Re: To Rozzie

[Guest guest]

Rozzie, thank you for sharing the information about illness from

Ponder... I am going through this flu/ sore throat that

just seems to keep hanging on. At times it seems to go away, but

later, in the night I can feel it coming back, settling deeper in my

chest.

It seems to correspond to a situation I am going through with my

son's dentist - I am experiencing a lot of anger, sadness, and

frustration over a first time visit that resulted in charges well

beyond what I was told as well as a job not properly done. I have

been so upset, but mostly at myself. I can tell the reaction is much

more than the situation probably warrants... so this tells me " stuff "

is really coming up for me. (and " stuff " is really coming up from my

chest and throat!)

I was supposed to get a phone call from the office today, but was at

work so missed it. I had been experiencing anxiety about it all

day... and when I really looked into it...I realized I was more

afraid of how I would react to the call than what they might actually

have to tell me. I was afraid of myself! Afraid I was going to, oh

maybe explode? Or fly off the handle, or scream hyterically...

I don't know... just that something bad might happen. So oh my. It

comes back to whether I want to be at peace or want to be RIGHT. I'm

trying to figure out how to follow directions (tell the office why I

am unhappy with what happened) without wanting to be in control. So

long story... it's a process and I'm right in the thick of it. My

Work is still a work in progress. And your post is helping me

realize that the process is OK, and not a reflection of how unevolved

I am. Thank you Rozzie.

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > > Thank you ! I have wondered if LTW is trying to

get

> > people

> > > > > over to ACIM. I cannot see any other reason why he is

> > continously

> > > > > posting about this on a work list. Heavens knows, there are

> > enough

> > > > > ACIM lists that he can join!

> > > > >

> > > > > Then I wondered how successful he is if that is really his

> > > > > intention. It appeared to me that he would be alienating

people

> > > > > rather than " convert " them. Your and 's posts today

showed

> > that

> > > > > this may be so. If he is not trying to " convert " people,

the

> > only

> > > > > other reason I can think of for him to keep on posting like

> > this,

> > > > > would be to show how much " more " he knows than the rest of

us

> > > > > ignorant people. Could that be true LTW?

> > > > >

> > > >

> > > > Hanle what can I say? I was lying on the floor and an ant

crawled

> > > > over my foot and now I feel the need to merge ACIM and the

Work

> > (just

> > > > joking, I know how you like to take things literally). Of

course

> > > > anything I write is for me and if it helps someone else that

is

> > just

> > > > a bonus. I know that when anyone mentions the name " Jesus "

they

> > think

> > > > that they are on some holy crusade to " convert " people to

> > > > Christianity or ACIM. Trust me I have no wish to convert

anyone

> > to

> > > > anything. I think that the Work could benefit from a dose of

the

> > > > Courses metaphysics, and the Course could benefit from a more

> > > > structured forgiveness practice like the Work. My recent

posts

> > have

> > > > been exploring that connection.

> > > > I must admit that my understanding of ACIM's metaphysics is

> > pretty

> > > > impressive, but then what would you expect after 20 years of

> > study

> > > > and practice? If you disagree with any of my thoughts feel

free

> > to

> > > > state an alternate position which we can discuss, rather than

> > > > resorting to personal attacks.

> > > >

> > > > Have a beautiful day

> > > >

> > > > " There's nothing between you and love but unquestioned

concepts. "

> > > > Byron

> > > >

> > > >