My Introduction

[Guest guest]

I am the D of a BP mom. Until I was about 13, I thought she was a perfect mom.

We had a perfect family and I perfectly behaved. I realize now she trained me

to make her looked good.

When I was 14 she tried to kill herself. She's been in therapy for depression,

disassociative disorder and BPD was mentioned. She also has " other

personalities " that come out from time to time - especially when things aren't

going her way. Personally, I don't buy it.

Recently I told her I had to limit my contact with her because I was an adult

with my own life. My H and I live about 2.5 hours away, but she still wants us

to visit several times a month and wants to talk on the phone at least every

other day for hours. During those calls, she repeats how much she misses me,

how lonely she is, how we should move closer. Then she will harp on

grandchildren (in overt and passive ways). I'm super scared of her because

during the confrontation she told me she will never be her own " whole " person

and she wanted to BE ME. Creepy. Recently she referred to me at the b**ch that

made her and my father parents again. She also abuses prescription medication

and she called her most recent overdose as " the time she took her pills to close

together " .

My bro is already very LC with her, just about NC.

I miss the mom I thought I had, but now that I started therapy I'm beginning to

realize what I was told was right, normal and good was really far from it.

Emotionally I'm having problems dealing with that. I also hate that I wish she

wasn't around anymore. If she was gone, I'm not sure I would even miss her and

my life would be a lot easier. That's a terrible thing to say, I know, but it's

how I feel. Thanks for reading and I hope to learn a lot from all of you!