Guest guest Posted September 21, 1998 Report Share Posted September 21, 1998 Elaine: Give our best and let her know she is missed. She in quite entitled to her " pity party " after all she has been through. We look forward to her return to the list. Trish, mom to Oran (ChaRge), wife to Tim Atlanta, GA At 04:23 PM 9/21/98 EDT, you wrote: >Content-ID: <0_906409404inet_out (DOT) mail.aol.com.1> >Content-type: text/plain; charset=US-ASCII > >In a message dated 19/09/98 00:39:22 GMT, JFoley6163 writes: > ><< > Date: 19/09/98 00:39:22 GMT > From: JFoley6163 > To: JMurraybel > > Elaine, > > I just want to say I miss you guys so much but I can't rejoin the list right >now because I am really stressing out !!!!!. I started back to work and every >muscle in my body aches. My job is really physical.( I started my period the >night before work and that really stinks TOO )I have to get up at 4:30 am to >be at work at 6:00. I get off at 2:30 and pick up and Jillian. My >babysitter loves Jillian. She is befginning to coo alittle more since she >interacts with the other kids. They love her too. The sitter says her 4 yr old >daughter asks every day if that new baby is coming back.My sitter is the best. >If she quit I think I would have to quit my job because I wouldn't trust >anyone else. > > I have sunk into a depression. Work actually helps that out though. I am >SOOO busy there. My department was a wreck when I returned. Yesterday was >'s birthday. He would have been 2. Sometimes when I visit his grave I am >actually cheery. Others I cry a bit. This time I hysterically feel apart !!! I >don't know what makes each time different. I cried so hard and Jillian was >next to me and I got so depressed again that she has CHARGE. Wasn't >enough??? What other lesson does God need me to learn?Why ( if this is Satan ) >did God allow it to happen again??? I actually do thank God that if she is >stuck with CHARGE that she is the mildest case I know of diagnosed, but still >sometimes I fall apart.I have been crying so much lately. I guess I am tired. >Too little sleep. She goes to bed at 8:00 and gets up once or twice a night >then I get up at 4:30 and am up until about 10:00. I'm running on empty. > > Jillian has her 6 mon check up on Monday. has his 3 year. She only >weighs about 13 lbs. 6 oz. > > Another thing I forgot to mention that depressed me was that my parents I >guess are too busy raising my sisters 4 kids that they didn't even call me on >'s birthday and with not being on the list to talk to anyone, the only >person that remembered was a good friend of mine from the nursing home whose >daughter died 2 months before with Trisomy 18.I know I am having a pity >party for myself. I'll get over it. I always do. Sometimes I just think life >hurts too bad. > > I am so sorry for dumping on you but I had to talk to someone. I cried the >entire time I typed this. I can't seem to control it lately. If you want you >can forward this to the list to let everyone know, I MISS YOU DEEPLY !!!!!, I >just can't handle the quanity of mail at this point. I'd stress out further. > > By the way, what is the update on Logan. I haven;t heard. I think of >daily. > > Love , > Foley > Mom to 3, celebrating yesterday his 2nd birthday with Jesus >instead of Mommy, and Jillian , CHARGEr #2 at 6 months old >> > >I thought I would forward this to the list as I know you all care about >and I think she could really do with some support right now. I will forward >any replies onto her.I know she will really appreciate any replies. > >Elaine mum to Elise(6yrs) & Jack(14 1/2mths)CHaRGE >Dumfries,Scotland >Content-ID: <0_906409404inet_out (DOT) mail.aol.com.2> >Content-type: message/rfc822 >Content-transfer-encoding: 7bit >Content-disposition: inline > >From: JFoley6163@... >Return-path: >To: JMurraybel@... >Subject: from Foley >Date: Fri, 18 Sep 1998 20:39:22 EDT >Mime-Version: 1.0 >Content-type: text/plain; charset=US-ASCII >Content-transfer-encoding: 7bit > >Elaine, > >I just want to say I miss you guys so much but I can't rejoin the list right >now because I am really stressing out !!!!!. I started back to work and every >muscle in my body aches. My job is really physical.( I started my period the >night before work and that really stinks TOO )I have to get up at 4:30 am to >be at work at 6:00. I get off at 2:30 and pick up and Jillian. My >babysitter loves Jillian. She is befginning to coo alittle more since she >interacts with the other kids. They love her too. The sitter says her 4 yr old >daughter asks every day if that new baby is coming back.My sitter is the best. >If she quit I think I would have to quit my job because I wouldn't trust >anyone else. > > I have sunk into a depression. Work actually helps that out though. I am SOOO >busy there. My department was a wreck when I returned. Yesterday was 's >birthday. He would have been 2. Sometimes when I visit his grave I am actually >cheery. Others I cry a bit. This time I hysterically feel apart !!! I don't >know what makes each time different. I cried so hard and Jillian was next to >me and I got so depressed again that she has CHARGE. Wasn't enough??? >What other lesson does God need me to learn?Why ( if this is Satan ) did God >allow it to happen again??? I actually do thank God that if she is stuck with >CHARGE that she is the mildest case I know of diagnosed, but still sometimes >I fall apart.I have been crying so much lately. I guess I am tired. Too little >sleep. She goes to bed at 8:00 and gets up once or twice a night then I get up >at 4:30 and am up until about 10:00. I'm running on empty. > >Jillian has her 6 mon check up on Monday. has his 3 year. She only >weighs about 13 lbs. 6 oz. > >Another thing I forgot to mention that depressed me was that my parents I >guess are too busy raising my sisters 4 kids that they didn't even call me on >'s birthday and with not being on the list to talk to anyone, the only >person that remembered was a good friend of mine from the nursing home whose >daughter died 2 months before with Trisomy 18.I know I am having a pity >party for myself. I'll get over it. I always do. Sometimes I just think life >hurts too bad. > >I am so sorry for dumping on you but I had to talk to someone. I cried the >entire time I typed this. I can't seem to control it lately. If you want you >can forward this to the list to let everyone know, I MISS YOU DEEPLY !!!!!, I >just can't handle the quanity of mail at this point. I'd stress out further. > >By the way, what is the update on Logan. I haven;t heard. I think of >daily. > >Love , > Foley >Mom to 3, celebrating yesterday his 2nd birthday with Jesus >instead of Mommy, and Jillian , CHARGEr #2 at 6 months old > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 21, 1998 Report Share Posted September 21, 1998 Elaine, Please tell F that we are thinking of her. I know how difficult it is to juggle full time work and full time advocate for our kids and full time mom and also to deal with the loss of one of our kids to CHARGE...and is a bittersweet reminder of her twin that we do not get to hold, and I still have tears 2 1/2 years later. I am very worried about her health. She sounds extremely depressed and I hope she has some good support around her. It doesn't sound like she feels that way though. I have recently begun taking an anitdepressant and seeing a counselor and it has made a world of difference. I hope she can get some support... G Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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