Defusion as experienrial avoidance

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Hi all,

What I believe to be defusion has been really helpful but now I'm wondering if

I'm using it as a form of avoidance. For instance, for a number of years and

out of the blue, the thought " I am dying " or " I am going to die " would announce

itself and frighten me to bits, and almost always lead to depression. Now when

the thought arrives, I thank my mind, give this God-like pronouncement a seat in

the railway station, and get on with my day. It works. My feeling though is

that something's wrong, that this fear or whatever it is needs to be addressed

and I'm avoiding it. Or am I so used to these lifelong companions, depression

and anxiety, that I actually miss them?

It feels pretty good just to know that I have this kind of power over a thought

that used to beat me down. Even if I didn't go any further with it, this is

heady stuff. :-)

And I'd sure love to hear how the meetings are going . . .

Best,

Christie