you .

Now it's getting

> progressively worse,

***Is that true? Things are unfolding, and has the opportunity

to question her stressful thoughts about that or not. Things are the

same, not progressively getting worse ~ except in your story.

because you are still not questioning your

> thoughts/stories.

***Nor should you , until you do.

Loving what is, does not mean that you become a door

> mat for everyone to walk over while you wash their feet.

***Perhaps not, unless that is what is happening. LWI is not being

at war with Reality. The work is a way to clear the mind and act as

effectively and efficiently from that clear place as possible. How

that unfolds in none of our business.

Love moves.

> It represents the highest truth possible in the moment.

***And I see that is happening right now, in each moment.

Is pleading

> guilty to something you did not do

***Again, only knows the way to go with this. I work in a

Wilderness Park and fires during dry periods are incredibly easy to

start...and difficult to extinguish (obviously)...the fire can

travel down through the root system and top mineral soil and travel

through to a stand of trees some distance away after folks have done

what they believe is reasonable to put it out. And this doenst mean

that I believe started this particular fire, I simply dont

know. She can only state what actions she took and wait to see what

happens. And whatever it is, once she has been clear about what she

knows she did do, the outcome will be for her highest good, it has

to be. There is no other possibility. And that is good news.

***I wish you well .

Cheers,

an expression of love or an

> expression of confusion?

>

>

> " Once you've noticed the very simple secret of questioning your

> thoughts, you'll find that either you're happily moving along in

your

> life, feeling love, and doing what you want to do and what seems

> loving, or, if you hit a bump, you're inquiring into the thoughts

that

> separate you from reality and from the experience of love. And the

> four questions and turn-around return you to happily moving

along. "

> Byron

>