NCC: Struggling with emotions - venting fears

February 15, 2011

Hello everyone,

First let me say, Happy Valentine's Day to all of you!

I am normally a positive person and look at the bright side of my situation with

Chiari and Tethered Cord (both surgically repaired). However, I must just write

this out to all of you who I hope will understand.

I believe that I am going through this continual testing for possible

craniocervical instability and other diagnoses (something w/the dura

sensitivty)because I have a purpose in life and this will help me find that

purpose and help me carryout that purpose. Because, as my faith in God grows, I

believe there is a reason and I hope to understand it in the future or just do

something good with this monster in the future.

But, lately, my emotions are just down and my fears of not being able to

determine what is wrong are overtaking my positive emotions! I pray daily, I

talk to my family (they are kinda tired of it but put up with me), I talk to you

guys. . but I still feel fearful that the doctors will not be able to help or

determine if it is instability or if it is instability is the possible surgical

cure worse than what I am now? Or if the docs say, we don't know. We believe

medical management is what you need for the rest of your life. . . I don't know

how I will react. . . normally I don't get this stressed over things.

I go back to TCI for ICT on 3/1/11. I keep telling myself that whatever will

be, will be and it will turn out okay. I only wish that I believe that. I don't

know if I'm explaining this right.

I was having a pretty good day today. I decided to take my little dog for a

walk outside, it was actually beautiful today. I made about 4 blocks then came

home and had a terrible spell with major headache, arm pain, nausea, feeling

dizzy and leg pain and back pain. I think this drives me the most nuts! I try

and do something and boom. . I feel like someone pulled my feet right out from

under me!

Thanks for listening! Anyone have any thoughts or ideas on how to handle

emotions or fears prior to my test, please let me know.

Decompressed (May 2002)

Detethered (April 2006)

Vitamin D Deficiency (Feb 2011)

Other unrelated Chiari issues

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