Is this a deadly disease!

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and any one other that wants to read this.

 Yes as you have been told some have lost there battel with stills one way or

the other. but I want to also threw some thing out there for you and Mike also

in this mix of fear scardness and worry. There are also many of us who have come

close to death and some how managed to fight and live to still be here I know I

am one of them and my Battel came befoore I joined this sight . mine was from a

medacation side efect but not right away it happend months later and if I had

not been blessed with a body filled with rubber vains I very well may not have

made it to today. I know others like Larry have also come close . I also know

that some spoken or not may have crossed the line and tried to even end things

them selfs again  I did that and again some how thankfuly I made t threw that .

Again it was I belive more to do with medacations and some side efects then me

as a person as doing some thing like that is not any thing I had ever thought

about before or

after but it scares me still to this day that it happened and I felt that bad

and a lone but I had a lot going on right then also that many face also just not

at the very same time. no excuse mnd you only a way for me to understand what

happend in my own case.

 I can also tell you at first I worried a lot about not living threw this stills

stuff but I no longer even think of that all I keep focused on is living with

stills and how to do just that . my self I find working with stills a lot easyer

for me then when I fought stills to be ride of it and get my life back to what I

knew it had been . now I do miss that life but I also know I would have missed

it the ssame as I do being 18 and free of the worrys of a parent and knowing I

can get hurt if I do that dumb kid stuff still! Any how for me I try not to

focuse on the negitive to much and try to on the good that I know is still in my

life seen and unsenn know and unknown yet.

 Just a deferent way of looking at stills and this comeing from a person who's

father would always say to me " your always barrowing trouble " because I would

look at life or things in such a negitive way so much as this oor that could

happen instead of leaving it alone and living for now and planing for tomarow

and enjoying what I can in both with out letting the bad rule my life all the

time.

 okay redneck off soap box time has come so later ya alls

hugs

the redneck

Marty G.

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