My best friend is an Aspie.

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Hello all. I am new here...and my best friend is an aspie.

I feel so alone. My relationship with him is challenging to say the

least...often leaving me heartbroken and in tears. My other friends all tell me

to ditch him because he often treats me badly...but I know he cares about me. I

know he's struggling. I know he's troubled and I don't want to abandon him

totally because of something he cant control.

He runs hot and cold. Some nights I'm his best friend. Some nights, I'm nothing

to him. Some nights he chats my ear off, others, I'll get snapped at for saying

hello.

A few weeks ago, (after 2 years of begging) he finally agreed to meet. July 16

I'm supposed to fly out to see him. Problem is, since that date was set,...he's

becoming increasingly ...stressed to say the least.

I mean, he referred to me saying hello to him every day as " smothering " last

week.

I can't really talk to him about it. Every time I try to talk to him about

anything I'm feeling...I'm trying to " create drama " . He blames everything on

me...he's always telling me I'm crazy. I'm a bad friend. I'm stressing him

out...and it's frustrating because all I want to do is love my friend and spend

time with him. And half the time he blames me for things I didn't do...but that

he's manifested in his own mind.

His constant plea is to be left alone...but i've left him alone before. I've

walked away (before I knew he had AS) and he comes back telling me how I

abandoned him.

We used to play together and talk every night...and for the past 2 months I've

been by myself mostly. In silence mainly.

It's like I cant win. No matter what I do, I'm the bad guy.

If any of you have any suggestions...it would be most appreciated. I just don't

want to lose my friend, but its getting to the point I'm not sure if I'm

emotionally strong enough to be there.