Re: Need help with my anxious thoughts

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Bill your info is so useful!! Are you a therapist? Well if not professionally,

you definitely are in this forum. I like the zero-defects term. I read Happiness

Trap 147, I then went out in the yard to change a section of yard that I was

watering and did a factual commentary as I went. I noticed some judgmental

thoughts about my having to spend so much time working on my mental health right

now, like " why can't you just let all this go and move on with life without

having to do all of this studying. You must really be unstable. " So , i said

" I'm having the thought that I am unstable for having to work on ACT so much. " I

also noticed and spoke about what I was actually doing such as " Now I am

unscrewing the hose, now I am going to move the water sprinkler to the fern

bed. " Does that sound like what I need to be doing? Also, what defusing works

best for you and how do you go about doing it? Also, how do I get the

zero-defects issue to not seem more prominent than the things I do right. I

actually do know that I have done some excellent things as a teacher, I am

actually looked up to as mentor, but I don't seem to be able to put the threat

of a defect or an actual defect like the little girl who rejected me as teacher

in perspective .They seem like the only things that matter especially since

others seem to look up to me. My thought machine gives me the thought, " That

would not happen to a good teacher,I have the thought that I am no good as a

teacher after all. I have just been fooling all these people.

when these get so strong,that is when I feel like I just need to get away from

the job and get some distance. I need a reprieve from all the critical thoughts.

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> > > Thanks Bill, I understand what you are saying. At the moment I am having

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> > > great trouble with application. I think once again, that my real problem

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> > > the anxiety I get. When some child says or does something that causes

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> > > anxiety, I just go down so quickly. So, I start dreading every encounter

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> > > with a child because they might say or do something that will trigger my

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> > > anxiety, which in turn causes me to not eat, sleep etc. It is making me

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> > > to quit my job all together. I have been at this for 25 years, so is it

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> > > reasonable to think that it is ok to want out? I feel just burned out with

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> > > dealing with children with problems, or is that just my anxiety talking, I

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> > > don't know.Just knowing there is a daily possibility of a disrespectful or

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> > > defiant child has me tied up in knots. I just know I am looking for relief

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> > > and wonder if a job change or a break from a job at all for a little while

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> > > would be an okay present to give myself. My thinking self says, no, you

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> > > not be a quitter.

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