Where I could have been

[Guest guest]

Well in the last 4 years of n/c my life I can say with confidence

has changed for the better. After paying all the court fees off from

my parents taking my to court, (which were over ten grand) we are

finaly able to buy a home. At the same time my parents are

refinancing their home because nada has out of control spending.

When I left her cc dept was about fifteen grand but I am sure she

has more than doubled it by now.

I am much healthier now. I learned to cook and I exercise. I go to

the Dr. every year for a check up and the Dentist every 6 months. I

see my nueurologist every 3 months. I vaccation to destress! Since I

have left I also lost all my baby weight and any additional weight I

was carrying for a grand total of 40lb lighter! I did this by eating

right and walking alot! I have not seen my mom but a family friend

did just a few days ago and told me she got REALLY fat! And he told

me she had ugly lipstick on lol.

Another change I am proud of is that I have been able to build

relationships. I know all she does is tear them down. She typicaly

can't keep a friend unless she buys their love. I am able to keep my

children, husband, other family and friends loving me without

manipulation, and I manage to maintain friendships.

The thing that makes me the most proud is that my husband tells me

he is proud of all the thing I have accomplished! I did not pick up

her bad habbits. I don't hurt people like she does. I do good things

because I want to. I do things how and when I want and I don't like

to be bossed. I look back at her and I see where I could have been

and I am thankful for my freedom, I want to keep it even if I have

to run, fight, I don't care. Now that I have it I will never give it

up. I have fears but not today. Today I feel good, today I feel

powerful. I will take it while I can.