Guest guest Posted October 22, 2004 Report Share Posted October 22, 2004 > > HI GUys > > I wanted to pick your brains a bit. I still have all my physical > symtoms, the feet the sickness and so on. > > But for a few days, I have felt incredibly low and so alone. I cant > stop crying and I cant seem to find pleasure in anything. > > I wondered if any one has any practical solutions? > > Since being on the AD, I have never felt this and never felt it > before. > > I guess all my emotions are coming back. > > > I need help to find a point to living, some kind of purpose. > > These feelings are really scaring me because they are the same as > when I came off of seroxat. > > Any words would be gratefully appreciated right now........... > > I hope everyone is doing OK? > > Lots of love to you all > > > Emotions coming back are a good thing, what you do with them is another. Try not to let negativity reign supreme. Remember that positive thoughts bring positivity, and so on. You are doing the right thing!!Purpose? Children, grandchildren, significant other, pet, friend, yourself!! You need you, as well as all the others I mentioned. Also, try to lean on your higher power, who ever that may be. Ask for intervention, because the situation is tough right now. And then believe it will come. Faith? Yes, it's hard. But if you can muster some up even the size of a mustard seed, then that'll be enough for now. I'll share some of my faith with you. Missy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 23, 2004 Report Share Posted October 23, 2004 Hiya shelley Just tried to IM you but yo are offline... Oh it does sound like you are going through it. Trust , she really does know her stuff. And yes I know the supplements are expensive but you are worth it is the bottom line! You could conceiveably be spending that money on other stuff like clubs and booze and cigarettes and clothes if you were well and up and about, a lot of people your age do. You simply cannot put a price on your health girl. Can your parents perhaps help you out here? Because it will help you and help you get through this quicker. I am still on Prozac liquid so I have all this to come when I stop completely. I stopped short at 4ml a few months ago on my stupid doctor's advice and went into the horrors with severe suidical depression. Bloody fool. So advised me to get back on at 2 ml and all the horribleness was gone in 4 and a half hours. So much for original symptoms recurring as my GP was suggesting. I did not have depression in the first place ! I am very very very wary now of reductions, did one two weeks ago which sent me into a spin for 10 days, very unpleasant but no depression thankfully. I am on 6.5 of a ml now, it is amazing how that tiny amount ca have such an effect but I have been warned that the lower I go the worse it gets and that maybe I might have a bit of a hard time when I stop completely. I did get the numbness and tingling in my feet and hands for about one or two months and then it passed. The worst thing that seems to happen now when I reduce is sleep disruption, which in and of itself doesn;t sound too bad, but I am already very ill from the hepatitis so it exacerbates all my symptoms ie exhaustion, brain-fog, sleep problems. I get this horrendous twitching in the legs and arms when I relax my body and it is particuarly bad at night in bed. I think it is called restless legs syndrome.... Grrr. You would not wish it on your worst enemy, would you? How do you get on with your folks ? How supportive are they? Are they at home during the day if you need help? Who looks after you is what I am wondering? I would come and visit if I could, you know I would, but I am here just the same even if you cannot see me. Love for now Mo xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 23, 2004 Report Share Posted October 23, 2004 Hiya Yes it makes sense. Are you thinking of doing a degree or have you already done one? what subject? This is my personal experience and opinion - wait a minute, email coming from .... I dont know if this one I am replying to was meant for me - am I Missy?????????????????? If so, well here I am. I have just tried again to IM you and I keepo getting that you are signed off. Did you get my previous meail asking about your parents etc.? What I was about to say was that my experience has been that the illness, in my case HCV, was a way of life forcing me to a halt and so putting me in a position to heal from other issues that preceded tghe HCV, my emotional health that is. I ran away from myself and my fears my whole like, got into addictions of all sorts still addicted to TV a bit, lol, but you get the point, always on the run from myself, workaholic etc. and then I became ill and I could ot run and it go so very bad that I found myself praying to God for help, something I had not done since I was a child, it was all I had left... And then life statred to turn round slowly, very slowly but surely and I can hardly recognise the person I was then, I have so much in spirituality. I am not a religious person, I had enough of that growing up in Catholic Ireland in the 50s. Not for me. But I have found a direction connection and deeper understanding of my personal God. It has been a hard but how else could I be captured and made to listen.... Does any of this resonate with you. You may be like me a bit, a healer whose time has come. And in order to heal we need to heal first. What do you think. Am I making sense? Mo x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 23, 2004 Report Share Posted October 23, 2004 Hi Mo SOrry I have been quiet, I feel so ill. I stupidly thought that stopping the drugs would be the hard bit. 2 months after and I am struggling. I cannot seem to find a reason for life, I feel like I need to find some purpose to make it worth living. Does that make sense? I got a lovely Email from , saying what I needed to take, but there are so many supplements, I cannot afford them all and I worry about taking so much. I wish you lived a bit nearer then you could come over. How long have you been off the drugs for? Can you get on messenger? If you have some money I think a good book to get is Eileen Geeson, Poodle book, you can get it from Amazon, I really think this would be the best doggie for you. When I get my scanner set up I shall Email you some piccies of normal looking poodles!!! I wish just one symtom would go, the feet, the aches, the heart , the sickness, just something? I'm sorry this is a selfish email, please tell me how you are? I miss you and am sorry I havent emailed for a few days. Sending you loads of hugs Re: feeling so lonely darling Don't be lonely. I was thinking of you only today and wondering why I had not heard from you for a while. We are all here for each other, spread out somewhat perhaps but a community nonetheless and we all understand what you are going through. I have hit that kind of depression in withdraal and I know how horrendous it can be. BUT it WILL pass. Don't get depressed, get angry! Angry at the bastards who caused you this problem. Way to go... The point to living when you are going through it? The point is to get well, to get weller than you have ever been, to reach your full potential, to shine, to allow your innermost beauty out to play, to use this experience to learn about yourself and your inner strength and resources. And to then build on that strength as you progress, little by little, more and more each day towards your goal. To become strong at the broken places... Mo xTo subscribe to the off-topic list go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/socialWandR/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 23, 2004 Report Share Posted October 23, 2004 Jeanette has recently got a Shitzu - perfect. Small, doesn't need to be walked and fantastic nature and company. Also gets loadsa attention when out, so lots of chatting!! (Jeanettes other arf.) Re: feeling so lonely darling Don't be lonely. I was thinking of you only today and wondering why I had not heard from you for a while. We are all here for each other, spread out somewhat perhaps but a community nonetheless and we all understand what you are going through. I have hit that kind of depression in withdraal and I know how horrendous it can be. BUT it WILL pass. Don't get depressed, get angry! Angry at the bastards who caused you this problem. Way to go... The point to living when you are going through it? The point is to get well, to get weller than you have ever been, to reach your full potential, to shine, to allow your innermost beauty out to play, to use this experience to learn about yourself and your inner strength and resources. And to then build on that strength as you progress, little by little, more and more each day towards your goal. To become strong at the broken places... Mo xTo subscribe to the off-topic list go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/socialWandR/ To subscribe to the off-topic list go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/socialWandR/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 23, 2004 Report Share Posted October 23, 2004 Hi Missy THanks for your Email, its helps to know everyone is out there and so understanding. I have a lot of faith in GOd, it is just at the moment I need to find some purpose to life, a reason to make it worthwhile. Like if you have children your purpose in life, is to bring them up well so they can do good on earth after you have gone, and that is such an important purpose. But I don’t have that. I feel I need to find something, so that I can make a difference, make things slightly better on earth before I move on. I need something more than just like getting a degree , then getting a job. Does this make sense? How are you doing? Are you off the drugs to? THankyou so much for your support Love Re: feeling so lonely > > HI GUys> > I wanted to pick your brains a bit. I still have all my physical > symtoms, the feet the sickness and so on.> > But for a few days, I have felt incredibly low and so alone. I cant > stop crying and I cant seem to find pleasure in anything.> > I wondered if any one has any practical solutions?> > Since being on the AD, I have never felt this and never felt it > before.> > I guess all my emotions are coming back.> > > I need help to find a point to living, some kind of purpose.> > These feelings are really scaring me because they are the same as > when I came off of seroxat.> > Any words would be gratefully appreciated right now...........> > I hope everyone is doing OK?> > Lots of love to you all> > > Emotions coming back are a good thing, what you do with them is another. Try not to let negativity reign supreme. Remember that positive thoughts bring positivity, and so on. You are doing the right thing!!Purpose? Children, grandchildren, significant other, pet, friend, yourself!! You need you, as well as all the others I mentioned. Also, try to lean on your higher power, who ever that may be. Ask for intervention, because the situation is tough right now. And then believe it will come. Faith? Yes, it's hard. But if you can muster some up even the size of a mustard seed, then that'll be enough for now. I'll share some of my faith with you. MissyTo subscribe to the off-topic list go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/socialWandR/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 23, 2004 Report Share Posted October 23, 2004 When said this, " Like if you have children your purpose in life, is to bring them up well so they can do good on earth after you have gone, and that is such an important purpose. But I don't have that. " it got me to thinking about life's purpose. I hope those of you who have children don't take offense, but I think that in order for life to have meaning, it has to be about more than what you can do for someone else. Of course, that is an important part of each person's existence, but to think that is your only purpose in life is to put a lot of responsibility for your own well-being onto someone else. It also ultimately makes each person's existence important only in that the person creates another person. I think the key to happiness is inside yourself rather than in others. Finding what is good in you, feeling connected to others because of a strong sense of yourself, and doing what you can to achieve your full potential all go a long way towards being happy. I think 's point about missing oneself is an excellent one. With these drugs, we become disconnected from our true selves. At some point in one's life, this disconnectedness may not be a bad thing depending on the situation. But to have it go on indefinitely is not healthy and obscures the authenticity of experience and self. Dawn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2004 Report Share Posted October 24, 2004 Dear , You said: <<SOrry I have been quiet, I feel so ill. I stupidly thought that stopping the drugs would be the hard bit. 2 months after and I am struggling. I cannot seem to find a reason for life, I feel like I need to find some purpose to make it worth living. Does that make sense?>> ** Though you msy not be able to find a reason for life right now it is important for you to know that you wouldn't be here if there was no reason fro your life. Very few people your age have found their particular reason for living. But the Universe is not wasteful. You would not be here if there was not a use for you here. Trust this. Regards, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2004 Report Share Posted October 24, 2004 Dear , You said: <<I have a lot of faith in GOd, it is just at the moment I need to find some purpose to life, a reason to make it worthwhile. Like if you have children your purpose in life, is to bring them up well so they can do good on earth after you have gone, and that is such an important purpose. But I don't have that. I feel I need to find something, so that I can make a difference, make things slightly better on earth before I move on. I need something more than just like getting a degree , then getting a job. Does this make sense?>> ** That you already know this tells me that when you are ready to receive your purpose you will be trusted with a very important role in the evolution of the Earth. Most people your age don't think this way at all. Your purpose will become clear to you when you have most of what you need to fulfill it. That is what your job is right now. You don't need to know anything to accomplish this--the Universe will give you cues. You'll find the same theme or two weaving through your life in various ways. Right now you're an Earth student. Some day, you will be ready to teach. Regards, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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