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Janet wrote: I am so thrilled to be living life. Yes, that is so true. I find joy in the smallest things. Let me give you some background why I have these feelings. When I was diagnoised with Hep C, I went into a depression, I just knew that my time with my family and friends was limited. I started planning for the future of my family to be without me. At the time I was told that I had 5 to 10 years to live give or take a year or too. *smile*. Although that seems like a long time to some, to me it was too short of a time. My Brei would barely be grown, my older children would barely be in their 30's, I would not get to see my grandchildren marry, have children and so forth. Not a good feeling. Then I went through treatment the first time, and I got a bit of hope because my virus count went down, and it healed my liver a bit, even tho It did not get rid of the virus. One day I was driving in the car and this song comes on the radio. It was Tim Mcgraw and it was "live like you are dying". It spoke of courage in the face of disease, it spoke of living life to its fullest, it spoke of giving love and getting love. It spoke of having the courage to face ones own morality, but going with all the gusto that we can give it. So it touched me so much that I decided to live my life that way. To live it like I was dying. To make the best of my life, to leave good memories of myself. Even if I achieved the ulimate goal of treating my disease and winning the battle against it. I was going to continue to live life like I was dying. I wanted to remember that each and everyday is a

gift. I don't want to waste a minute of it feeling sorry for myself. I don't want to wallow in self-pity. I don't want people to look at me and say Poor Janet. I want to kick up my heels, I want to climb mountains.(Abet that they are just the hills around here in Altus, but to me they are mountains. LOL). I want to fish in the lake and catch some fish. I want to ride a bull (yeah, a bull named fu man cho). Like in the song. I want to look out at the sunset, and say "Now that is beautiful". I want to laugh with my husband and family. I have climbed mountains(here in Altus), I have laughed, I have wiggled my toes in the sand, on the west coast, in the gulf. Now all I have to do is go to the east coast and wiggle my toes there. I have seen lots of sunrises, and sunsets. And you know what, I am going to continue to laugh with my husband,

love him the best I can(cause he deserves it). I am going to cuddle with my grandkiddos, read them stories, run with them, make faces, bake cookies. Have long talks with them about the hundred acre farm, pooh,rabbit, tigger, and Robin. And not to forget Eeyor. I reached my goal I beat the dragon Hep C. But I am not going to forget the lessons I learned along the way. I am off to sky dive, and other things on the list of things I have to do. Always, Janet TIM McGRAW LYRICS"Live Like You Were Dyin'"He said I was in my early 40's,With a lot of life before me, And a moment came that stopped me on a dime.I spent most of the next days, lookin' at the

x-rays,Talkin' 'bout the options and talkin' 'bout sweet time.Asked him when it sank in, that this might really be the real end.How's it hit ya, when you get that kind of news.Man what ya do.And he says,[Chorus]I went sky divin', I went rocky mountain climbin', I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fumanchu.And I loved deeper, And I spoke sweeter, And I gave forgiveness I've been denying, And he said someday I hope you get the chance,To live like you were dyin'.He said I was finally the husband, That most the time I wasn't.And I became a friend a friend would like to have.And all the sudden goin' fishing, Wasn't such an imposition.And I went three times that year I lost my dad.Well I finally read the good book,And I took a good long hard look at what I'd doIf I could do it all again.And then.[Chorus]Like tomorrow was a gift and you've got

eternityTo think about what you do with it,What could you do with it, what canI do with with it, what would I do with it.[Chorus]Sky divin', I went rocky mountain climbin', I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fumanchu.And I loved deeper, And I spoke sweeter, And I watched an eagle as it was flyin'.And he said someday I hope you get the chance,To live like you were dyin'.To live like you were dyin'.To live like you were dyin'.To live like you were dyin'.To live like you were dyin'. There are souls in this world which have the gift of finding joy everywhere and of leaving it behind them when they go." -Frederick

Faber There are souls in this world which have the gift of finding joy everywhere and of leaving it behind them when they go." -Frederick Faber