I want to scream....

[Guest guest]

Hey group how are things going for ya'll? Well for me it seems like one thing

after another.

I was on Orencia for the past 5-6 months and it stopped working. I was coming

home from Dallas ( I live in Corpus Christi, Tx) and all of a sudden the pain

just hit me. It wasn't just in one area it was all over my body. I could hardly

walk and breath. The sucky part of it all was I had to get up early the next

morning because I was beginning my clinicals.

If you are in a health care profession, how do you deal with the pain?

The pain is so constant that I just feel sooo helpless and my concentration is

totally off and working in the lab you have to be on top of your game. which is

not happening for me. So now I am worried about my grade for those clinicals

because at times I just feel like they are evaluating me poorly because of how

slow I respond to things.

I did go to the RA doctor to go talk to her about what is happening to me. She

changed me back to MTX along with my prednisone, increased my Gabapentin, which

has the same effects as Lyrica.

And she also recommended me to go to counseling because I am showing alot of

signs of deep depression along with anxiety. I just feel like crawling up in a

little corner (if I can fit) and crying.

Well any advice will be good and I will accept it.

have a good day.

Hugs and blessings,

P

Corpus Christi,Tx

[Guest guest]

Hey , I definitely can relate to the pain part and not being on top of

your game ( I really miss my professional life : ( and with my son and all. I

was on about three differant forms of gabapentin with no real sign of

improvement so now am taking three differant pain meds which help about 40 % I

guess on most days. Let me know if you would like more info on them. I think

that since I started the Kineret, my good days are increasing too. I too keep a

journal and do go back and read it for the most part.

Hoping this helps,

Beth

[Guest guest]

 there is lots of room in my corner if you want to not be alone as you cruel up

but I will warn you I assume the fetal position at times and just cry not for

physical pain but emotional pain. Fact the corner may be a bit wet right now as

I just left it after a good work over of it with some thoughts I was having my

self. I can tell you for my self it seams pain is a big driver of my depression

besides some of my meds. but back to the pain part . when I have pain that is

not bad fact I even over look it as I have lived with it for so long after some

time it will finaly grate on me and set me off some . if I control t and keep it

down even below what I can feel and handle I do better. but then I think I am a

big boy and can deal with it all by my self and bingo a gotcha happens and its

back to the get control again of it . this was more or less made clear to me

again as I forget what day it is even hour or month some times and doing that I

forget to

take my meds even my MTX shot on time so when I do that I throw every thing off

and later it gets me . so If I wait tell I am feeling pain its already to late

for me so I have to manage it ahead of time not after the fact. just a thought .

but working and doing it ya right no way could I so I give you a lot of credit

for doing that just keep close tabs on your self how you feel. 

Now this may seam crazy but I play computer games and also try to make my self

learn some thing almost every day to make me consecrate on things and to keep my

dull mind at lest butter knife sharp. if I just sit around and do nothing it

gets to me so I spend a lot of time on, line doing things with a computer or

forcing my self to try this or that but always challenging my self mentally as

physically never was to strong there and to much working my body would make me

lose that spare tire that took so long to get to almost monster truck size now.

I mean whats a redneck with out a spare tire gut and a cap over there bald head

I mean talk about sexy and Gods gift to woman but sorry taken here won

LOL

hugs

the redneck

Marty G.

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