overflowing love

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Overflowing Love

I have in my heart so much love yet to give

to my little girl, but she did not live

for very much longer than five and a half years,

and so I bear, also, much sadness and tears.

I still play her music and touch all her toys

I look at her photos and remember the joys

of holding her close and seeing her smile

as she loved me, too, in her own special style.

She challenged my hopes right from the start

She disproved my 'theories', taught me things of the heart

I was pushed to my limits of endurance, and shown

I had God-given talents I'd previously not known.

I learned to stand firm, to say 'no', and to fight,

I knew what she needed to help with her plight.

I'd travel many miles, make phone calls, write a letter

Whatever it took to make our dear girl's life better.

She challenged 'the system' to provide for her needs

Equipment for movement, therapies and feeds,

She got what she needed and such a lot more.....

teachers, therapists, doctors, and carers by the score.

I grieve and I mourn for the child I have lost,

Though she taught the world much, but at such a high cost....

Blind, immobile, non-verbal, frequent pain

Reflux and seizures again and again.

On earth she endured the 'refiner's fire'

but now she's enjoying a reward so much higher

than I can imagine, because now she's so pure,

And she's blessed, not with earthly, but a heavenly cure.

So my love keeps on growing, as I ponder these things

I touch her face in photos and imagine her with wings

I'd not want her back to face her trouble and strife

so I say " run free and rest easy " in eternal life.

- (mum to angle Hannah, wings 30/10/02)