Re: i'm scared out of my mind....

[Guest guest]

Greg,

hang in there, my friend. You've been through a hell of a lot and

you'll get through this. I'll offer what help I can and it's this:

http://www.massagetherapy.com/find/index.php

Go to that URL, choose " Rolfing " , add your zip and submit. I don't

know if rolfing can fix what ails you, but I've just had it done and I

now believe in it. This is way outside the medical model--they

wouldn't take your insurance if you had it.

Hang in there. You have a lot of people wishing you well.

>

> oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

>

> i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night and it

has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c 1.,

thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job hunting, so i

don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't offer COBRA),

3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion (either c4/5

or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing rihgt now.

>

> ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability: 1.

having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what you

mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

thrown this in my path????

>

> i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he made

referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

>

> and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries =

my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

>

> i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

>

> Thanks Everybody ,

>

>

> Gregg.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

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>

[Guest guest]

So sorry to hear this -- of course I'll pray for you!

Don't forget to breathe -- this will work out. Don't panic....

You're going to be OK.

Love,

Kyla

>

> oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

>

> i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night and

it has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c

1., thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job hunting,

so i don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't offer

COBRA), 3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion

(either c4/5 or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing rihgt

now.

>

> ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability: 1.

having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what you

mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

thrown this in my path????

>

> i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he made

referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

>

> and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries =

my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

>

> i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

>

> Thanks Everybody ,

>

>

> Gregg.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help. Yahoo!

Small Business.

>

>

[Guest guest]

Greg,

I will definitely offer up my prayers and sufferings of this day for

you. I have a very bad cold and fever and went to the ER last night

b/c the ask a nurse thought it might be spinal menengitis. I stayed

there two hours and still didn't get in and told dh to just call 911

if I started getting worse or something. I didn't think I had it

though I've had a stiff neck and tingling in my fingers all day in my

left hand also. Its very freaky.

If your hand is getting better, then work with it and see what you

can do- meditating and slowing down and sending healing love to your

body to regenerate. The body may never be as good as it was in

childhood before you experienced this trauma, but your fada is not as

strong as you are. Love is ALWAYS stronger than hate- ALWAYS!!!!

Love yourself and love yourself enough to seek proper healthcare if

that's what you need to do.

As far as the finances go, break it down. Your psychiatrist bill has

nothing to do with this right now and when you start piling them on

top of each other as I am want to do, you will get the sense the

universe is punishing you and you see it as one big mess rather than

putting out each individual fire as it comes up. You grew up in

chaos, never knowing where the next abuse was coming. Its natural to

want to see a connection that doesn't exist w/these money issues or

any other issues, but it only leads to despair and feeling

overwhelmed. Take it one step and incident at a time. That's what my

T has told me time and time again.

Best wishes to you and I will definitely keep you in my prayers.

Kerrie

>

> oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

>

> i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night and

it has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c 1.,

thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job hunting, so i

don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't offer

COBRA), 3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion

(either c4/5 or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing rihgt

now.

>

> ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability: 1.

having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what you

mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

thrown this in my path????

>

> i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he made

referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

>

> and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries =

my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

>

> i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

>

> Thanks Everybody ,

>

>

> Gregg.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help. Yahoo!

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>

>

[Guest guest]

Greg and Kerrie,

I am keeping you both in thoughts and prayers right now, for you both

to get the health you need.

Greg, it must be extra scary to be in a new city, AND not to have the

health insurance right now. I'm very sorry you're going thru this.

Coincidentally I too have some long-term back injuries from my

rager-stepfather's abuse. I did not have the exact problem with my

hand, but I did have a problem with a nerve getting pinched so that my

left leg sometimes just gave out.

So, I know money is tight, but I will tell you what things helped the

most with the aftermath of my old back injuries, and hopefully you can

get some help for your back (and hand) too.

The MOST helpful thing was sports massage / deep tissue massage. I

mean, the kind where it's excruciating at the time and " it feels so

good when it stops " ... The first time I had it done, I was like " wtf,

i ***paid*** for thissss? " but the next day I had so much better range

of motion. I could not afford this very often, but every time I've

done it, it's been extremely helpful, within 24 hours.

I think the idea behind it is, when you have injuries, your muscles

tighten up in ways such that everything gets " pulled " out of the best

position. When you break up a lot of that with a good massage,

everything can go back to its rightful place, and other symptoms (like

my leg, or hopefully your hand) have a chance to settle down, once the

nerve isnt being pinched).

Note - there are plenty of ineffective massage therapists out there.

You gotta find a good one...

The second most helpful thing was chiropractic. Again, finding a

reputable one is important. Sometimes the less expensive ones are

" factories " where someone comes in, cracks your back in two seconds

and sends you on your way.

A smaller practice is usually better. Mine will put heat packs on my

back first, to loosen things up before he adjusts my back. Sometimes

he also does a bit of massage too (although no substitute for the full

massage).

Usually with an adjustment, I immediately feel that my posture is

better (ie, naturally, without trying). But usually it's not till the

next day that my back feels better.

The third most helpful thing had been stretches and exercise. There's

a ton of exercises you can do for back pain, usually involving

strengthening your abs, but...I think for it to be most effective,

it's good to have someone evaluate you (like a physical therapist) and

give you a set of exercises for your particular situation.

You might not be able to afford a ton of PT, but imo, even one

consultation visit, where they evaluate you and give you a home

exercise plan, would be good. For me, I think the stretching and

exercises are more for ongoing prevention. Well, maybe not total

prevention, but I think my back is much better than it used to be.

Partly because no one in my life beats and kicks me anymore haha, but

also because I have tried to take care of it as much as possible.

I know your situation is individual, and not the same, but I bet there

are still a lot of things you can do to help, so I wish you lots of

luck in getting the care you need. If it were me, and funds were very

limited, I would schedule an hour massage, then after a couple of

days, maybe three chiro appts (over a week, like, every other day),

and then a one-shot PT consult to get some exercises. Even that would

cost a few hundred altogether, so I know its not cheap. Even if you

could put it on a credit card, the amount of relief you might be able

to get, could be worth it...

Lots of luck,

Janie

[Guest guest]

Greg, this IS a BPD thing...by way of physical abuse...so you don't

have to apologize for posting it here I would think! I'm glad you

shared this with us. I've suffered chronic pain for most of my life,

extremely since 15 years ago. To say it affects my life is an

understatement. I've been down the road of needing to rely on

momster's financial assistance after daughter was born. There was a

high price for that, but I thought it was my only option. I'm very

glad it isn't now, or at least I've learned from experience not to

even consider dependency on her ever again.

Your post is timely and got me to respond ASAP. Because just this

morning I was just thinking/feeling about those long lasting wounds

from childhood. ITS SO UNFAIR THAT WE CHILDREN, WHO SUFFERED THINGS

WE WERE NOT RESPONSIBLE AND DIDN'T DESERVE CONTINUE TO PAY FOR IT SO

LONG IN LIFE!!! That it impacts us in relationships, income earning

ability, retirement planning, owning a home, yada yada yada. Ok,

that's whining and sniveling a bit, but f*ck if sometimes a

good " poor ol me " just WORKS. Its okay now in my book to let myself

whine sometimes. Bootstraps can flop around for awhile, I don't pull

them up as frequently when I let myself FEEL.

So Greg, I don't have answers but I got a lot of encouragement. You

already knew that. But you got our ears. Mine especially, because I

KNOW what its like. Hey, it could be worse! You could have a kid

relying on you for all their financial needs!!! But then, my

daughter has been the most healing event in my life So ya take

the challenges with the joys.

YOu WILL find a way to take care of yourself. You've been doing it

for so long already. And just think, the energy you're not spending

on nada frees up a LOT for you right now. Right? Right.

Be strong, take care of yourself, quit ruminating too much, and find

your answers. You're gonna make it bud.

e

>

> oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

>

> i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night and

it has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c

1., thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job hunting,

so i don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't offer

COBRA), 3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion

(either c4/5 or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing rihgt

now.

>

> ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability: 1.

having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what you

mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

thrown this in my path????

>

> i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he made

referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

>

> and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries =

my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

>

> i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

>

> Thanks Everybody ,

>

>

> Gregg.

>

[Guest guest]

Greg,

I hope you are beginning to feel a little better, in some small way,

if nothing else. I will say a prayer and light a candle for you,

sending lots of healing and soothing energy your way. Whatever is

ailing you, there is a solution and a way to improve it.

>

> oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

>

> i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night and

it has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c

1., thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job hunting,

so i don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't offer

COBRA), 3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion

(either c4/5 or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing rihgt

now.

>

> ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability: 1.

having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what you

mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

thrown this in my path????

>

> i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he made

referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

>

> and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries =

my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

>

> i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

>

> Thanks Everybody ,

>

>

> Gregg.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help. Yahoo!

Small Business.

>

>

[Guest guest]

Greg,

Well my neck has been better today and my fever has come down. I am

most certain that whatever I've got is viral vs bacterial just b/c my

kids were sick w/it last week too. Of course I get it later than

everyone else just b/c I'm the mom- the caretaker- who can't afford

to get sick while everyone else is sick. If it indeed is or was

menengitis, then I think it is running its course and not that big of

a deal (though I am staying inside and not exposing others to it).

Bacterial menegitis is the big thing to worry about as that one can

kill though the viral one can also kill, it has more of tendency to

just run its course if your healthy and above the age of 2. But even

my 18mos old is fine and he had this virus last week (though if it is

viral menegitis, some of their vaccines should've protected them

against it). I'm seriously not too concerned since the symptoms are

lessening and not getting worse. It was very freaky yesterday though

and I wouldn't doubt some of these brain membranes were inflamed from

the virus which I've never experienced. But today it is much better

(well not totally better as I've still had a mild fever all day

though my neck is a lot better). I've been reading up on it and so

I'm comfortable with staying in and not worrying about it though

again, I'm not going out and exposing others to it if indeed that's

what we've got (and the viral spinal menengitis is more common than

you might imagine now that I've read about it a lot- plenty of people

catch it and never really know what it is and then it goes away).

Thanks for your concern. How is your hand doing today? Have been

praying for you;)

Kerrie

> >

> > oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

> >

> > i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night and

> it has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c

1.,

> thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job hunting, so

i

> don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't offer

> COBRA), 3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion

> (either c4/5 or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing rihgt

> now.

> >

> > ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability: 1.

> having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what you

> mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

> thrown this in my path????

> >

> > i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he made

> referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

> subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

> >

> > and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries =

> my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

> >

> > i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

> pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

> >

> > Thanks Everybody ,

> >

> >

> > Gregg.

> >

> >

> > ---------------------------------

> > Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help.

Yahoo!

> Small Business.

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Oh my -- was away from the computer and totally missed this post yesterday.

Just wanted to say my thoughts and prayers are with you this morning -- and I

KNOW you're going to work through this and do what you need to take loving care

of yourself!

Please keep us all posted!

Shana

i'm scared out of my mind....

To: wtoadultchildren1

> oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

>

> i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night

> and it has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking

> scared b/c 1., thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and

> was job hunting, so i don't have health insurance (stupid

> college ins. doesn't offer COBRA), 3., this is probably going to

> lead to another neck fusion (either c4/5 or c6/7 or both). i'm

> hunting and picking typing rihgt now.

>

> ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability:

> 1. having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know

> what you mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow

> why god has thrown this in my path????

>

> i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he

> made referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then

> $186 subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

>

>

> and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries

> = my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old

> injuries.

>

> i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

> pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

>

> Thanks Everybody ,

>

>

> Gregg.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help.

> Yahoo! Small Business.

>

>

[Guest guest]

Greg,

I hope you are feeling some better, or at least will soon... And I

totally agree about America's health care system. Few people are able

to afford private insurance--right now, the plan at my DH's work (and

believe me, it's the absolute cheapest HMO around) would cost our

family $1200 a month if we bought it ourselves. And as you also

mentioned, the mental health benefits suck.

If someone is lucky enough to have the option of health insurance

benefits at work, then he or she is condemned to be tied to a job with

a big employer who provides the benefits and sets the rules.

How many of us would choose other work, or choose working for

ourselves, if the US were like other industrialized nations (Canada,

Britain, most of Europe) and provided health care to all?

In our family, my husband and I would have liked to both work

part-time after we had kids, so we could both keep up our " careers "

and both give our kids plenty of time and attention. But then we would

have had this huge health care expense (no benefits for part timers)

that would have made the whole thing financially impossible.

So we got shoe-horned into this " conventional " arrangement where he

works full time (and then some), and I stay at home. I miss the

dignity and interest of having a job (and having paid employment). I

think he misses spending more time with the kids, because he ends up

working so hard--all the money-earning falls on him. It's

Saturday--supposed to be his day off...but right now he's telling me

all the work he needs to get done today.

Yes, the health care system in this country really sucks. Even though

we're some of the lucky ones in this country, the way in which health

care is " distributed " in the U.S. has affected our family in

significant ways.

But I digress! I do hope you are feeling some better this morning

(when I had pinched-nerve problems, even during bad times they would

be better or worse from one day to the next, so sometimes I got a

little relief just at random, with no treatment). Or hopefully, maybe

you feel better even if you just have an immediate plan for how you

are going to handle this.

Best wishes, and good thoughts!

Janie

[Guest guest]

Gregg,

I've been a day away from the board and just saw your posting. I will

add you to my prayers and positive thoughts and surround you in my

mind with a white healing light.

May comfort and calm find you. May an easy path be shown to you. My

your self love guide others to match that love.

All the best,

erica

P.S. This too shall pass.

>

> oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

>

> i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night and it

has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c 1.,

thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job hunting, so i

don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't offer COBRA),

3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion (either c4/5

or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing rihgt now.

>

> ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability: 1.

having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what you

mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

thrown this in my path????

>

> i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he made

referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

>

> and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries =

my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

>

> i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

>

> Thanks Everybody ,

>

>

> Gregg.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help. Yahoo!

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>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi, Greg,

Those TENS are good! I'm glad you have one. And the heat and cold can

be very helpful...

How do you tolerate NSAIDs (advil or aleve and such?) While those

never provided me much relief from the acute pain, their

anti-inflammatory properties sometimes helped things to " settle down "

so that the nerve was pinched less, so that led indirectly to less

pain, if I took it for a day or two.

You probably know this already... Tylenol doesn't have the

anti-inflammatory properties, but aspirin, ibuprofen (advil/motrin),

naproxyn (aleve, naprosyn) all do...

I'm glad you'll be able to be seen next week, keep us posted!

Janie

[Guest guest]

Greg, I'm sorry you are going through this right now. I hope that

you'll keep us all posted--I think it's a BP issue, and besides, we

might be KO's but we are also whole people. I think you're right to

post on this and get support. By the way, I know being uninsured

sucks, but I hope that you will do what it takes and spend the money

you need to to protect your long term health! Having been there

before, I know you probably feel you can't afford it, but your spinal

cord is worth it.

Trish

>

> oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

>

> i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night and it

has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c 1.,

thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job hunting, so i

don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't offer COBRA),

3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion (either c4/5

or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing rihgt now.

>

> ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability: 1.

having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what you

mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

thrown this in my path????

>

> i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he made

referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

>

> and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries =

my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

>

> i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

>

> Thanks Everybody ,

>

>

> Gregg.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help. Yahoo!

Small Business.

>

>

[Guest guest]

Gregg,

That's aweful what has happened to you, I'm concerned about you. Let

me know how everything goes, k.

> >

> > oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

> >

> > i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night and it

> has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c 1.,

> thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job hunting, so i

> don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't offer COBRA),

> 3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion (either c4/5

> or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing rihgt now.

> >

> > ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability: 1.

> having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what you

> mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

> thrown this in my path????

> >

> > i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he made

> referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

> subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

> >

> > and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries =

> my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

> >

> > i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

> pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

> >

> > Thanks Everybody ,

> >

> >

> > Gregg.

> >

> >

> > ---------------------------------

> > Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help. Yahoo!

> Small Business.

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Greg, keep taking care of yourself!

Trish

> >

> > oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

> >

> > i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night and it

> has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c 1.,

> thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job hunting, so i

> don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't offer COBRA),

> 3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion (either c4/5

> or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing rihgt now.

> >

> > ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability: 1.

> having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what you

> mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

> thrown this in my path????

> >

> > i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he made

> referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

> subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

> >

> > and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries =

> my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

> >

> > i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

> pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

> >

> > Thanks Everybody ,

> >

> >

> > Gregg.

> >

> >

> > ---------------------------------

> > Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help. Yahoo!

> Small Business.

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Greg, I am saying a prayer for you right now I will pass this on to

Dh and grandma to they alwya pray. Just something I heard before

when I was having a hard time... " If God brings us to it he will

bring us through it. " Lots of prayers and love,Lizzy

>

> oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

>

> i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night and

it has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c

1., thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job hunting,

so i don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't offer

COBRA), 3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion

(either c4/5 or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing rihgt

now.

>

> ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability: 1.

having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what you

mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

thrown this in my path????

>

> i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he made

referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

>

> and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries =

my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

>

> i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

>

> Thanks Everybody ,

>

>

> Gregg.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help. Yahoo!

Small Business.

>

>

[Guest guest]

I'm also praying, Greg....

Almost four weeks NC. Nada just sent three letters to my son, which

I threw away. Anybody else have Nada try to undercut the NC?

> >

> > oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

> >

> > i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night

and

> it has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared b/c

> 1., thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job

hunting,

> so i don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't

offer

> COBRA), 3., this is probably going to lead to another neck fusion

> (either c4/5 or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing

rihgt

> now.

> >

> > ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability:

1.

> having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what

you

> mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god has

> thrown this in my path????

> >

> > i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he

made

> referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

> subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

> >

> > and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back injuries

=

> my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old injuries.

> >

> > i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening and

> pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

> >

> > Thanks Everybody ,

> >

> >

> > Gregg.

> >

> >

> > ---------------------------------

> > Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help.

Yahoo!

> Small Business.

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Yes -- I think my nada's panicking that she may be losing her grip

on me. The classic " Silent Treatment " isn't working. Even her

having recent surgery isn't bringing me scampering back to her

suffering side.

So, she has resorted to manipulating my fada into sending me

messages.

Heaven forbid she handles it herself.

This No Contact must shake them to the core! If they can't control

us, it rocks their world!

-Kyla

> > >

> > > oh, god, do i need your guy's prayers - PLEASE!

> > >

> > > i have lost the use of my left hand. it started last night

> and

> > it has gotten a little bit better but i'm so freaking scared

b/c

> > 1., thisis happening and 2., i just moved here and was job

> hunting,

> > so i don't have health insurance (stupid college ins. doesn't

> offer

> > COBRA), 3., this is probably going to lead to another neck

fusion

> > (either c4/5 or c6/7 or both). i'm hunting and picking typing

> rihgt

> > now.

> > >

> > > ata, those two things that you said gave you such stability:

> 1.

> > having a dh and 2. having health insurance..........i know what

> you

> > mean aadn i feel so unstable right now. i don'tkn ow why god

has

> > thrown this in my path????

> > >

> > > i put a call into this new doc that i met on tuesday adn he

> made

> > referrals out to a psychiatrist $325 the 1st visit and then $186

> > subseqwunt. i haven't heard back ferom the pain clinic yet.

> > >

> > > and what really pisses me off is the cause of my back

injuries

> =

> > my dad and his bat, as the mri shows these are all old

injuries.

> > >

> > > i know that this isn't bpd stuff, but thanks for listening

and

> > pray for a cost effecctive postive outcome.

> > >

> > > Thanks Everybody ,

> > >

> > >

> > > Gregg.

> > >

> > >

> > > ---------------------------------

> > > Get your own web address for just $1.99/1st yr. We'll help.

> Yahoo!

> > Small Business.

> > >

> > >