Suicide and the right to die

[Guest guest]

Since I left S.F. for Nashville for a healing ministry 4 years ago

my life has gone downhill. I was then diagnosed with fibromyalgia.

The fatigue has been getting worse and worse. I had a small room with

rent control so I had it made i just didn't see it that way at the

time. Now I live in the Sec.8 ghetto and am one of the very few non-

blacks living here which is very awkward. With my energy level being

so low I am having too hard of a time keeping up the apt. The place

looks pretty bad. I have been suicidal ,but have not been on meds

because my doctor and I have too many conflicts.

I can't see going on. I hate where I live and I can't find anything

else. I can't find a decent doctor. This fibro and fatigue is robbing

me of life.

[Guest guest]

,

I understand how you feel. I am on lithium and I still stay most the time in a depression. The thing is, God is there with us. God said that he would not allow anything to come upon us that with His help we couldn't handle. Hang in there.. keep one eye on God and the other eye on the light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes it might seem that God has walked away or that He has turned his back, but what He is actually doing it getting his angels to intervein, working His plan for us. Also, it might seem sometimes that the light has disappeared, well it is only that we are turning a corner in our life and it will reappear again. Have faith. My prayers are with you.

Norene

Suicide and the right to die

Since I left S.F. for Nashville for a healing ministry 4 years ago my life has gone downhill. I was then diagnosed with fibromyalgia. The fatigue has been getting worse and worse. I had a small room with rent control so I had it made i just didn't see it that way at the time. Now I live in the Sec.8 ghetto and am one of the very few non-blacks living here which is very awkward. With my energy level being so low I am having too hard of a time keeping up the apt. The place looks pretty bad. I have been suicidal ,but have not been on meds because my doctor and I have too many conflicts. I can't see going on. I hate where I live and I can't find anything else. I can't find a decent doctor. This fibro and fatigue is robbing me of life.

[Guest guest]

, God is still with You. I'm sorry but I can't even befing to

imagine the suffering you are going thru. But you reached out and

found us. And while I'm safe in my home with family and I live in

comfort..I have no idea what a section 8 ghetto is but it doesn't

sound like a place I want to be. We can feel your pain thru your

words and most of us are probably thinking right now..How can we

help him...........Do you have family?? the Church that sent you on

your Healing Ministry?? A pastor or minister?? Can you contact

them?? Maybe you don't think you have friends left from your past

before the fibro monster robbed you of hope and dignity. Is there

any one we can contact for you.?

Hey!!!!Everybody what recourse does have?? you said you

have conflicts with your Dr... AMEN !! That we can all relate to. Is

this a Dr. you've had for very long? Please continue to 'talk' to

us. We are here and we care. No one BUT someone who is fighting this

terrible disease understands the physical agony you are going

thru..And that is this group.

May name is K, and I've fought this and other degenerative

diseases for more than 25+ years. It originally started in 1976 and

I was off work for 16 months during which time my son was born. But

once he was born and I had back surgery I went back to work 6 weeks

later. That lasted for 3 years and shortly after a fall on the ice

reinjured my back and I was never able to return to work again.

Despite another back surgery. I also had a daughter by then too. Who

fought rheumatoid juvinal arthritis for 12 years which included 30+

hospitalizations and many painful tests and treatments. And

today..she has fibro and is at the present fighting a flare up. She

knows from reading up on the disease and watching me for the last 22

years what she has in store for her future.

Her future holds so many unknowns. She's a beautiful young lady who

has become a recluse. We have to encourage her to get out.!! But

like you the fatigue has her stumped...for now. She wants to be a

nurse but doubts she'll ever have the energy level to last in that

profession or the money to do it. She's had 3 years of college but

her health had her missing so many classes she's had to abandon that

for awhile. Plus we ran out of credit cards...which we'll be still

paying on when we're 80..LOL But if there was a cure out there for

this terrible disease we'd mortage the house and sell everything we

had to see she got the treatment.

Sorry I got carried away there. But that's the parent in me. In

short.....LOL We all hurt....We all fight the exhausting

fatigue...and pain......But that's the key word here...We:::::

FIGHT

AND THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE CONTACTED US MEANS YOU ARE A FIGHTER TOO.

Just me.... k

May God's Blessings be upon you.

May God's Mercy give you peace.

And May God's Love be in you and around you.

Shining like a Beacon for all to see.

-> From: jacob7715

> > Subject: [] Suicide and the right to die

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> Since I left S.F. for Nashville for a healing ministry 4 years

ago

> my life has gone downhill. I was then diagnosed with

fibromyalgia.

> The fatigue has been getting worse and worse. I had a small room

with

> rent control so I had it made i just didn't see it that way at

the

> time. Now I live in the Sec.8 ghetto and am one of the very few

non-

> blacks living here which is very awkward. With my energy level

being

> so low I am having too hard of a time keeping up the apt. The

place

> looks pretty bad. I have been suicidal ,but have not been on

meds

> because my doctor and I have too many conflicts.

> I can't see going on. I hate where I live and I can't find

anything

> else. I can't find a decent doctor. This fibro and fatigue is

robbing

> me of life.

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

I'm a new member here, just joined last night, but I couldn't help

responding to you. I was just diagnosed with Fibro last April, but

I know the feelings of despair well. I have bipolar disorder as

well, so I have hit rock bottom more than once.

Prior to being diagnosed, I was feeling pretty bad too. My body

hurt all the time, so much that I just wanted to cry, and the

fatigue was so bad that I was even falling asleep at work. I didn't

know how I made it through each day, but somehow I did. Even after

my diagnosis, things didn't get better right away. All I was given

was narcotics, and the advice to get rest and start exercising. It

took many, many months for me to start getting on the " right "

track. That, and a lot of determination.

The first thing I want to say, is please, PLEASE seek out someone to

talk to. Almost every community has a counselling center whose fees

are based on your ability to pay. You need to have someone to talk

to about what you are feeling. If you have trouble finding such a

place, your local mental health board should be able to put you in

contact with one, and make sure that you tell them that you need

emergency treatment. Be honest and tell them that you are having

suicidal thoughts. This will get you treatment faster. They also

have psychiatrists on staff, who will be able to prescribe you the

proper meds.

Also, please try to seek out a doctor who will be able to help you

get your fibro symptoms under control. This is so important. There

are a lot of good treatments out there that can help you to combat

the fatigue, pain, etc. I know it's hard, especially when you are

feeling bad, but you have to keep pushing forward in seeking good

medical care.

You CAN go on , I know you can. I don't know you, but I

believe in you, and I care. Right now, don't focus on huge tasks,

such as making sure your apt. is sparkling. Your biggest task right

now is making sure YOU are okay. Just keep taking one step forward

at a time, and know that we are all here to give you support and

strength when you need it. I want to help you in any way I can,

even if it's just a shoulder to lean on, or to lend an ear to

listen, or to help pick you up when you are feeling down. Please,

if you need anything at all, feel free to write me off forum. My e-

mail address is nettazig@.... You don't have to be alone.

I'll be here for you.

Love and hugs,

Jen