Guest guest Posted August 23, 2006 Report Share Posted August 23, 2006 Dear T, The work helps some people, the work helps people combined with something else, could be a book, teraphy or something else. The work does not work for some other people, all that is true for me. Sweety, have you read the book " getting the love you want " I don't know if you enjoy reading but that is a book that can give someone a new prospective in life. Do you enjoy praying? what has make you feel better in the past when you feel down like that? just wish I could help in any way because I do care, love, Tami wrote: Thank you fir your time And thank you for listening to me I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die The only thought that gives me hope Is that I can try to kill myslef I feel that life is too hard on me And I cannot cope People give me advice all the time What I should do How I should take more responsibilit And I feel that it is too complicate for me I gave up on having babies cause it is too much for me I don't care if I will not have a boy friend And the only issue that force me to cope is the money issue I don't mind not working either But I don't want to live on the streets And for now I have a home But in the future, I might have to get a job And I don't want to work I just want to sleep or die I am scared And I just want someone to hug me And protect me from this life I just want to die And I don't know how to do it I am afraid I know you cannot help me either And I write here anyway I want to die. I feel that I have big issues That I didn't deal with them And they all come up i am not going to run away to fantazy land By wanting things I cannot have I need to make peace with what I do have now I am too worried and scared And please don't ask me to do the work It doesn't work for me I want to die And maybe I should go to mental institute To calm down So I will not hurt myslef Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 23, 2006 Report Share Posted August 23, 2006 > > Thank you fir your time > And thank you for listening to me > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight > And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die > The only thought that gives me hope > Is that I can try to kill myslef > Hi Tami, The best antidote I have found to depressing and suicidal thoughts other than the Work is to help others. When you help someone else you don't have time to dwell on how unhappy you are. Your country is currently torn apart by war, so it should be relatively easy to find someone to help on either side of the conflict. By giving love to those in need you get to remember the love in yourself. Perhaps you could volunteer to be a nurses aid in a hospital treating wounded Israeli soldiers, or volunteer to help rebuild the homes in Southern Lebanon destroyed by the Israeli missiles. Remember your real job is to love, not to run away and try to kill yourself. Have a gentle day and a long life " Sanity doesn't suffer, ever . . . ever! Sanity doesn't suffer, ever, ever! Isn't that lovely? " Byron Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 23, 2006 Report Share Posted August 23, 2006 and i would add to that- i think you have so much to offer people, a gift of wisdom that flows out of you sometimes, it would be a shame for people not to get that, if you kill yourself. i would miss it and your funny ways. loving you as me, laurie > > > > > > Thank you fir your time > > And thank you for listening to me > > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight > > And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die > > The only thought that gives me hope > > Is that I can try to kill myslef > > > > Hi Tami, > > The best antidote I have found to depressing and suicidal thoughts > other than the Work is to help others. When you help someone else > you don't have time to dwell on how unhappy you are. Your country is > currently torn apart by war, so it should be relatively easy to find > someone to help on either side of the conflict. By giving love to > those in need you get to remember the love in yourself. Perhaps you > could volunteer to be a nurses aid in a hospital treating wounded > Israeli soldiers, or volunteer to help rebuild the homes in Southern > Lebanon destroyed by the Israeli missiles. Remember your real job is > to love, not to run away and try to kill yourself. > > Have a gentle day and a long life > > " Sanity doesn't suffer, ever . . . ever! Sanity doesn't suffer, > ever, ever! Isn't that lovely? " Byron > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 23, 2006 Report Share Posted August 23, 2006 Hi Tami! **My text is within yours below. Thank you fir your time And thank you for listening to me I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die The only thought that gives me hope Is that I can try to kill myslef **It sounds like you're feeling really lonely, hopeless and desperate and you really need people who can hear you and understand the pain that you're feeling right now. I feel that life is too hard on me And I cannot cope People give me advice all the time What I should do How I should take more responsibilit And I feel that it is too complicate for me I gave up on having babies cause it is too much for me I don't care if I will not have a boy friend And the only issue that force me to cope is the money issue I don't mind not working either But I don't want to live on the streets And for now I have a home But in the future, I might have to get a job And I don't want to work I just want to sleep or die **Things are feeling pretty overwhelming and you are really wanting a place that feels safe and nurturing. I am scared And I just want someone to hug me And protect me from this life **You are frightened and looking for gentleness and love in a world that is not meeting your needs for safety, peace and harmony. I just want to die And I don't know how to do it I am afraid I know you cannot help me either And I write here anyway I want to die. **You are feeling isolated and hopeless at really getting the support and love that you need right now. I feel that I have big issues That I didn't deal with them And they all come up i am not going to run away to fantazy land By wanting things I cannot have I need to make peace with what I do have now I am too worried and scared And please don't ask me to do the work It doesn't work for me **You're feeling overwhelmed by problems and challenges and have a need to make peace with them and with yourself and are needing clarity as to how to go about accomplishing that. I want to die And maybe I should go to mental institute To calm down So I will not hurt myslef **You are willing to consider options to meet your need for a safe environment for yourself and provide yourself with the nurturing that you need right now. I hear you, my friend, and appreciate your openness and honest expression and your desire to meet the needs that you are experiencing right now. Love, Light and Hugs, Theresa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 23, 2006 Report Share Posted August 23, 2006 > > Thank you fir your time > And thank you for listening to me > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight I love you Tami says everyone loves her, they just don't know it yet. It's true in my world that you love yourself, you just don't know it yet. A few years back I swallowed two bottles of sleeping pills. And went to sleep. The story continues, a later scene of being in an ambulance, tube down my nose/throat, charcoal being pumped in to suck up poison from system. But there's a more recent chapter, where I realize suicide is not a letting go of life, but the ultimate attempt to control life. Yeah, that was more true for me. Right now I'm looking at a bookmark next to the computer. On it says- " ...and then the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. " Whether or not you needed to hear these words, guess I needed to say em. I love you Tami Do you want a Carrot Card reading? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2006 Report Share Posted August 24, 2006 oh tami! i'm sorry for you and you have my ful empathy for you. i'm writing out of bed, currently so weak that i can hardly manage to sit upright for a while. so hanging here somewhere in between i open my computer, and find these lines of you. and all the responses. and i wonder: how can i help? outside, on the other side of the street is a primary school. there are litte children coming with their parents and relatives and a large cornet of cardboard filled with sweets and little presents (given to children in Germany on their first day at school) the kids have this expression of exitement and curiousity on their face. it's their very first school day. How nice to watch! Yesterday night, i was thinking a lot about a firend that died this early january (suicide). i thought about the question, if there had been anything that i could have done that would have saved his life. i don't know. i just remember what i heard from katie last weekend, on an audio file. she described her work in a prison, where they put a screeming man into an empty cell. he screamed and screamed. his thoughts made him scream. then she compared that with another man. he was in meditation mode, if they put him into the same cell - silence and bliss. he's got different thoughts! very true!! i know a lot about depression from my own experience. and i know there are different severety grades of it. i fully agree with katie, when she says, it's the thoughts that make us suffer. i also know that it is important, to take a turn at the beginning of a coming up depression. from my own experience i can only share, that it was a combination of changing my thoughts and being honest to myself that helped me to find my way out. being honest to myself helped me to find different people. it was a long way. many years long. there was joy and pain on it. there was exitement and dissapointment. i had a mum that was very depressed herself for years. i had a dad, that was rather frustrated and hot-tempered. how did i chose to survive in that partwise lifethreatening climate? i played the nice and funny, entertaining girl. that pleased them. so i got at least some attention that was not scary for me. but when i came to the beginning of puberty, i started to want to kill myself. with fourteen i took an overdose of pills. then i moved out. started to search. i started to look for intimacy with myself. well. i found it! and the wounds started to bleed. in the beginning it all went worse. sometimes i lived for only one hr a week. it was the one my therapist had time for me. in the meantime i survived. i know that when we want to die. we don't really want to die, but want the hurt and pain to end. we feel that we do not have the strength and the hope anylonger to be able to deal with what's going on. we fantasize how it will get worse and worse and how we will end (on the street, or whereever) if i was in your condition right now. what would i like to hear? some honest words from a human fellow that cares. if that was me, what would i say? i would remind myself that my experience is, that life goes up and down. change is the contiunity. i would look for a therapist that is really approachable as a human being. perhaps if i have no one to nestle, i would go to a group, like emotional anonymous (similar to anonymous alcoholics) or i would join a therapy group. i would make clear that i get some touches, without mixing that with sex. i would ask myself, what it is, that i'm really hungry for. what do i long for, and then i would go. step by step to move towards it. the work is a great support to find your true answers. the truer you are, the truer your relationships become. the truer they get, the more satisfying they become. you said you have no one to talk to. well. i could open a skype account and we could talk over skype. it would cost nothing extra. if i can be of any help or support for you. let me know. with love, rose > > Thank you fir your time > And thank you for listening to me > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight > And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die > The only thought that gives me hope > Is that I can try to kill myslef > > I feel that life is too hard on me > And I cannot cope > People give me advice all the time > What I should do > How I should take more responsibilit > And I feel that it is too complicate for me > I gave up on having babies cause it is too much for me > I don't care if I will not have a boy friend > And the only issue that force me to cope is the money issue > I don't mind not working either > But I don't want to live on the streets > And for now I have a home > But in the future, I might have to get a job > And I don't want to work > I just want to sleep or die > > I am scared > And I just want someone to hug me > And protect me from this life > > I just want to die > And I don't know how to do it > I am afraid > I know you cannot help me either > And I write here anyway > I want to die. > > I feel that I have big issues > That I didn't deal with them > And they all come up > i am not going to run away to fantazy land > By wanting things I cannot have > I need to make peace with what I do have now > I am too worried and scared > And please don't ask me to do the work > It doesn't work for me > > I want to die > And maybe I should go to mental institute > To calm down > So I will not hurt myslef > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2006 Report Share Posted August 24, 2006 Dear Tami, We hear you and we care for you. You said: " And maybe I should go to mental institute To calm down So I will not hurt myself. " I would drop the " maybe " . (I know, talk!) but it is what I feel is true. I feel you should contact your Doctor and tell them this feeling of wanting to die. See what they can do for you. Also, Can you really know that death would be a help? Where is your proof? I personally do not know what efect deth will have on my thoughts? Love, Steve (old man) D. > > Thank you fir your time > And thank you for listening to me > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight > And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die > The only thought that gives me hope > Is that I can try to kill myslef > > I feel that life is too hard on me > And I cannot cope > People give me advice all the time > What I should do > How I should take more responsibilit > And I feel that it is too complicate for me > I gave up on having babies cause it is too much for me > I don't care if I will not have a boy friend > And the only issue that force me to cope is the money issue > I don't mind not working either > But I don't want to live on the streets > And for now I have a home > But in the future, I might have to get a job > And I don't want to work > I just want to sleep or die > > I am scared > And I just want someone to hug me > And protect me from this life > > I just want to die > And I don't know how to do it > I am afraid > I know you cannot help me either > And I write here anyway > I want to die. > > I feel that I have big issues > That I didn't deal with them > And they all come up > i am not going to run away to fantazy land > By wanting things I cannot have > I need to make peace with what I do have now > I am too worried and scared > And please don't ask me to do the work > It doesn't work for me > > I want to die > And maybe I should go to mental institute > To calm down > So I will not hurt myslef > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2006 Report Share Posted August 24, 2006 Dear Tami, i let your words be with me for a while now, since i read them a few hrs ago. I think seeing a doctor, or bringing yourself to a caring place, like a hospital, might be the most reasonable action for the moment. I wish you all the best. love, rose Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2006 Report Share Posted August 24, 2006 My story... You just need " love " ! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2006 Report Share Posted August 24, 2006 My story... You just need to feel " accepted " , " loved " , " appreciated " , " wanted " , " needed " ... [ my story... You want to feel " warm " ! ] and, I think you are TRULY wanted, needed,loved, desired, appreciated... by many, many, many people! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2006 Report Share Posted August 24, 2006 My story... You just need to feel " accepted " , " loved " , " appreciated " , " wanted " , " needed " ... [ my story... You want to feel " warm " ! ] and, I think you are TRULY wanted, needed,loved, desired, appreciated... by many, many, many people! What you ALWAYS keep " looking for " ....is what you ALREADY Have! People do " love " you Tami and they do INDEED like you... People like me, people like me, people like many on this forum, people like your dad, people like many around you... Your " problem " is same as as the problem of many of " us " ... You [like US] put 'mental' 'condition' around people who love you, people who need you, want you... that they can not meet... and, when they DO meet those conditions, you [like US] again change your conditions to somethings that they can not meet! One guy might like you, love you, desire you, want you, need you... but, he might be married and not " your " type! One guy might like you, love you, desire you, want you, need you... but, he might be married and in Berlin! One guy might like you, love you, desire you, want you, need you... but, he might be an Israeli! So it is " YOU " who in the end, might " fail " EVERYONE that likes, loves, desires or " need " you Tami! [ ...and, you are just like US! We too compain why people who love us don't excatly " match " the mental picture that we have drawn for them!] ....and, that is your RIGHT! You are " loved " Tami... in spite of all the 'condition' you put around " loving " you! [Funny thing is that you like all of us... still keep " pretending " to be looking for " love " while you put all sort of blocakdes and 'condition' to STOP people from loving you! Funny... isn't IT? ] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 25, 2006 Report Share Posted August 25, 2006 dear tami.. i totally disagree with steve... you dont need a mental institution.. Your not crazy.. your normal.. better than normal.. you can express yourself. Im sorry you feel like you want to die.. i have off and on for many years.. this too shall pass.. Actually i still have feelings of wanting to die.. but i know its wanting to escape stay here for us.. love you, roslyn--- In Loving-what-is , " Steve Daily " wrote: > > Dear Tami, > > We hear you and we care for you. > > You said: > " And maybe I should go to mental institute To calm down So I will not > hurt myself. " > > I would drop the " maybe " . (I know, talk!) but it is what I > feel is true. I feel you should contact your Doctor and tell them > this feeling of wanting to die. See what they can do for you. > > Also, Can you really know that death would be a help? Where is your > proof? I personally do not know what efect deth will have on my > thoughts? > > Love, Steve (old man) D. > > > > > > > > Thank you fir your time > > And thank you for listening to me > > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight > > And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die > > The only thought that gives me hope > > Is that I can try to kill myslef > > > > I feel that life is too hard on me > > And I cannot cope > > People give me advice all the time > > What I should do > > How I should take more responsibilit > > And I feel that it is too complicate for me > > I gave up on having babies cause it is too much for me > > I don't care if I will not have a boy friend > > And the only issue that force me to cope is the money issue > > I don't mind not working either > > But I don't want to live on the streets > > And for now I have a home > > But in the future, I might have to get a job > > And I don't want to work > > I just want to sleep or die > > > > I am scared > > And I just want someone to hug me > > And protect me from this life > > > > I just want to die > > And I don't know how to do it > > I am afraid > > I know you cannot help me either > > And I write here anyway > > I want to die. > > > > I feel that I have big issues > > That I didn't deal with them > > And they all come up > > i am not going to run away to fantazy land > > By wanting things I cannot have > > I need to make peace with what I do have now > > I am too worried and scared > > And please don't ask me to do the work > > It doesn't work for me > > > > I want to die > > And maybe I should go to mental institute > > To calm down > > So I will not hurt myslef > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2006 Report Share Posted August 26, 2006 Dear lovethework I love you so much You are such a loving person I want to hug you (in my mind, no need to be panic) > Hi Tami, > > The best antidote I have found to depressing and suicidal thoughts > other than the Work is to help others. Right, you are so wise When you help someone else > you don't have time to dwell on how unhappy you are. I agree, and can you help me get out of bed Cause that is something I need to do To be able to help others And I understand your point I am doing the best I can I might start volunteer working in local youth cultural center As a helper to the social organizer That is what I am suppose to do well According to the graphology test I was told that I am good with people And I have the emotional ability to understand others And help them by giving fast solutions to problems I don't know if it is true! Your country is > currently torn apart by war, so it should be relatively easy to find > someone to help on either side of the conflict. By giving love to > those in need you get to remember the love in yourself. You are so sweet, you know that? Perhaps you > could volunteer to be a nurses aid in a hospital treating wounded > Israeli soldiers, or volunteer to help rebuild the homes in Southern > Lebanon destroyed by the Israeli missiles. Remember your real job is > to love, not to run away and try to kill yourself. I am helping my dad as he gets is chimo treatment once a week My dad thinks I am good at that Cause I am a caring person So twice a week is a beginning > > Have a gentle day and a long life I want to give you a kiss You are so lovable! Thank you for being in this group T > > > " Sanity doesn't suffer, ever . . . Ever! Sanity doesn't suffer, > ever, ever! Isn't that lovely? " Byron > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2006 Report Share Posted August 26, 2006 Dear Laurie > and I would add to that- I think you have so much to offer people, a gift of > wisdom that flows out of you sometimes, Drop the " sometimes " ! It would be a shame for people not > to get that, if you kill yourself. For me... When I suffer I don't care about other people's happiness, When I suffer... I only care about my well being > I would miss it and your funny ways. I am not going anywhere, yet > loving you as me, Laurie Than I hope that you love yourself > > > > > > > > > > > > Thank you fir your time > > > And thank you for listening to me > > > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight > > > And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die > > > The only thought that gives me hope > > > Is that I can try to kill myslef > > > > > > > Hi Tami, > > > > The best antidote I have found to depressing and suicidal thoughts > > other than the Work is to help others. When you help someone else > > you don't have time to dwell on how unhappy you are. Your country is > > currently torn apart by war, so it should be relatively easy to find > > someone to help on either side of the conflict. By giving love to > > those in need you get to remember the love in yourself. Perhaps you > > could volunteer to be a nurses aid in a hospital treating wounded > > Israeli soldiers, or volunteer to help rebuild the homes in Southern > > Lebanon destroyed by the Israeli missiles. Remember your real job is > > to love, not to run away and try to kill yourself. > > > > Have a gentle day and a long life > > > > " Sanity doesn't suffer, ever . . . Ever! Sanity doesn't suffer, > > ever, ever! Isn't that lovely? " Byron > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2006 Report Share Posted August 26, 2006 Dear Theresa Wowowowowow Where have you been the entire time, And why you don't write here more often I never met anyone as loving as you are Thank you for listening to be I want to be your friend Do you have skype, so we could talk? Where do you live? (I am from Israel) T -- Re: I want to die Hi Tami! **My text is within yours below. Thank you fir your time And thank you for listening to me I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die The only thought that gives me hope Is that I can try to kill myslef **It sounds like you're feeling really lonely, hopeless and desperate and you really need people who can hear you and understand the pain that you're feeling right now. I feel that life is too hard on me And I cannot cope People give me advice all the time What I should do How I should take more responsibilit And I feel that it is too complicate for me I gave up on having babies cause it is too much for me I don't care if I will not have a boy friend And the only issue that force me to cope is the money issue I don't mind not working either But I don't want to live on the streets And for now I have a home But in the future, I might have to get a job And I don't want to work I just want to sleep or die **Things are feeling pretty overwhelming and you are really wanting a place that feels safe and nurturing. I am scared And I just want someone to hug me And protect me from this life **You are frightened and looking for gentleness and love in a world that is not meeting your needs for safety, peace and harmony. I just want to die And I don't know how to do it I am afraid I know you cannot help me either And I write here anyway I want to die. **You are feeling isolated and hopeless at really getting the support and love that you need right now. I feel that I have big issues That I didn't deal with them And they all come up i am not going to run away to fantazy land By wanting things I cannot have I need to make peace with what I do have now I am too worried and scared And please don't ask me to do the work It doesn't work for me **You're feeling overwhelmed by problems and challenges and have a need to make peace with them and with yourself and are needing clarity as to how to go about accomplishing that. I want to die And maybe I should go to mental institute To calm down So I will not hurt myslef **You are willing to consider options to meet your need for a safe environment for yourself and provide yourself with the nurturing that you need right now. I hear you, my friend, and appreciate your openness and honest expression and your desire to meet the needs that you are experiencing right now. Love, Light and Hugs, Theresa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2006 Report Share Posted August 26, 2006 Dear rose Thank you for caring I do have skype acount I welcome you to join me, we can talk, that would be nice My user name is tamar_fa Second You wrote " Know that when we want to die. We don't really want to die, but Want the hurt and pain to end. We feel that we do not have the Strength and The hope any longer to be able to deal with what's going on. " I agree, I don't want to die I want my pain to stop And I don't know how. So I sleep a lot, and feel scared. But I have a solution I will call my psychologist that helped me 12 years ago He is a genius, and I will ask him to help me See you on skype, T Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2006 Report Share Posted August 26, 2006 Hey, oldie > Also, Can you really know that death would be a help? Don't take my last hope from me! Where is your sensitivity? > Love, Steve (old man) D. Love, Tami (young women) F. > > > > > > > > Thank you fir your time > > And thank you for listening to me > > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight > > And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die > > The only thought that gives me hope > > Is that I can try to kill myslef > > > > I feel that life is too hard on me > > And I cannot cope > > People give me advice all the time > > What I should do > > How I should take more responsibilit > > And I feel that it is too complicate for me > > I gave up on having babies cause it is too much for me > > I don't care if I will not have a boy friend > > And the only issue that force me to cope is the money issue > > I don't mind not working either > > But I don't want to live on the streets > > And for now I have a home > > But in the future, I might have to get a job > > And I don't want to work > > I just want to sleep or die > > > > I am scared > > And I just want someone to hug me > > And protect me from this life > > > > I just want to die > > And I don't know how to do it > > I am afraid > > I know you cannot help me either > > And I write here anyway > > I want to die. > > > > I feel that I have big issues > > That I didn't deal with them > > And they all come up > > I am not going to run away to fantazy land > > By wanting things I cannot have > > I need to make peace with what I do have now > > I am too worried and scared > > And please don't ask me to do the work > > It doesn't work for me > > > > I want to die > > And maybe I should go to mental institute > > To calm down > > So I will not hurt myslef > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2006 Report Share Posted August 26, 2006 Dear R What is normal??? No two people are alike, so what is normal than? Normal doesn't exist therefore I am not normal Nor un-normal I am Tami, and I had an anxiety attack And I needed help " stay here for us.. " My ego loves this last sentence Can you elaborate? T -- Re: I want to die dear tami.. i totally disagree with steve... you dont need a mental institution.. Your not crazy.. your normal.. better than normal.. you can express yourself. Im sorry you feel like you want to die.. i have off and on for many years.. this too shall pass.. Actually i still have feelings of wanting to die.. but i know its wanting to escape stay here for us.. love you, roslyn--- In Loving-what-is , " Steve Daily " wrote: > > Dear Tami, > > We hear you and we care for you. > > You said: > " And maybe I should go to mental institute To calm down So I will not > hurt myself. " > > I would drop the " maybe " . (I know, talk!) but it is what I > feel is true. I feel you should contact your Doctor and tell them > this feeling of wanting to die. See what they can do for you. > > Also, Can you really know that death would be a help? Where is your > proof? I personally do not know what efect deth will have on my > thoughts? > > Love, Steve (old man) D. > > > > > > > > Thank you fir your time > > And thank you for listening to me > > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight > > And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die > > The only thought that gives me hope > > Is that I can try to kill myslef > > > > I feel that life is too hard on me > > And I cannot cope > > People give me advice all the time > > What I should do > > How I should take more responsibilit > > And I feel that it is too complicate for me > > I gave up on having babies cause it is too much for me > > I don't care if I will not have a boy friend > > And the only issue that force me to cope is the money issue > > I don't mind not working either > > But I don't want to live on the streets > > And for now I have a home > > But in the future, I might have to get a job > > And I don't want to work > > I just want to sleep or die > > > > I am scared > > And I just want someone to hug me > > And protect me from this life > > > > I just want to die > > And I don't know how to do it > > I am afraid > > I know you cannot help me either > > And I write here anyway > > I want to die. > > > > I feel that I have big issues > > That I didn't deal with them > > And they all come up > > i am not going to run away to fantazy land > > By wanting things I cannot have > > I need to make peace with what I do have now > > I am too worried and scared > > And please don't ask me to do the work > > It doesn't work for me > > > > I want to die > > And maybe I should go to mental institute > > To calm down > > So I will not hurt myslef > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2006 Report Share Posted August 26, 2006 Dali I know that people love me So? What is not to love? That is not the reason I wanted to die I had a " good " reason to die: I am not independent financially So, if I knew that someone would take care of me financially Or give me food and shelter for the rest of my life I wouldn't have any reason to be scared and down Kapish? T -- Re: I want to die My story... You just need to feel " accepted " , " loved " , " appreciated " , " wanted " , " needed " ... [ my story... You want to feel " warm " ! ] and, I think you are TRULY wanted, needed,loved, desired, appreciated... by many, many, many people! What you ALWAYS keep " looking for " ......is what you ALREADY Have! People do " love " you Tami and they do INDEED like you... People like me, people like me, people like many on this forum, people like your dad, people like many around you... Your " problem " is same as as the problem of many of " us " ... You [like US] put 'mental' 'condition' around people who love you, people who need you, want you... that they can not meet... and, when they DO meet those conditions, you [like US] again change your conditions to somethings that they can not meet! One guy might like you, love you, desire you, want you, need you... but, he might be married and not " your " type! One guy might like you, love you, desire you, want you, need you... but, he might be married and in Berlin! One guy might like you, love you, desire you, want you, need you... but, he might be an Israeli! So it is " YOU " who in the end, might " fail " EVERYONE that likes, loves, desires or " need " you Tami! [ ...and, you are just like US! We too compain why people who love us don't excatly " match " the mental picture that we have drawn for them!] ......and, that is your RIGHT! You are " loved " Tami... in spite of all the 'condition' you put around " loving " you! [Funny thing is that you like all of us... still keep " pretending " to be looking for " love " while you put all sort of blocakdes and 'condition' to STOP people from loving you! Funny... isn't IT? ] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2006 Report Share Posted August 26, 2006 Dear Tami, i hear that your latest words came from a somewhat different space. sounds like a reasonable idea to contact your former therapist. good/clear thinking. i do have to take some hurdles with skype. but thanks for letting me (us) know about your skype adress/name. perhaps someone else will pop up. you never know. ; ) love and fine wishes for your unique path, rose > Dear rose > > Thank you for caring > I do have skype acount .... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 27, 2006 Report Share Posted August 27, 2006 Hi Tami! I would love to connect through skype with you. I currently don't have an account. I am happy to look into and setting that up and I hope to have that done sometime today and then I'll let you know what my account name is. I live in Washington State in the US. I'm not sure how that works with the time zones but I feel confident that we'll find a time that can work well for both of us to visit. Talk to you soon Love, Light and Hugs to you, Theresa > > Dear Theresa > > Wowowowowow > > Where have you been the entire time, > And why you don't write here more often > > I never met anyone as loving as you are > > Thank you for listening to be > I want to be your friend > Do you have skype, so we could talk? > Where do you live? > (I am from Israel) > > T > > > -- Re: I want to die > > Hi Tami! > > **My text is within yours below. > > Thank you fir your time > And thank you for listening to me > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight > And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die > The only thought that gives me hope > Is that I can try to kill myslef > > **It sounds like you're feeling really lonely, hopeless and > desperate and you really need people who can hear you and understand > the pain that you're feeling right now. > > I feel that life is too hard on me > And I cannot cope > People give me advice all the time > What I should do > How I should take more responsibilit > And I feel that it is too complicate for me > I gave up on having babies cause it is too much for me > I don't care if I will not have a boy friend > And the only issue that force me to cope is the money issue > I don't mind not working either > But I don't want to live on the streets > And for now I have a home > But in the future, I might have to get a job > And I don't want to work > I just want to sleep or die > > **Things are feeling pretty overwhelming and you are really wanting > a place that feels safe and nurturing. > > I am scared > And I just want someone to hug me > And protect me from this life > > **You are frightened and looking for gentleness and love in a world > that is not meeting your needs for safety, peace and harmony. > > I just want to die > And I don't know how to do it > I am afraid > I know you cannot help me either > And I write here anyway > I want to die. > > **You are feeling isolated and hopeless at really getting the > support and love that you need right now. > > I feel that I have big issues > That I didn't deal with them > And they all come up > i am not going to run away to fantazy land > By wanting things I cannot have > I need to make peace with what I do have now > I am too worried and scared > And please don't ask me to do the work > It doesn't work for me > > **You're feeling overwhelmed by problems and challenges and have a > need to make peace with them and with yourself and are needing > clarity as to how to go about accomplishing that. > > I want to die > And maybe I should go to mental institute > To calm down > So I will not hurt myslef > > **You are willing to consider options to meet your need for a safe > environment for yourself and provide yourself with the nurturing > that you need right now. > > I hear you, my friend, and appreciate your openness and honest > expression and your desire to meet the needs that you are > experiencing right now. > > Love, Light and Hugs, > > Theresa > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 27, 2006 Report Share Posted August 27, 2006 dear tami.. stay here for us.. means i get help from your emails. and i enjoy your funny emails.. so i would miss your presence on this group.. and im sure others would.. so you are helping people maybe when you dont know it. love, roslyn-- - In Loving-what-is , Tami wrote: > > Dear R > What is normal??? > No two people are alike, so what is normal than? > Normal doesn't exist therefore I am not normal > Nor un-normal > > I am Tami, and I had an anxiety attack > And I needed help > > " stay here for us.. " > > My ego loves this last sentence > Can you elaborate? > > T > > > > -- Re: I want to die > > dear tami.. i totally disagree with steve... you dont need a mental > institution.. > Your not crazy.. > your normal.. > better than normal.. you can express yourself. > Im sorry you feel like you want to die.. i have off and on for many > years.. this too shall pass.. > Actually i still have feelings of wanting to die.. but i know > its wanting to escape > stay here for us.. > love you, roslyn--- > > In Loving-what-is , " Steve Daily " <lafdaily@> wrote: > > > > Dear Tami, > > > > We hear you and we care for you. > > > > You said: > > " And maybe I should go to mental institute To calm down So I will not > > hurt myself. " > > > > I would drop the " maybe " . (I know, talk!) but it is what I > > feel is true. I feel you should contact your Doctor and tell them > > this feeling of wanting to die. See what they can do for you. > > > > Also, Can you really know that death would be a help? Where is your > > proof? I personally do not know what efect deth will have on my > > thoughts? > > > > Love, Steve (old man) D. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thank you fir your time > > > And thank you for listening to me > > > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight > > > And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die > > > The only thought that gives me hope > > > Is that I can try to kill myslef > > > > > > I feel that life is too hard on me > > > And I cannot cope > > > People give me advice all the time > > > What I should do > > > How I should take more responsibilit > > > And I feel that it is too complicate for me > > > I gave up on having babies cause it is too much for me > > > I don't care if I will not have a boy friend > > > And the only issue that force me to cope is the money issue > > > I don't mind not working either > > > But I don't want to live on the streets > > > And for now I have a home > > > But in the future, I might have to get a job > > > And I don't want to work > > > I just want to sleep or die > > > > > > I am scared > > > And I just want someone to hug me > > > And protect me from this life > > > > > > I just want to die > > > And I don't know how to do it > > > I am afraid > > > I know you cannot help me either > > > And I write here anyway > > > I want to die. > > > > > > I feel that I have big issues > > > That I didn't deal with them > > > And they all come up > > > i am not going to run away to fantazy land > > > By wanting things I cannot have > > > I need to make peace with what I do have now > > > I am too worried and scared > > > And please don't ask me to do the work > > > It doesn't work for me > > > > > > I want to die > > > And maybe I should go to mental institute > > > To calm down > > > So I will not hurt myslef > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 27, 2006 Report Share Posted August 27, 2006 --dear tami.. also your right there is no normal or abnormal.. And pscyhs. have to label people to create a reason for there own existance. my friend was a nurse at a pscyh ward and she said the staff was crazier than the patients.. however now she is on a number of drugs.. and retired.. and going to a therapist . oh well..i guess we all have our own paths to take and they are all good.. love, roslyn mi- In Loving-what-is , Tami wrote: > > Dear R > What is normal??? > No two people are alike, so what is normal than? > Normal doesn't exist therefore I am not normal > Nor un-normal > > I am Tami, and I had an anxiety attack > And I needed help > > " stay here for us.. " > > My ego loves this last sentence > Can you elaborate? > > T > > > > -- Re: I want to die > > dear tami.. i totally disagree with steve... you dont need a mental > institution.. > Your not crazy.. > your normal.. > better than normal.. you can express yourself. > Im sorry you feel like you want to die.. i have off and on for many > years.. this too shall pass.. > Actually i still have feelings of wanting to die.. but i know > its wanting to escape > stay here for us.. > love you, roslyn--- > > In Loving-what-is , " Steve Daily " <lafdaily@> wrote: > > > > Dear Tami, > > > > We hear you and we care for you. > > > > You said: > > " And maybe I should go to mental institute To calm down So I will not > > hurt myself. " > > > > I would drop the " maybe " . (I know, talk!) but it is what I > > feel is true. I feel you should contact your Doctor and tell them > > this feeling of wanting to die. See what they can do for you. > > > > Also, Can you really know that death would be a help? Where is your > > proof? I personally do not know what efect deth will have on my > > thoughts? > > > > Love, Steve (old man) D. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Thank you fir your time > > > And thank you for listening to me > > > I have no one I can talk to and it is late atnight > > > And I cry and feel helpless and I want to die > > > The only thought that gives me hope > > > Is that I can try to kill myslef > > > > > > I feel that life is too hard on me > > > And I cannot cope > > > People give me advice all the time > > > What I should do > > > How I should take more responsibilit > > > And I feel that it is too complicate for me > > > I gave up on having babies cause it is too much for me > > > I don't care if I will not have a boy friend > > > And the only issue that force me to cope is the money issue > > > I don't mind not working either > > > But I don't want to live on the streets > > > And for now I have a home > > > But in the future, I might have to get a job > > > And I don't want to work > > > I just want to sleep or die > > > > > > I am scared > > > And I just want someone to hug me > > > And protect me from this life > > > > > > I just want to die > > > And I don't know how to do it > > > I am afraid > > > I know you cannot help me either > > > And I write here anyway > > > I want to die. > > > > > > I feel that I have big issues > > > That I didn't deal with them > > > And they all come up > > > i am not going to run away to fantazy land > > > By wanting things I cannot have > > > I need to make peace with what I do have now > > > I am too worried and scared > > > And please don't ask me to do the work > > > It doesn't work for me > > > > > > I want to die > > > And maybe I should go to mental institute > > > To calm down > > > So I will not hurt myslef > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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