Re: The Constant Gardener..like us they were experimenting on human beings:

September 4, 2005

Thank you so much, Lea, for the kind post. I am embarrassed to say I do not

remember

calling you. I was in such a fog then. I had just graduated, and was getting

sicker and

sicker. I was seeing one specialist after another, and it seemed every test

came out badly

- blood tests, brain & c-spine MRIs, spinal tap. Yich. Then I found out my

implants were

ruptured. There's so much I don't recall about that time. I talked to a number

of people

then, trying to obtain information. I don't even recall how I found names or

numbers. I

remembered Lynda, because her email looked familiar. I have no idea why I

remembered

her email but not what we said in conversation.

More than a few times, I didn't think I would live. My internist told me she

watched me

deteriorate before her eyes. I was dx wtih Hashimoto's thyroid disease,

mulitple sclerosis

and lupus -- and I was depressed and angry. Thank God I found you and all the

women

who helped me during that time. Through all of this, I started putting pieces

together. I

got connected with Dr. Kolb and scheduled an explant. Although I have always

been detail

oriented, by that time, I didn't have the energy or ability to do focus on

insurance or much

of anything else. Dr. Kolb helped me with insurance, and she & her whole staff

made me

feel safe - I'll never forget that.

I was incredibly naive when I got my implants- I never even asked what type I

had. When I

tried to find my implanting surgeon from 20 years ago, I discovered that he had

his

medical license revoked in 1994. It took Colorado a lot to finally take

action --

improperly administering anesthesia (resulting in a woman's death), insurance

fraud, false

advertising (he was never board certified) and criminal charges of sexual

assault. Well, I

guess what I'm trying to say is that I was just on overload, as was my memory.

IT's only

been a year and a half since my explant, but it feels like a decade.

This is why I am still on forums like this. One thing I DO remember is how

terrified I was.

I sure feel for other women going through that. If there is anything I can do

for other

women facing this, I'd like to.

I'm so sorry you have been ill. I probably just yakked on, oblivious. I was

not at my best,

that's for sure.

Are you feeling any better these days? I hope so. DId you have silicone or

saline

implants? I am assuming you had an explant?

I'm so glad you have an attorney who is helping you with the toxic mold. There

are some

caring lawyers out there!

Thet whole issue of toxic mold has really exploded in the last few years. I'm

glad you are

pursuing it legally. How long have you lived with the mold? I sure hope you

can get that

removed from your home. It's a mess, I know. It is so important to have the

mold

removed & home repaired properly. It's insidious, too, because you can get so

sick before

realizing what is going on. A little like silicone poisoning?

Once again, I do appreciate your thoughtful comments! Please keep me posted on

how

your are doing with that mold situation. I look forward to getting to know you

and all the

women here better. I'm not always a terrified basket case.. In fact, I have

decided i might

just live after all.

Take care.

> >> >> Hi Lea,

> >> >>

> >> >> You are not lazy, you have had so much grief in your life lately and

> >> >> it

> >> >> really zaps your energy. Not to mention the mold in your house! The

> >> >> mold

> >> >> in my house was making me really tired. I found that when I left our

> >> >> house

> >> >> for the day I felt much better than when I stayed home. I know you

> >> >> stay

> >> >> home a lot so the mold could be having a profound affect on you. The

> >> >> mold

> >> >> is gone in my house now but the repairs remain. How is your fight

> >> >> going?

> >> >>

> >> >> Kenda

> >> >>

> >> >> > We had heard about this book from a journalist whose life has been

> >> >> > threatened. Now they have made a movie, and all talks about is

> >> >> > wanting

> >> >> > to see it. I refuse to go to the theatre because I hate crowds; we

> >> >> > will

> >> >> > have

> >> >> > to wait until it comes out on a DVD or videotape. I hope that every

> >> >> > woman

> >> >> > who has been damaged by breast implants will get to see this movie.

> >> >> >

> >> >> > I really feel like an emotional cripple these days, and I do not

> >> >> > know

> >> >> > how to

> >> >> > find the energy to do the things that I must do. I need someone to

> >> >> > give

> >> >> > me a

> >> >> > good kick in the behind to get me moving. Do any of you ladies feel

> >> >> > this

> >> >> > way, or am I just lazy??

> >> >> >

> >> >> > Sending love to all.....Lea

> >> >> > ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``````

> >> >> >

> >> >> > Fw: The Constant Gardener

> >> >> >>> >> Date: Thu, 1 Sep 2005 19:07:11 -0400

> >> >> >>> >>

> >> >> >>> >> We saw this movie today. It is powerful!!! It is

> >> >> >>> >> about a giant pharmaceutical company who takes tax

> >> >> >>> >> write-offs by giving free samples of their

> >> >> >>> >> tuberculosis medication in the R & D stage to

> >> >> >>> >> " disposal citizens " in Africa. Problem is..., there

> >> >> >>> >> are side effects which can kill. The firm paid to do

> >> >> >>> >> the testing for the pharmaceutical company tests for

> >> >> >>> >> AIDS and if Africans refuse the medication for TB,

> >> >> >>> >> their health card is cancelled and they receive NO

> >> >> >>> >> healthcare. The ones who die are simply and secretly

> >> >> >>> >> buried and all traces of their previous existance on

> >> >> >>> >> the earth are destroyed.

> >> >> >>> >>

> >> >> >>> >> Every silicone implant survivor should see this

> >> >> >>> >> movie!

> >> >> >>> >>

> >> >> >>> >> A. Nonymous

> >> >> >> >

> >> >> >> > Opinions expressed are NOT meant to take the place of advice

> >> >> >> > given

> >> >> >> > by

> >> >> >> > licensed health care professionals. Consult your physician or

> >> >> >> > licensed

> >> >> >> > health care professional before commencing any medical treatment.

> >> >> >> >

> >> >> >> > " Do not let either the medical authorities or the politicians

> >> >> >> > mislead you.

> >> >> >> > Find out what the facts are, and make your own decisions about

> >> >> >> > how

> >> >> >> > to live

> >> >> >> > a happy life and how to work for a better world. " - Linus

> >> >> >> > ing,

> >> >> >> > two-time Nobel Prize Winner (1954, Chemistry; 1963, Peace)

> >> >> >> >

September 4, 2005

Lea,

I realized I jumped the gun here. I was so shocked by that post, that I

overreacted.

Thanks to you, Lynda & Rogene for giving me some perspective on it.