telling children... powerful must read for all

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Hello all

With all the talks lately about telling kids about implants, etc., it made me think of a story I posted some 2 years or so ago... I tried to find it this morning but I couldn't so I thought I would re-write it. I thought it would be good to re-post it as we have so many new lovely brave women here to share it with. It certainly is not something I would recommend for everyone but it did me wonders during the hardest of my illnesses.....

Quick re-cap: I was implanted in 96 - had two surgeries due to complications then got sick in 99. I proceeded to get worse and worse then I found the group and the truth in early '03 and had them removed in 4/03. I ended up with lots of issues mainly from all the mold and crap found in the implants.... the main issues was sinus probs... I had an infection for almost 8 months - nothing would kill it. I had my first sinus surgery in 11/03 then again 3 weeks later 12/03. It was a mess. I was still infected after all of that....

I had a follow up after the second operation (sinus), I can't remember the date. My sinus surgeon just happened to be in the same complex as my original PS, the $% & ^%$##$$#$#%.(read my story for the ugly details.) My son was 2. Big boy and I was small - at the time 5'2" - 110 lbs. Anyways, after the appt. I was getting my son into the car to go home - by then I was not working and disabled. I drive an Expedition and it was always difficult to get him into his car seat. I was having extra trouble that day and in a ton of pain. At that point all I had said was "mommy is sick" all of the time to him. I was trying to get him in the seat and he said again, "mommy, why are you always so sick?". I stopped and something came over me. I proceeded to say c'mon - I will show you and marched him right to the PS's office which luckily for me was consult day - full of women in the waiting room. I stood there w/ him inside their office and said nothing.... Receptionist repeatedly asked if she could help, did I have an appt., etc. I waited until everyone started staring then something wonderful happened. I was holding Logan and he said, "mommy, is this why you are sick.... is this a bad doctor?" Mouths dropped. I said "Yes baby, this is a why mommy is sick". The girl up front asked again if she could help me angrily, and I said "no, my little boy here keeps asking why I am always sick so I figured that before I die and leave him without a mommy, I would take him to the place that lied to me and made me sick - him too..." I pulled up his shirt and revealed his rash to all.... then smiled, said thank you, and walked out. I was shaking - never had done anything like that before. three women got up right then and left.... I don't know what happened to the rest....

Just had to share.... I never have revealed to him the reason for my illnesses... he is 4 now. All he say's is that a bad doctor made me sick - still talks about it all of the time. Maybe it is time to tell him... he was in the MTV spot and hears me talk of implants all the time - has even seen the implants although I won't let him near them but he doesn't understand what they are and why. He is starting to ask questions, though.... maybe now is the time.

Thanks everyone - have a GREAT week!!!!!

love always

Shari