to work or not

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dear andy, I find this pretty fascinating.. of no choice

I think i want to quit my job and then again i dont

My husband said to give it two weeks.

How will i know what to do?

Im really confused i guess i will wait and see.

i wanted to work on days .. today i found out they just hired a new

person for days.. I guess i should quit.

not only because of that but i dont know if i really am that good at

helping people - due to the fact i dont listen and duplicate

I think i am a potential trouble source which is described in

scientology.

I'm glad to feel no responsibility but is that really true?

TO be totally honest i wish i could die.

no wonder so many people think i need drugs.

i wouldnt commit suicide , it just seems like the only solution to my

depression. Which i've had since grade school or maybe before.

I do the work and get no where - I will try to do it on someone else.

I still feel the problem is with me.

any advice is welcome but i feel pretty hopeless as usual

If i have no choice whats the use

whining debbie downer, r

-- In Loving-what-is , " Andy " wrote:

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> Dear ~ Some ruminations arising from this

> fascinating....dialogue.

>

> You wrote,

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> " Well, these posts don't sound peaceful to me. And, yes, that's just

> me. Because in the moment I don't see you as peaceful, I am not in

> peace. "

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> Yes, this seems like insightful teaching. The thing of it is,

> is...all this yearning for peace.....Hmmmmmmmm.....

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> Well.....what *I* see is that what we see, or don't see, " in the

> moment, " is not " up to us. " We have NO CONTROL over what we see or

> don't see (peace or disharmony, for example).

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> In a moment of disharmony, a thought may arise to question everything,

> we may be provoked to do The Work, and even if The Work is engaged, it

> may, or may not, dissolve the confusion. Ultimately, however, it

> seems to me, that what happens is simply not....up....to....us.

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> The sense here is that we are constructed constructs, constructed out

> of the illusion that we have some say in how things are. Rather, what

> we are IS how things are.

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> So....sometimes there is peace....sometimes there is not peace. And

> this is so for all the other states-of-being (joy, grief, humor,

> sadness, lust, boredom). Can it be Seen Clearly that we are not the

> Author of any of them, merely the recepients?

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> So, we 'do' The Work in a stressful moment, and,

> SOMETIMES........sometimes.....The Work...works! In such instances

> some may be led to conclude, " Ah....I did that! By doing The Work,

> 'I' undid the stress. " This only adds to the illusion that we have

> some " power " to effect change.

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> Just where this has been going for me, lately.

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