Guest guest Posted December 30, 2011 Report Share Posted December 30, 2011 HI, I just received my my approval for disab. To be honest it isnt really a happy time because i want to be normal and have a job. I origianily applied in 2008, after so many job failures from my learning disibility but i went to work even though i felt really lousy and always couldnt wait to go home each day. Im only happy because finincally ive been in a mess. I applied a second time this last august and it is the one that was approved. i think they delay so they wouldnt have to use my work hours. i am still going to persue that claim as it is a civil case i did on my own without lawyers and i was told i can still keep persuing it. i may as well becasue they were very unfair regarding it. persitence is the key but very tireing. I want to mention something else to see if anyone feels the same thoughts. It is my opinion that drs play a little with manuovering tests results to satisfy insurance and bonus payments, what do you think? thanks, joyce ca Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 30, 2011 Report Share Posted December 30, 2011 Hi Joyce~ Congrats on your approval. I think that is just another way that we feel " justified " in our illness, that we are believed and that is a good feeling. But I do understand the bittersweet feeling your having. To be labeled " disabled " is not the greatest and surely it would be so much better if we were able to have the lives we once had. But acceptance is a must. Try to find good in this road your on. For me, being a single mom for many years and working all the time, I just didn't have the time for my family I would have liked. Now I have all the time I need. We lay on my bed resting, spending time just talking. Something I was just too busy to do before, so I have found my positive. As far as the approval process, I was so very fortunate. I was approved in just 7 months on the 1st try!! Why? I don't know, because I see others in a fighting battle that we really don't have the energy for. Remember, you worked for your right for disability. Enjoy it!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 30, 2011 Report Share Posted December 30, 2011 I completely understand what you mean. I have struggled emotionally with the decision to file even though others have urged me to. I was a single mother with 2 kids for many years and never asked for any assistance. Though times were rough and I never could afford anything for myself and often went without eating to feed my children. I always knew I would get through. Now I have a very loving husband who works very hard so I could just work part time so I can be there for my children after school. But after 2 surgeries this year I continue to decline. I have 3 new diagnosis and we have exhausted all our savings and maxed out most of our credit cards. Since my last surgery the most I've been able to work in a week has been 10 hrs and that is with taking pain meds every 2-3 hrs for just a 4 hour shift and then all I can do when I get home is rest. This is no way to live. I have an appt next week to file for disability. They have told me I can continue to try to work as long as I don't make over $1000 a month it won't count against me. I know getting approved can be a long and lengthy battle. I don't know how long I'll be able to continue to work the few hours I am. My neurologist said from his medical stand point he sees no reason why I should be denied and will support me 100%. I've started to collect my medical records and at least my two specialist have made my conditions and how much I suffer very clear. Waiting to see what those who told me " it's just stress " have put in their notes all these years. I still haven't told many family members but I hope they can be understanding and supportive. For the longest time I felt if I filed that I would just be giving up or taking the easy way out and worried what others would say. I even questioned if I was mentally causing symptoms. I can honestly say that at this point that all the things I deal with are very real, I have pushed myself day after day and my body can no longer handle any of it. I wish you the best Debbie Sent from my iPhone Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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