Rollercoaster feelings

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Hello all,

I am finally done moving and am glad to be back! I've missed my daily dose of

KO sanity!!

Things really hit the fan today. Nada was arrested and is currently in jail

b/c of her lack of control. It came to a head when she tried to take my youngest

bro (6 y/o) from my dad's house. My 14 y/o bro tried to reason with her and

became trapped between the body and the open door of her F-350 truck when she

took off down the road in a complete psychotic episode. She lives a mile from

my dad and drove the whole way at 30+ mph, around the turns and everything! He

had to jump from the truck when she reached her house b/c she pulled straight

into the garage without slowing much and would have smashed him. She then closed

the garage and left him standing outside in the rain. My 6 y/o bro saw it all

from the seat right next to the open door from which my other bro was dangling.

No one was physically hurt THANK GOODNESS!!! She refused to open her door when

the police came, instead she sat near her front window and totally ignored them

and wrote in her journal. This all

happened last Friday. They arrested her yesterday and her arraignment was

today. She was charged with one count felony injury to child, one count

misdemeanor injury to child, one count misdemeanor assault, and two counts

misdemeanor disturbing the peace. Her bond is $100,000.00!

I am feeling relieved, scared, happy and guilty, and very confused about why

all of these feelings are jumbled together like this. I've been thinking all day

and this is what I came up with- please let me know if this makes any kind of

sense:

I am relieved that she is not able to get to my dad and sibs for a while now.

She doesn't have access to that kind of money and will not be able to post her

bond by herself. I am also relieved that there has finally been some justice for

my family.

I am scared that her mother and sisters will post her bond. I don't know their

financial capabilities but I do know that they are just as deluded as nada. I am

afraid that she will retaliate if she gets out. She has really escalated in the

last year and is much more senseless and violent when she is angry- which is all

the time now. I fear for my dad the most. He is her target for almost

everything. (He filed for divorce and has custody of the sibs. She is extremely

angry about this)

I am happy that she finally got nailed for her stupid behavior! She really had

this coming. All this time she has been pulling crap that is just below the

radar of criminal charges, but is very agonizing to my family, and me. I am so

happy that she finally is experiencing the consequences of being an out of

control biznitch. She is really good at dodging the consequences in most cases,

but not this time!

Finally, I feel guilt for being happy about her getting nailed. I don't think

that I wish her harm, only justice. She needed to be stopped. More than anything

I want her to want to get help and maybe this is the way it will come about. Who

knows really! I just feel bad for being happy about her arrest and bond amount.

I would appreciate any and all thoughts on this rollercoaster of feelings. I

keep going back an forth and I'm not sure how to deal with them. Please help!

Thanks,

Adria

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