& Ice Cream Anecdotes Better Forgotten

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Hi and Everyone,

, thank you for the nada encyclopedia. That was

really great and helpful....I'm going to read it again

later tonight. So, much info to process. I think if

I can really process all that, I'll be well for the

rest of my life (hehehe).

I've been thinking of your ice cream story. That's

really horrifying. You should have taken that ice

cream cone and shoved it into nada's pathetic howling

face. If she really wanted it that much, her nada

head should have been drenced in it! LOL

You wanted to know if we have had similar nada

experiences. My mind has been going wild, b/c, nearly

every experience with nada is an ice cream-like

experience, without the delightful toppings.

What really comes to mind is the Mommie Dearest

closet-hanger flinging episode when I was about 10

years old. I don't know what could have fueled her

jealous rage. But I was in my room, and in came nada.

She was just on a yelling rampage for no apparent

reason. She usually did things like this when she

" thought " I upset my father, just by being me...and he

would chase after me trying to kill me.)

But this time, it was just nada out of the blue. She

went into my clothes closet, flung everything out of

the closet while screaming in Italian, " La

Boutanazina " (Little Whore). I did not even know what

a whore was.

She must have been jealous of something my fada said

about me. Why else would she call her 10 year old

daughter a little whore in Italian?

And also when I was 10, on the night of July 4th

(Independence Day in the US), fireworks were going

off. Nada started beating me and screaming outside in

our back yard. She screamed " We're getting a divorce

and it's ALL YOUR FAULT! " I guess she was jealous

that I interfered in her marriage in some sort of sick

way. Like if I did not exist, then everything would

be okay.

And when I was 10 I got acne. Nada was so outraged at

my acne. She screamed at me in a bonker rage and

dragged me into the bathroom and yelled at me and

scrubbed my face until it was about to fall off.

And there are times when nada threatened to kill

herself if I did not break up with a BF. She was

raging and really meant it. I was a freshman in

college and ran into the shrink's office. The shrink

told me to keep away from nada and fada indefinitely.

Sage advice, too bad I did not follow. Shrink told me

I was a " TOTEM POLE " for their emotions.

Also....just two days ago, nada phoned to give me some

bad news...(we weren't on speaking terms before this).

My uncle's cat got put to sleep. It was 20 years old

and sick. My uncle was grieving the loss of his cat

and felt really depressed. Nada got mad at my uncle

for grieving the loss of his cat, b/c nada's loss

(that of her DH 15 years ago (he was also uncle's

brother) was greater than the loss of a cat. So nada

is mad at uncle for grieving the loss of his cat. He

is not allowed to grieve his cat, only my fada's death

14 years ago.

There was another terrible ice cream story when I was

12. We were all in a car and fada was driving. I

don't know what ticked him off, but he started

screaming " I HATE YOUs " at us and he almost killed us

when the car skidded out of control. He was nuts too.

I don't know what ticked him off...of how I survived

all of this.

So, those are just a few ice cream stories. None of

them are sugar-coated (LOL).

Thanks again, for sharing your wisdom with us.

It's still so hard to grasp this idea of everything

being an ego projection. In a weird kind of way I'm

wondering if everything we see as our own reality,

even if we are non BPs is an ego projection. In an

Eastern philosophical kind of way, don't we all create

our own reality? I think...therefore I am...I think?

Cheers & Hugs,

Lula

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