And the update to this past Saturday....

[Guest guest]

There will be no second date for me tonight. Which is fine, because

I give credit to Sandy for keeping me grounded in one of her posts

(thank you, Sandy). Turns out the following occured. I received an

email from Hayley this morning. Turns out she is trying to work

things out with her ex-boyfriend and has been talking with him the

past few days (she talked so much of wanting to hang out with me

anyway this evening, but I figure she's talking with the guy

anyway).

At first, I felt very used and totally disgusted in my initial

response. People think that women get used and such all the time.

Men do, too. Anyway, I went for a walk for a few minutes and got all

that cleared out of my system.

Then I realized something. As well as the first date went, she

talked about wanting to be involved with someone so she could grow,

etc. I thought, " How ironic. If you want to grow and have others

respect you, you don't get involved with someone while trying to mend

things with someone else. It shows a strong level of

irresponsibility and disrespect for someone else. " People are not

suppose to go around doing those kind of things. Yet they do. So

Sandy, I sympathize with your pain and understand the need to

verbalize or whatever.

I am far past this morning already. Fortunately, I found out now

instead of being strung along for a few months. That would have

truly hurt me bad. This morning was more a temporary " bee sting "

than anything else. I bounced back this afternoon from the morning's

fiasco, and am doing quite nicely. Listening to an online smooth

jazz station doesn't hurt either.

Some of my co-workers were like, " You're a nice guy, great guy, blah

blah blah. " Know what? They're all right. I've got wonderful

qualities most women appreciate in someone. More importantly, I love

myself and create my own happiness in life. I became complete in my

life, after falling in love with myself along the journey. I don't

need anyone else to complete me. If I happen to meet someone along

my journey who adds to my happiness, I welcome that openly. I

wouldn't have it any other way. All of this is coming from someone

who is AS/ADHD, not someone who is NT. I've got a bright future

ahead of me, and look forward to seeing what my journey brings me.