Guest guest Posted February 21, 2006 Report Share Posted February 21, 2006 Dearest , I support you in being you, and I love you very much! Your friend (whether you like it or not:)) > > I am saddened and disappointed in nne because I feel that she is not supportive or helpful to me on this forum in my attempts to live my integrity and apply the work to my life. > > So, M should be suportive of my attempts to live my integrity and apply the work to my life. Is that true? > > YES! That is why I am involved in this forum. I need support and encouragement here, I get enough other shit from life outside the forum to do the work on, here I want people to apply the principles of the work and encourage and support me and others in doing so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! > > Can I absolutely know that M should do this? Can I know it would be better for mypath if M was more supportive to me? Can I know more than God? > What is the reality? > > I cannot absolutely know that M should respond in a way that seems supportive to me. In reality she responds from her own place of integrity, regardless of how that looks to me. > > How do I react? I see her responses to me as challenges. I see her attempting to correct me and not others. I see her as thinking that she needs to rescue and defend. I see her as taking sides....again. I see her as giving LAA to her 'favourites' rather than using the forum to move and support the principles of the work. I feel tired. I defend myself. I try to clarify to show that I am trying to do the work here, not attack or criticise other members. I feel attacked by her, criticised by her. I see her as contributing to an 'us and them' mentallity between certain members. I feel discouraged and hopeless around the thought of trying to get support for doing the work and applying it in my life. > > What do I get for holding this belief? > > I get to play the role of victim. I get to defend myself (go to war...), I get to try to prove that I am right and she is wrong. I get to feel discouraged and weary. I get to find ways to debate rather than do the work on what is arising within me... > > Who would I b e without the thought? > > I would see nne's responses to me as her opinions. I would be more able to find the truth in what she is saying, if not now, or in what I write here, perhaps in my thoughts, and in my past reactions to others. I would feel supported and encouraged regardless of her words. I would feel the support and encouragement that is available from others, from everyone, from everything. I might be able to feel that this is happening for me instead of feeling that it is happening to me.... > > Turn around: > > nne should not be supportive to me ~ until she is. > > I should be supportive of me ~ yes. > > I should be supportive of Marrianne ~ yes, it feels kinder to me when I am supportive. > > nne IS supportive of me ~ this could be just as true, whether I see it or not. I can't feel this, and I can see that it may be just as true. > > > --------------------------------- > Find your next car at Yahoo! Canada Autos > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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