A sign?

[Guest guest]

I know this is probably going to sound a bit cheesy but as most of you know

I've been MAJOR STRESSED and a big chicken about starting a new life. So much

so I almost just gave in and decided to stay married because of my fears and

lack of confidence in myself and my abilities. The past few days I have spent a

lot of time in prayer and just asking for guidance. So last night I tossed

and turned couldnt sleep.....finally did and had a dream about what life would

be like out of this situation. And I woke up smiling and very much at peace

and knew I was making the right decision. Does that sound totally crazy?? Or

was it really the guidance I was asking for. I'm sure I'm still going to have

those moments of total panic show their ugly heads every once in awhile. My

husband also sealed the deal for me in my head. Get this.... we are talking

about how and why things arent working for us. He completely blames the surgery.

I have absolutely no sex drive and dont want it or to be touched. So

yesterday he says to me. I tell you what I'm going to be so pissed in two years

if

you meet someone and make him happy. It wont be fair that he gets the skinny you

and didnt have to go through any of the hard times when I was the one who

took care of you and I was the one who loved you while you were fat. What the

!@#$% is that???? I just dont get him!!! Is that suppose to make me want to

stay? Oh well what can ya do? So I'm definately looking forward to 2005!!!

Keep your fingers crossed for me too, 1 more pound until I reach the Century

Club!!! Woohoo!!

Have a good one.

Chelle

355/256/140

[Guest guest]

i have been reading on the grads board... had this inspiration to go

back to the beginning 80 thousand messages and read from number ONE!

and YES, NO sex drive is something that is evidently VERY COMMON and

something you might consider talking to your OBGYN about as there

are some hormone shots or something that many tried succesfully in

98-99.... it does REPEAT DOES get better when your weight

stabelizes according to stuff i have read... plus making sure your

vites and minerals ( aka LABS are all good also helps)

so he could be a tad bit right blaming surgery on lack of drive but

that is only temporary... as for him being an asshole... well i

doubt there is much hope....

sigh... i wish you well and peace of mind you dont deserve that kind

of HATEFUL crud

LOVE N HUGS

~peach~

> I have absolutely no sex drive and dont want it or to be touched.

So

> yesterday he says to me. I tell you what I'm going to be so pissed

in two years if

> you meet someone and make him happy. It wont be fair that he gets

the skinny you

> and didnt have to go through any of the hard times when I was the

one who

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