Guest guest Posted October 21, 2004 Report Share Posted October 21, 2004 darling Don't be lonely. I was thinking of you only today and wondering why I had not heard from you for a while. We are all here for each other, spread out somewhat perhaps but a community nonetheless and we all understand what you are going through. I have hit that kind of depression in withdraal and I know how horrendous it can be. BUT it WILL pass. Don't get depressed, get angry! Angry at the bastards who caused you this problem. Way to go... The point to living when you are going through it? The point is to get well, to get weller than you have ever been, to reach your full potential, to shine, to allow your innermost beauty out to play, to use this experience to learn about yourself and your inner strength and resources. And to then build on that strength as you progress, little by little, more and more each day towards your goal. To become strong at the broken places... Mo x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 21, 2004 Report Share Posted October 21, 2004 I'm sorry you are feeling so down. One thing that helped me a lot when I was depressed was to keep a " pleasure diary. " My therapist asked me to come up with a list of at least a dozen things I liked to do and then keep a journal. I was to rate each day from 1 (lowest of the low) to 10 (fantastic) and describe what made me feel that way. I was also told that I had to do at least one pleasurable activity each day even if I didn't feel like it or didn't think it would help. I was quite surprised at how well it worked. Over the course of a few weeks, I went from having 2-4 ratings up to the 6 range. By a few months later, I started to have some 7-8 days. By the time I was ready to end therapy a year later, I had some 9 ratings and even a 10 a couple of times. All the supplements that I know of designed to raise mood do so in methods somewhat similar to antidepressants, so you might not want to use them. They're all the ones I've seen discussed here: St. 's Wort, 5-HTP, and Sam-E. I hope that at least some of this helps and that you get to feeling better soon. Dawn At 09:30 PM 10/21/2004 +0000, you wrote: HI GUys I wanted to pick your brains a bit. I still have all my physical symtoms, the feet the sickness and so on. But for a few days, I have felt incredibly low and so alone. I cant stop crying and I cant seem to find pleasure in anything. I wondered if any one has any practical solutions? Since being on the AD, I have never felt this and never felt it before. I guess all my emotions are coming back. I need help to find a point to living, some kind of purpose. These feelings are really scaring me because they are the same as when I came off of seroxat. Any words would be gratefully appreciated right now........... I hope everyone is doing OK? Lots of love to you all To subscribe to the off-topic list go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/socialWandR/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 21, 2004 Report Share Posted October 21, 2004 Hi I am sorry you are feeling so low. What works for me is cardiovascular exercise, (I take 2 or 3 mile jogs) but if your feet hurt, you certainly cannot walk or run. Do you have access to a stationary bike? Anything that can get you "moving" and maybe some fresh air. Remember Duke University's study - exercise worked better for depression than Zoloft! I can't recommend any pill or supplement to take as I have been blessed and have not, as yet, needed to take any pills. (I joined this group to get my daughter off of SSRI's) Hang in there - you will get a lot of support and suggestions from this group and hopefully this tough time will quickly pass. Stay informed and stay healthy. Patti (le's mom) > >Reply-To: Withdrawal_and_Recovery >To: Withdrawal_and_Recovery >Subject: feeling so lonely >Date: Thu, 21 Oct 2004 21:30:20 -0000 > > >HI GUys > >I wanted to pick your brains a bit. I still have all my physical >symtoms, the feet the sickness and so on. > >But for a few days, I have felt incredibly low and so alone. I cant >stop crying and I cant seem to find pleasure in anything. > >I wondered if any one has any practical solutions? > >Since being on the AD, I have never felt this and never felt it >before. > >I guess all my emotions are coming back. > > >I need help to find a point to living, some kind of purpose. > >These feelings are really scaring me because they are the same as >when I came off of seroxat. > >Any words would be gratefully appreciated right now........... > >I hope everyone is doing OK? > >Lots of love to you all > > > > > > Rock, jazz, country, soul more. Find the music you love on MSN Music! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2004 Report Share Posted October 24, 2004 Thankyou so much for your words . I am searching. I am supposed to be starting another course in November, leading eventually to a degree in business, but I am not sure it is what I need to do. Maybe I should just try to carry on and finish it? I just don't know. I have been thinking a lot today, probably as I havent been able to get out of bed until now! Trying to think of things, careers or work that would make a difference and be significant. I am afraid I didn't come up with much, I thought of teaching, I thought of different charity work, I thought of working with animals, I thought back to when I really wanted to do music therapy..............but as yet none of it seemed quite the right path. I asked God again to show me the way and to guide me, but as you say , I maybe need to be patient and get stronger and better before He can show me. To all of you out there, whereever you all live, you are all the strongest group of people I know and your compassion and love that you all continue to show everyone in this group overwhelms me, these drugs may have caused us all so much hell, but I feel blessed to have you all here, to know you all and to be able to feel your love. I thankyou all from the bottom of my heart. Keep going my friends Love Re: Re: feeling so lonely Dear , You said:<<I have a lot of faith in GOd, it is just at the moment I need to find somepurpose to life, a reason to make it worthwhile.Like if you have children your purpose in life, is to bring them up well sothey can do good on earth after you have gone, and that is such an importantpurpose. But I don't have that. I feel I need to find something, so that Ican make a difference, make things slightly better on earth before I moveon. I need something more than just like getting a degree , then getting ajob.Does this make sense?>> ** That you already know this tells me that when you are ready toreceive your purpose you will be trusted with a very important role in theevolution of the Earth. Most people your age don't think this way at all. Your purpose will become clear to you when you have most of what you needto fulfill it. That is what your job is right now. You don't need to knowanything to accomplish this--the Universe will give you cues. You'll findthe same theme or two weaving through your life in various ways. Right nowyou're an Earth student. Some day, you will be ready to teach.Regards,To subscribe to the off-topic list go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/socialWandR/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2004 Report Share Posted October 24, 2004 Hi Mo Yes you are right , I should not and cannot put a price on my health. No, one wouldn't wish this on your worst enemy, or though I sometimes think Alistar Bentbum could do with feeling as we do. But let God judge him. Mo, I am very lucky I have the best Mum in the world ( I guess everyone says that!), she is so great. She gave up her job to care for me, she is here for me all the time. When I get really bad she is so strong and reminds me of what and you guys have all said. She is my rock. My Dad finds it hard to see me so ill, he is not very good with emotions, but then someone has to go out and work!! It is tough, tough on my whole family. My brothers don't live that close and my Mum misses not being able to go and see them. I live in a tiny village and the neighbours are great, I know that if Mum is not here I can always call on them and they would come over. I feel guilty for telling you all my horrid symtoms now, please don't be afraid that you will get all that I have. One day I will tell you how slowly had me reducing, I was so frightened after the horror of my seroxat withdrawals! I am sorry I must have just missed you on messenger, but maybe we could set a time and then log on, J and Tuesday are both on messenger to. So what do you think about looking further into getting a poodle? had poodles I believe. By the way, the message that was to Missy, was for !!!! OK, I am going to have to go and rest a bit. One day we can meet? Do you have people around to care for you on bad days? When I get the connection back on my PC I will send you more pics of Tobo and some of where I live, it is beautiful here. You take care now. Many Hugs coming your way Love and Tobo Re: feeling so lonely Hiya shelley Just tried to IM you but yo are offline... Oh it does sound like you are going through it. Trust , she really does know her stuff. And yes I know the supplements are expensive but you are worth it is the bottom line! You could conceiveably be spending that money on other stuff like clubs and booze and cigarettes and clothes if you were well and up and about, a lot of people your age do. You simply cannot put a price on your health girl. Can your parents perhaps help you out here? Because it will help you and help you get through this quicker. I am still on Prozac liquid so I have all this to come when I stop completely. I stopped short at 4ml a few months ago on my stupid doctor's advice and went into the horrors with severe suidical depression. Bloody fool. So advised me to get back on at 2 ml and all the horribleness was gone in 4 and a half hours. So much for original symptoms recurring as my GP was suggesting. I did not have depression in the first place ! I am very very very wary now of reductions, did one two weeks ago which sent me into a spin for 10 days, very unpleasant but no depression thankfully. I am on 6.5 of a ml now, it is amazing how that tiny amount ca have such an effect but I have been warned that the lower I go the worse it gets and that maybe I might have a bit of a hard time when I stop completely. I did get the numbness and tingling in my feet and hands for about one or two months and then it passed. The worst thing that seems to happen now when I reduce is sleep disruption, which in and of itself doesn;t sound too bad, but I am already very ill from the hepatitis so it exacerbates all my symptoms ie exhaustion, brain-fog, sleep problems. I get this horrendous twitching in the legs and arms when I relax my body and it is particuarly bad at night in bed. I think it is called restless legs syndrome.... Grrr. You would not wish it on your worst enemy, would you? How do you get on with your folks ? How supportive are they? Are they at home during the day if you need help? Who looks after you is what I am wondering? I would come and visit if I could, you know I would, but I am here just the same even if you cannot see me. Love for now Mo xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxTo subscribe to the off-topic list go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/socialWandR/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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