Way too enlightened!?

[Guest guest]

Dear Lynn,

You said: " When I focus on mom not being there for me, I put up a wall

against knowing us being there for each other always, alive or dead. "

And then you said, " But that is way too enlightened for me. "

Who are you kidding? :-)

Thank you for that work on your mother. It helped me to see my way into

an issue with my father that I thought I'd got over a long time ago, but

it surfaced again.

He didn't like me. Is it true? Actually, no. He loved me. But

sometimes he disliked the person I was being then. Turnaround. I

dislike the person I was then, at times. Yes, definitely! I was so

damn sure I was right! And when I finally saw this, it brought me such

happiness and peace. Because I used to worry that I hadn't forgiven my

dad for the way he often treated me. (He died some years ago.) And

because of that I have avoided thinking about him, almost as if he never

existed. But now I can meet him again, in my thoughts, and honour him

for the fine, brave, honest and loving man he really was. I can feel

him in my heart in all his sweetness, and see the true affection in his

smile.

Such a burden lifted. It's funny, I didn't even realise it was there...

Love,

Katharine