To Sis and others

[Guest guest]

Sis, I know how you feel, I know how lonely a time it is and how hard

it is to make a very difficult decision alone. I'm glad to hear your

husband is finally supportive, I didn't have a boyfriend at the time

and my parents were doubtful and even my good friends didn't know

that I had them so I had no one to even talk to it about until I

found this site. I think I called my mom 10 times a day crying and

she wanted me to come home because I was still in college and she was

scared for my physical but I think even more for my mental health

when this was all going on. On an odd side note, my symptoms got a

lot worse after a vacation I took, I'm not sure if it was the

elevation or what but I was getting a lot more severe chest pains

after that trip. I think initially my dad caved in to support my

explanation when my mom convinced him that even if it was in my head

I wouldn't be able to feel better psychologically at all until I got

them out, which I was fine with everyone thinking I was crazy at that

point. I was thinking of seriously finding anyone qualified such as

a doctor who couldn't practice legal medicine anymore for some reason

to do it for me and I would have paid him just to get them out. When

you were talking about stress, high blood pressure, heart rapid

beating I had the same thing. The day of my removal was the highest

my blood pressure has ever been and I also have always had low blood

pressure. I'm sure it was high from nervousness but I would randomly

get rapid heart beats where my heart would even feel like it would

jump and then skip beats, which I never figured out if it was from

stress or if my body was just trying to tell me something.

I never showed any cleavage either because they looked fake and were

even harder when pushed up. Don't beat yourself up about getting

them because we women are not informed as we should be about the

dangers. I was oblivious too to any complications, my doctor gave me

a pamphlet with just a small paragraph about claims of autoimmune

disease and I figured it was 1 in a million type of deal because I

obviously hadn't heard about any of you ladies. It wasn't a bad call

on your part, the thing I'm most upset about is I went through all of

that and it also never helped my confidence and I was more beautiful

without them and I never appreciated how pretty my small natural

breasts were. But I am an avid believer in " everything happens for a

reason, " and I think maybe we were chosen for this hard event in our

lives for a reason. It made me grateful now for everything I do have

and how pretty I really am naturally. I am sooo grateful that I feel

better and although I still have some symptoms, every day I wake up

without pain I thank God for giving me a second chance. I say burn

your bras, I didn't burn them but I cut them up and it felt great.

It'll be so nice when you heal and can lie face down and not feel

like you are lying on water balloons. When I go out now and wear

shirts that are lower cut I wear a push up bra with a little padding

and I still have nice classy cleavage. My breasts now I would

compare to Gweneth Paltrow's which before I used to consider small

breasted but now I honestly think they are perfect size. For how

young I am they are a little more slopey I believe they would have

been if I never got them but they look nice and I read in Cosmo even

that most men prefer natural breast with a little slope to them then

round ones (they particularly commented how gross and hard fake

breasts feel even if they did like how they looked). They still

honestly really do look way better than I expected, but at first they

looked flat on the bottom half because it takes a while for that part

to fill back out after being smashed down for months. Today I've had

a little joint pain in my fingers because of lack of sleep this

weekend but whenever I get the joint pain I first get chest pains in

my breasts and it seems to carry down my arms because I think I am

still healing somewhat I think this still happens. I think in a few

more months when my breasts are completely healed I shouldn't get

even the minor joint pain I still get. I am so happy to give you

women hope because I remember checking this site 3 times a day to see

how women who had gotten explanted were progressing. I am more than

happy to reciprocate the favor and it is almost a personal obligation

for me to help answer women's questions. I live in Chicago now and

that's where I had my explant, so no I am not around AZ. If any of

you are from the Chicagoland area and would like my doctors name I'll

be happy to refer you but I do not want to give out my doctors name

to anyone who can visit this site to respect his privacy. Just write

me a personal letter at lolosky3@... and remind me to check and

respond to your message on the message board if you would like to

know more details. Have a nice day tomorrow and I wish so hard

everyday for the best most full recovery for all of us.

-Lo

> >

> > Hi Ladies!

> > I know some of you remember me, my name's Lo, I'm 22 years old

and

> I

> > have been a member for about a year but I haven't posted in a few

> > months. I had saline under the muscle implants put in when I was

> 19

> > and it was the biggest mistake of my life. I developed carpal

> tunnel

> > like symptoms within a month which persisted for about a year.

> After

> > a year I developed and then pain in all my limbs, shaking,

> twitching,

> > headaches, tingling, every weird symptom imaginable. I saw my

> doctor

> > and he had no explanation, I didnt have a high ANA therefore it

was

> > rheumatory arthritis, and all other tests came out negative. My

> > diagnosis was fibromyalgia, a pain and fatigue disorder that

> doctors

> > still don't know much about but they know can be brought on by

> stress

> > and a number of other things. It's the diagnosis they give people

> who

> > they usually don't know what the hell is wrong with them because

> > there is no test to prove this disorder. I got explanted a few

> months

> > ago and I feel unbelievably better. I need to tell you all I'm

not

> > so tired all the time and almost all my fibromyalgia symptoms are

> > gone. Just this past month I noticed significant differences

since

> I

> > still have slight pain in my wrists and breasts and sometimes am

a

> > little fatigued or get an occasional twitch when I'm stressed out

> but

> > gradually my symptoms have been regressing and I am totally

> confident

> > eventually I will be close to 100%. I just wanted to give you

all

> > hope who aren't sure if it is your implants, IT IS. I promise

you

> if

> > you have fibromyalgia symptoms, it is 99% probable that it is

your

> > implants. I didn't want to lose mine so I kept my implants even

> > after my instincts told me my pain was from them. I know you

spent

> a

> > lot of money on them and they give you more confidence, but they

> > ruined my whole life. I almost dropped out of college last year

> > because I had a breakdown because I didn't know what the hell was

> > wrong with me, I thought I had RA and MS and/or was just losing

my

> > mind. I'm getting over my depression finally and I have been

> > depressed since getting them put in. Doctors told me they

weren't

> > the cause and I didn't want to tell my family health physician

> > because he was a family friend and I didn't want him to know I

had

> > them, but I told him because he is a brilliant man and I really

> > needed his medical opinion. Since he saw my progression of

> symptoms

> > and looked at the chart from the time I was implanted and when

the

> > progress of my symptoms took place he told me to get them out

> > immedieatly before my symptoms got worse. He said he didn't know

> if

> > it was them but using the facts he had and previous experiences

> from

> > his patients who had improved after the explantation he urged me

to

> > remove them. Because of his opinion my dad finally realized I

> wasn't

> > a hypochondriac and agreed to pay for then, but what was even

more

> > amazing is that my physican wrote a document saying how he

believed

> > they were the cause of my fibromyalgia and my plastic surgeon

also

> > agreed to sign it so my insurance could pay for all of it. I am

> > feeling so great now and I just wanted you all to know that you

> have

> > hope of feeling so much better. I believe a few months from now

I

> > will be 100% It takes time ladies, but you will only improve

when

> > you have them removed, in the meantime you may unfortunatly gain

> more

> > symptoms, like I did because I waited. I know how you feel, it

is

> a

> > painful, lonely, depressing, hopeless, anxious feeling.

> > Be healthy, don't lose hope, and I'm here for any questions about

> my

> > improvement progress, what symptoms I had/have, what prodcedure I

> > had, anything! (write my name in the subject because I may miss

> that

> > a message is for me). Love you ladies, Rogene, Patty, Beth, I

> > remember all of your help and I doubt anyone will ever take for

> > granted the time and effort you put in helping us. I want you

all

> to

> > know I consider these women who still persist checking this

website

> > daily to help every stranded woman who needs answers out of their

> own

> > time are angels. I wish I had the time and the bravery to check

> the

> > website everyday but it has been too harsh a reminder and made me

> too

> > anxious until now because I am feeling better and want to help as

> > well. I am so pleased with how my breasts look now, they feel

> light

> > and natural and look honestly beautiful (I'm not just saying this

> to

> > convince you, I really really like how they look now, I got

bigger

> > since my implantation slightly and it is such a nice natural

> > difference from those " balls " as I called them). Please do what's

> > right for your body, and not what looks right for your body. You

> only

> > have one, and you have to live how it works or doesn't work for

the

> > rest of your life.

> > -Lo

> >

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