The Lost Sad PREZ

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Hi All,

I am sorry I could not be here. This will be short and sweet or take me forever to type one handed. lin it's great to see you back sorry to hear about the Arm.

I had a stroke on the 8th. So tonight is the first time I have even turned on the computer I have been bed fast! In 2 days I went from 165 to 196 all water. Doctors freaked out put me on lasix to try to pull the water off. My upper thighs were almost as big as my waist. My skin is still sore even to the touch of my clothing.

I am just so darn depressed. We are loosing everything slowly. Long distance is gone, month and a half past on rent, Bank is $200.00+ overdrawn. Phone may be next to go I am 3 months behind on it so if I can't be reached you will all know why. Some people from Church brought us a little food so we are scrimping on it. I am not eating hardly at all. I have an MRI scheduled for Fri. have to find a way to get there it's 30 miles away and no transportation. The Doctor thinks it's urgent that I have it done. The stroke was on the left side and some feeling is coming back which is a blessing and then again not because it contantly tingles and drives me nuts. Nerve ending burn like crazy.

Tina I really commend you on the adoption I adopted 15 underprivleged, handicapped, or mentally challenged kids. They are truly a blessing. Only have 1 left at home a 10 year old boy that is deaf. Right now I feel bad because I can't give him the care and nurturing he needs, can't even buy him any Christmas. I got him a Teddy Bear he wanted one to sleep with. A family in town here has bought him a brand new Bike so at least one of his wishes will come true. He has been so tossed around and I feel as if he is cheated here with me in the shape I am in and my Husband has NO patients with him treats him as if he is grown not a 10 year old handicap child. Hubby has never had the experience of having kids and just doesn't take to it well. He is NOT a good Father figure at ALL! But how can I choose between the 2? I try to give him more attention even and I think Hubby is jealous of that.

This is getting to be just to much for me to handle seems like another crisis every day! I am to the point of SCREAMING at the top of my lungs why me Lord? I try and be giving to all and I get knocked off my feet! I just don't know where the end is?

Welcome to all the new members sorry I haven't been able to be here to welcome you and I feel guilty about that too! I start the group and lately have been so sick I can't even share in it! It's not fair to every one else. I am truly sorry my VP's and Mods. And I am getting very tired it has taken me 4 hours just to write this one handed! I keep you all in my prayers and I ask that you do us I have 2 Urgent request one is that we had a death in the family yesterday. Also my Aunt is very sick and they can't find the cause they done bone marrow biopsy today. I ask that you really take her deep into your prayers we are all very scared and she is terrified. Her husband is just now in remission from cancer. Tornado got thier house not to many months ago. So they are having it pretty rough as well! Just please keep my family close to your hearts this season I know we are all having it rough. BUT we are RICH BEYOND MEASURE WITH LOVE FROM ALL OVER! Funny how we can become family and never see each other but we hurt and cry for them as they do for us! In fact I am closer to some on the web than I am my real family at least part of them!

Love & God Bless! /Wolf~President I'm diagonally parked in a parallel universe. "Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing."

1 Thessalonians 5:11

Now as I always say this at the end of my e-mails: IF GOD BRINGS YOU TO IT. HE WILL BRING YOU THROUGH IT. This has became my philosophy.