Re: Re: withdrawl

July 15, 2008

hi tommy my pharmacist did t same thang for me last week i called in a refeal

win i got there to pick it up he said i did not have no refeals left that he

faxed it to my doc so he could refeal it isaid i was compleatly out he sead he

would give me 20 untill i got my script he would deduct 20 wen he refealed it if

he had not did that i would have been up shit with out a paddle my drugest saved

my ass......donnie KY

Re: withdrawl

Tommie,

I was taking a LOT more of my pain meds over the last few days. I get a 90 day

supply of the stupid ultracet from my insurance company, so it is VERY easy to

just take them because I'm in pain, even though they're not really helping. I

think part of me thinks if I take enough of them, it will help. The

rheumatologist said that if the salsalate he gave me (essentially aspirin), plus

the ultracet wasn't enough, he would have to give me injections in my shoulder.

Why can't I just get something a little stronger that will work?????

I would have dealt with the weight gain...I knew going in that was a side effect

of the zyprexa and I was willing to just deal with gaining the weight. I

couldn't take the abdominal discomfort, pain and bloating. That's what made me

go off of it. I have lost about 5 pounds of what I think is water weight since I

did, but have a tough 10-15 pounds to get off that I gained over three weeks of

being on it. What a nightmare. I'm glad I didn't take it longer! But I am sorry

that I'm feeling so much pain right now! LOL I wonder if the zyprexa was helping

with the pain in my back? I can't figure out which is worse, but I think it was

the abdominal stuff that was worse. Like I said, the lesser of two evils.

Chelle

July 16, 2008

Chelle,

Chiropractors aren't allowed to prescribe meds. They aren't licensed to. Have

you gone to a pain management specialist? I swear by them, although some of them

can still be stingy, at least they will give you something that does work. You

should really try to find one in your area or change docs if you are using one

now.

Hugs

~Tommie~

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Don't waste energy second-guessing what you're missing or

what can go awry. If you put enough energy into doubt,

something will undoubtedly go wrong.

Instead, focus on the positive possibilities with a hopeful attitude.

Re: withdrawl

Thanks Tommie. The ultracet is a huge bummer. I ran out of the last of my

darvocet earlier this month and no one is refilling it for me. They just don't

seem to think I'm in that much pain. The only medical person who understands

that it hurts is my chiropractor and she's not prescribing anything....

I don't like taking the narcotics, but sometimes it gets to a point where I

want to scream (like at the moment). My son's been in driver's ed this week and

last week, and I have to get up and get him there by 8:30, and then go back and

get him at 12:30 every day. Thank God that ends on Friday. But he starts all day

band camp on the 7th of August. I'm hoping I can talk my husband into taking him

to that, since he works from home and has to get up anyways, and the school's

only five minutes away. That way I don't have to force myself out of bed every

morning until school starts at the end of August. That first thing in the

morning thing is just killing me!

I did go to the gym this morning and I'm only doing the bike for about 20

minutes, but man...I think it is going to kill me. After going to the gym,

cleaning the kitchen (twice - are they back in school yet???), grabbing the

sheets and towels and starting the laundry, I am in MAJOR pain. And I have to go

back out in an hour to get Ben, bring him home, and then go meet my mother for

lunch. That doesn't sound like a lot, but to me it's like climbing a mountain.

And this heat and humidity is tearing me up in addition. I think I could lose

this weight faster if it wasn't so damned hot here. (I'm in northwestern

Virginia, near the West Virginia border and it's HOT). Maybe I should move to

New England or back to upstate New York?????

Anyways...not to complain but I have to say that the ultracet is just NOT

cutting it today. ((((

Chelle

July 17, 2008

Chelle,

I've learned through my children that they THINK we are here to take care of

their every whim. They don't need to be here for us. We are the PARENTS and it's

OUR JOB. This is what my kids think. I get so sick of my son who is at home and

now 17, telling me " okay " and " in a minute " and in a minute never comes. And " I

will " , well when? I don't know he says. And it never happens. I had gotten a

propane tank for our grill and he sat it on the front porch in January when I

got it, do you know, it wasn't until just the other day, his friend put it where

I wanted it? It sat there for SEVEN months. This is the way every thing is with

him. He is lazy and just doesn't like to move. Really makes me so mad. I can't

wait till he is on his own, but he will never make it. He'll just have to

because after his survivor's benefits from his Dad are gone when he graduates, I

won't be able to support him, but he'll expect me to. For some reason, they

think I owe them for something. I haven't figured out what I owe them for, I did

give them life and everything between then and now that I possibly could. Kids

these days just kill me. I don't understand them at all.

I'm so sorry you are in so much pain and not even getting any help from hubby.

He wouldn't take you to the ER? I'd be tempted to tell him, then you can pay the

cab fair home because I'm going and I can't drive back home. Then call a cab. Of

course we'd wind up divorced, just as I did from my husband because I stopped

taking his verbal abuse because I was sick. He didn't believe I was sick and he

thought if he belittled me and condemned me, I'd get up and move and go back to

work. I couldn't do it. And he was killing me emotionally. Had me feeling I was

totally worthless and I got tired of taking it. So after a yr and a half, I put

his ass out! We'd been together 20 yrs. I didn't care. I was at a point of total

indifference with him. A wk later he begged to come back and I told him NO, As

hard as it was, it was for the wrong reasons. He claimed he'd go to the support

group and to my Therapist and learn about the illnesses. That was total BS and I

knew it. He was just scared because he was 38 yrs old and had never been on his

own. Always had me to take care of everything. Six months after he was out, he

thanked me for not taking him back. He didn't love me anymore, it was obvious.

I hope you are feeling better now.

~Tommie~

www.myspace.com/tommiejj

PH, CFS, FMS, Diabetes, Sleep Apnea, Restless Leg Syndrome

Don't waste energy second-guessing what you're missing or

what can go awry. If you put enough energy into doubt,

something will undoubtedly go wrong.

Instead, focus on the positive possibilities with a hopeful attitude.

Re: withdrawl

Tommie,

I know my chiro can't prescribe, but boy is she sympathetic - the only one!

I am in agony right now - it's 11:45 p.m. and my neck is so painful that I

can't hold up my head. I'm sitting on the couch with the laptop in my lap and my

neck propped back against the heating pad. I just double dosed on ultracet and

soma, and am waiting for something, anything to make this pain go away.

I was so deperate I was looking up meningitis symptoms, although the chances

of that are remote. I was actually thinking of going to the ER, but my husband

just can't see that there's anything seriously wrong with me since I didn't

actually " hurt " myself. He said tonight " what HAPPENED???? " I kinda wondered the

same thing too. This is worse than anything in a LONG time. It's been ever since

I woke up on Sunday and getting worse every day. I have a jam packed two days

tomorrow and Friday, so I don't even know if I can get myself to a doctor. I

can't hold my head up. Help!

This is just torture. I'm having a time where I just don't think I can live

like this anymore. And my kids are making more work for me than helping me. I

had a talk with my 16 year old tonight and he just looked at me like I was nuts

for asking for his help. Isn't that why we have kids????

Okay, I'm going to shut up now. LOL Please somebody take away this PAIN!!!!

Chelle

July 17, 2008

Chelle,

If you don't take care of you first, you can't possibly take care of anyone

else. Do you see a Therapist? Honestly, I feel you should and you should drag

hubby there with you. And the entire family as time warrants it. Everyone has

GOT to come together in that household before it all falls apart.

As far as the finances, cut backs will have to be made. Do you not get SSDI? If

not, have you applied? There are other ways and we can find them. I'd love

nothing than to go back to work, but I know in my heart of hearts that isn't

going to ever happen. I've been off for 13 yrs and it's been so long, if I had

that life again, I wouldn't know what to do with it. I know I'd figure it out

and would love it. Gosh, I'd love to have my life back. So much time has passed

now though, it would all be so new. So many things have changed in Corporate

America, I wouldn't know where to start. Like starting from scratch.

I don't even know how you pulled off that garage sale, other than maybe the

mania kicked in and gave you the adrenaline. Is that about right?

I'm sorry, but I'm just trying to help you maybe see what could be reality in

your life? Does that make sense? And I sure don't mean to offend you.

Have a nice day, Hugs!

~Tommie~

www.myspace.com/tommiejj

PH, CFS, FMS, Diabetes, Sleep Apnea, Restless Leg Syndrome

Don't waste energy second-guessing what you're missing or

what can go awry. If you put enough energy into doubt,

something will undoubtedly go wrong.

Instead, focus on the positive possibilities with a hopeful attitude.

Re: withdrawl

Tommie,

Apology accepted of course!

I know it is a lot, but with all the people I take care of, there just isn't

time to stop and take care of me. Does that sound pathetic? On top of everything

else, I'm under pressure to go back to work because of our finances, and I don't

see how I'm even going to get off of this couch tomorrow to go to my volunteer

thing at the pet store, which only takes an hour. Luckily, my 11 year old told

me he wants to go to help me. Right now, he's my favorite. LOL He's the only one

who seems to see that I need help and he's always asking me what he can do. I

love that kid! I will miss him too when he goes back to school. I know how you

feel.

I can't believe it's almost midnight and I have to get up to take Ben to

driver's ed and then go over to the pet store after that. I don't do well when

I'm tired, as you all can imagine. I just can't get comfortable with my neck

like this so I can't sleep and I'm in so much pain I'm crying as I write this.

I'm trying so hard not to get depressed, but I find that I'm starting to back

out of things I want to do (like the volunteering - I just gave her notice

tonight) and it really makes me so sad. Those are the things that make me feel

useful. Now I'm really depressing myself.

Chelle

July 17, 2008

Next time he needs something from you, a loan, a ride...whatever...just

yell... " Just a minute " .....and that's it. Repeat as needed.

I have three grown sons and I found it works out nicely. Pay back is a bitch

but you gotta stick to your guns. I tended to be a softy but sometimes the line

is in the sand.

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Subject: Re: Re: withdrawl

To: Hugs-N-Pain

Date: Thursday, July 17, 2008, 10:46 AM