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In a message dated 19/09/98 00:39:22 GMT, JFoley6163 writes:

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Date: 19/09/98 00:39:22 GMT

From: JFoley6163

To: JMurraybel

Elaine,

I just want to say I miss you guys so much but I can't rejoin the list right

now because I am really stressing out !!!!!. I started back to work and every

muscle in my body aches. My job is really physical.( I started my period the

night before work and that really stinks TOO )I have to get up at 4:30 am to

be at work at 6:00. I get off at 2:30 and pick up and Jillian. My

babysitter loves Jillian. She is befginning to coo alittle more since she

interacts with the other kids. They love her too. The sitter says her 4 yr old

daughter asks every day if that new baby is coming back.My sitter is the best.

If she quit I think I would have to quit my job because I wouldn't trust

anyone else.

I have sunk into a depression. Work actually helps that out though. I am

SOOO busy there. My department was a wreck when I returned. Yesterday was

's birthday. He would have been 2. Sometimes when I visit his grave I am

actually cheery. Others I cry a bit. This time I hysterically feel apart !!! I

don't know what makes each time different. I cried so hard and Jillian was

next to me and I got so depressed again that she has CHARGE. Wasn't

enough??? What other lesson does God need me to learn?Why ( if this is Satan )

did God allow it to happen again??? I actually do thank God that if she is

stuck with CHARGE that she is the mildest case I know of diagnosed, but still

sometimes I fall apart.I have been crying so much lately. I guess I am tired.

Too little sleep. She goes to bed at 8:00 and gets up once or twice a night

then I get up at 4:30 and am up until about 10:00. I'm running on empty.

Jillian has her 6 mon check up on Monday. has his 3 year. She only

weighs about 13 lbs. 6 oz.

Another thing I forgot to mention that depressed me was that my parents I

guess are too busy raising my sisters 4 kids that they didn't even call me on

's birthday and with not being on the list to talk to anyone, the only

person that remembered was a good friend of mine from the nursing home whose

daughter died 2 months before with Trisomy 18.I know I am having a pity

party for myself. I'll get over it. I always do. Sometimes I just think life

hurts too bad.

I am so sorry for dumping on you but I had to talk to someone. I cried the

entire time I typed this. I can't seem to control it lately. If you want you

can forward this to the list to let everyone know, I MISS YOU DEEPLY !!!!!, I

just can't handle the quanity of mail at this point. I'd stress out further.

By the way, what is the update on Logan. I haven;t heard. I think of

daily.

Love ,

Foley

Mom to 3, celebrating yesterday his 2nd birthday with Jesus

instead of Mommy, and Jillian , CHARGEr #2 at 6 months old >>

I thought I would forward this to the list as I know you all care about

and I think she could really do with some support right now. I will forward

any replies onto her.I know she will really appreciate any replies.

Elaine mum to Elise(6yrs) & Jack(14 1/2mths)CHaRGE

Dumfries,Scotland